Beyond beauty | Layla Al Siyabi | TEDxYouth@DPSMIS
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0:09 - 0:12Hi guys. How are you all doing?
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0:12 - 0:15I literally just flew from Muscat
to be here for you guys today. -
0:15 - 0:17Thank you for having me.
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0:17 - 0:20(Applause) (Cheers)
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0:22 - 0:26So I want to start off
by asking you all a question. -
0:27 - 0:30Do you guys have
a hard time being true to yourself? -
0:31 - 0:35Think about that for a minute,
and we will revisit this. -
0:36 - 0:43So over the years, I've had
a very hard time being myself. -
0:43 - 0:47To answer the question myself,
it would be a big "yes." -
0:48 - 0:52Because first of all,
I'm not your conventional Muslim woman. -
0:52 - 0:57Second of all, growing up, I didn't go
through anything that was conventional. -
0:57 - 1:00I came from a divorced family,
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1:00 - 1:02multicultural,
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1:02 - 1:05lived in a different country
than I was born in. -
1:05 - 1:10So all of these aspects set me apart
from the groups that I would usually see. -
1:12 - 1:14My name is Layla Al Siyabi,
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1:14 - 1:19and today, I would like to talk
to you guys about being beyond labels. -
1:24 - 1:29Let me take you guys back
to where I really felt very vulnerable -
1:29 - 1:32and very afraid of being myself.
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1:32 - 1:37It was the time when I first gave birth
to my first-born child. -
1:37 - 1:41I was twenty years old, and we had
other plans - me and my husband. -
1:41 - 1:43We said we'd travel together,
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1:43 - 1:46we'd do things together
before we really settled down with a kid, -
1:46 - 1:49but that was not the case.
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1:51 - 1:55So we had this baby,
and the first time I looked at her - -
1:55 - 1:59I know what they say,
you feel this ecstatic feeling -
1:59 - 2:02when you look at your child,
and you feel overwhelmed, -
2:02 - 2:06and they show you in movies -
it's like a dream come true, -
2:06 - 2:08but it was nothing like that for me.
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2:08 - 2:11It was nothing like that for me
when I looked at her. -
2:11 - 2:14(Applause)
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2:14 - 2:16There I was, a 20-year-old, young woman
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2:16 - 2:19looking down at this baby,
looking up at me crying, -
2:19 - 2:23and I was like, "What did
I just get myself into? -
2:23 - 2:25Am I going to be a good mother?
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2:25 - 2:28How am I going to balance out,
you know, having a - -
2:28 - 2:30am I even going to have a career?
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2:30 - 2:32Forget finishing my education."
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2:33 - 2:36I had all these dreams for myself,
which I felt like they were crumbling -
2:36 - 2:42because I just had this card dealt
in my life that I had no clue of. -
2:43 - 2:48So a couple of months went by,
I settled into being a mom, -
2:48 - 2:51with the help of my family,
of course, and my husband. -
2:52 - 2:55I was still searching for answers;
I was still looking around. -
2:55 - 2:58I was still thinking, "Okay,
I need to get my education done -
2:58 - 3:01while I have this baby at home."
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3:01 - 3:04Of course, I didn't go
the conventional way -
3:04 - 3:07and go to university with my friends.
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3:07 - 3:09They were having so much fun -
I would see it on Facebook - -
3:09 - 3:12and I would be like,
"Oh my God, are you serious? -
3:12 - 3:15You went partying here,
and then you went traveling there?" -
3:15 - 3:19And there I was, at home
with a baby, and I was feeling terrible, -
3:19 - 3:21and I didn't know who I was.
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3:21 - 3:26I didn't know at all, if I'm still
the Layla that I was before my twenties, -
3:26 - 3:29or what is happening to me right now.
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3:30 - 3:35So it took me a while to figure out
all these questions I had. -
3:35 - 3:38But one day I just stopped
scrolling through Facebook, -
3:38 - 3:42which is so bad for your health
when you're going through things, -
3:42 - 3:45and you're looking at other people
and other people's timelines. -
3:45 - 3:47I said, "I'm not going
to do this to myself. -
3:47 - 3:51I'm going to stop asking myself
all these questions, -
3:51 - 3:53and start doing things
before it's too late." -
3:53 - 3:58So I went on to get my business
and marketing degree, with a baby, -
3:58 - 4:00which was really, really hard.
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4:00 - 4:04I stayed awake at night, doing my work,
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4:04 - 4:06my essays, while in the morning,
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4:06 - 4:09I had to wake up with a baby
as my alarm clock. -
4:12 - 4:15Four years went on, I got my BBA,
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4:15 - 4:21and then I finally decided
that I should look into doing other things -
4:21 - 4:23because the corporate world
wasn't really fitting -
4:23 - 4:26into my picture with the mom life,
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4:26 - 4:29and I wasn't really keeping up
with all the timings, -
4:29 - 4:32and I had a hard time finding a maid.
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4:32 - 4:36So I was like, "I'm just going
to try to do things my way -
4:36 - 4:39because I've been doing that
for the past four years of my life, -
4:39 - 4:41and it has been working out great."
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4:42 - 4:45So I decided I'm going to try out
my love for photography. -
4:45 - 4:49I'm going to touch base with makeup
because I loved doing all of these things -
4:49 - 4:53before I had the baby,
so let's get back into the game. -
4:53 - 4:56And then finally, I decided
to come across fashion, -
4:56 - 4:59where I did some courses
on fashion design. -
4:59 - 5:02And then I went on ahead
and started styling people, -
5:02 - 5:04my friends, my cousins.
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5:05 - 5:07And people liked it, the women loved it,
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5:07 - 5:11because I wasn't dressing
the conventional women or the models. -
5:11 - 5:13I was dressing everyday women
that are like me. -
5:14 - 5:17We're not a size zero,
we're not tall, we're not blond, -
5:17 - 5:21and we're just everyday women with a hijab
and it was going pretty well. -
5:22 - 5:26So I said, "You know what, it's about time
I take it to the next level." -
5:26 - 5:30And I looked into opening
my own styling studio, -
5:30 - 5:34but things weren't looking very great
with having a baby -
5:34 - 5:40and still no proper help,
and being here with no extended family. -
5:40 - 5:43So I decided I'm going
to do something from home. -
5:43 - 5:47So I started doing things from home,
which worked out in my favor -
5:47 - 5:50because most of my friends
would be comfortable coming over, -
5:50 - 5:52and I would start styling them.
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5:52 - 5:55Couple of years went on,
and I started feeling pressured -
5:55 - 5:56in the fashion industry.
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5:56 - 5:57I looked around.
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5:57 - 6:02Even though this is in Doha,
but we have like a lot of cattiness -
6:02 - 6:05going on in the fashion industry -
it's just like anywhere else. -
6:05 - 6:08I looked around and I felt completely odd.
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6:08 - 6:12I felt different, and I said,
"You know what?" -
6:12 - 6:17And there was always a competition
between the people and the models, -
6:17 - 6:21and they always want to push
people off, even as an adult. -
6:21 - 6:23They want to push people off
that are different, -
6:23 - 6:25so that the more -
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6:26 - 6:30the more generic version
of the industry can go on. -
6:31 - 6:36So that is when I looked deep into myself,
and I said, "I'm not going to take this, -
6:36 - 6:39I'm going to put myself
on a broader platform -
6:39 - 6:42where I can connect with women
just like myself. -
6:42 - 6:48I'm pretty sure that there are many women
like myself that I can reach out to." -
6:48 - 6:51So I decided to put myself online.
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6:51 - 6:55And that is when I started
my platform "BeingLayla_A." -
6:55 - 6:58It is completely
about being true to myself -
6:58 - 7:01and talking about fashion,
beauty, lifestyle, -
7:02 - 7:06along with the realness
that comes with being a mom -
7:06 - 7:07and being an entrepreneur.
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7:07 - 7:10It's not all happy, golden days.
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7:10 - 7:13There are days
that I'm terribly off of plan. -
7:13 - 7:18Like today, I missed my flight
because my son, in the morning, -
7:18 - 7:23had a really bad tummy ache,
and he was vomiting, and I said, -
7:23 - 7:27"You know what, I can't go like this
without knowing he's going to be okay." -
7:27 - 7:30So I had to push my flight,
and then come here, -
7:30 - 7:33and I informed them
that I cannot go on for the first bit. -
7:33 - 7:38So you see, I kept customizing
my life until I'm here today. -
7:40 - 7:44And of course, along the way,
I realized my daughter was the best thing -
7:44 - 7:48that ever happened to me
because she made me see life - -
7:48 - 7:51(Applause)
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7:52 - 7:55She made me see life
in a completely different way. -
7:56 - 8:00She gave me a second chance to finding
this Layla in front of you today. -
8:00 - 8:05If I denied myself the right
to feel vulnerable, feel pressured, -
8:05 - 8:10or to ask those questions, then
I wouldn't be here in front of you today. -
8:10 - 8:15My advice to anyone that feels
like they're out-of-the-box, -
8:15 - 8:20I would say, being yourself doesn't mean
you can just do one thing. -
8:21 - 8:26It means being different,
and sticking to the decisions you make. -
8:28 - 8:31If you're on a journey
on finding yourself, -
8:31 - 8:35let me just tell you
it's not going to happen overnight, -
8:35 - 8:38it's not going to happen
maybe even in a year, -
8:38 - 8:41but the key is - major key alert:
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8:41 - 8:47the key is to stay true to yourself
and stick to those decisions -
8:47 - 8:49because eventually,
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8:49 - 8:52you're going to practice,
and you're going to make it through, -
8:52 - 8:54and you're going to have a habit
of not giving a damn -
8:54 - 8:57about what people say in the process.
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8:57 - 9:00(Applause)
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9:03 - 9:06I'm sorry I forgot to change my slides.
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9:07 - 9:09I think I'm not going to go
with the slides now. -
9:14 - 9:18So the other thing
about finding yourself in this world -
9:18 - 9:23is also the fact that you always
have to have a vision for yourself, -
9:23 - 9:26set goals for yourself, and stick to them.
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9:26 - 9:29Don't let anything
or anyone push you aside. -
9:29 - 9:33You can always fall off the wagon,
but then you can always get back on -
9:33 - 9:36because there are circumstances
that you cannot - -
9:39 - 9:41that's beyond your control.
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9:41 - 9:46There are higher powers out there,
so you better be aware of that. -
9:46 - 9:52Just always make plan A, B, C, D, E, F,
go up until Z, if you have to, -
9:54 - 9:57and that's going to help you
through your journey. -
9:57 - 10:00And some of the questions
that I asked myself when I got started -
10:00 - 10:03was, "Am I being true to myself?"
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10:03 - 10:06Being yourself doesn't mean that -
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10:06 - 10:09Everybody hears the term,
"be yourself," these days, -
10:09 - 10:12but what does it really mean
to be yourself in this day and age. -
10:12 - 10:14I don't think there is one way to do it.
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10:15 - 10:20And also, the way to look at it
is to say, "being true to yourself," -
10:20 - 10:23because each time
you go through this journey, -
10:23 - 10:25you're just going
to be put against decisions -
10:25 - 10:26that are going to be -
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10:26 - 10:29either you're comfortable with
or uncomfortable with. -
10:29 - 10:33If you decide to take
the comfortable bits, -
10:33 - 10:36then know that it's not going to be easy.
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10:36 - 10:40You're going to feel vulnerable,
you're going to feel out-of-the-box, -
10:40 - 10:43you're going to feel like
people just don't get you. -
10:43 - 10:46And that's okay
because at the end of the day, -
10:46 - 10:49the price you pay is nothing
compared to what you gained. -
10:50 - 10:55And lastly, I would like to leave you
with the questions that I asked myself -
10:55 - 10:56when I got started:
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10:56 - 11:03"What am I doing to contribute to myself,
the world around me?" -
11:03 - 11:08"Am I being true to myself,
genuinely because of my happiness, -
11:08 - 11:10or is it to please others?"
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11:10 - 11:15"Am I living my life to the full potential
for myself and my family, -
11:15 - 11:17or is it for others?"
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11:17 - 11:21These are some of the questions
that I asked when I got started, -
11:21 - 11:24and I would love
for you guys to get started. -
11:24 - 11:27It's important that you get started
as soon as possible. -
11:27 - 11:32Do not doubt yourself,
do not wait around for the right time. -
11:32 - 11:34There are always going to be haters.
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11:34 - 11:38It comes with a big load
where people don't understand you. -
11:38 - 11:40They just don't get what you're doing.
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11:40 - 11:44Some people are going to be
against what you do, against what you say, -
11:44 - 11:46but that doesn't mean
you stop because of them. -
11:46 - 11:48You keep on going.
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11:48 - 11:54You build yourself up as you go along,
and you become brave. -
11:54 - 11:55So that's about it.
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11:55 - 11:56Thank you so much.
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11:56 - 11:59(Applause) (Cheers)
- Title:
- Beyond beauty | Layla Al Siyabi | TEDxYouth@DPSMIS
- Description:
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Living a life behind the camera and the stereotypes associated with beauty standards, Layla Al Siyabi tries to break down the reel from real.
Layla Al Siyabi is a fashion blogger and empowerment advocate
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at http://ted.com/tedx
- Video Language:
- English
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 12:13
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David DeRuwe
At 5:17, the speaker says "with a hijab," not "with a job." This wasn't originally heard, so it has been post-editted. Thank you.