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Where is Thay? - Vulture Peak Gathering - 2016-06-08 Upper Hamlet

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    Vulture Peak Gathering
    Upper Hamlet, Plum Village
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    Where is Thay?
    June 8. 2016
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    A teaching from Lay dharma teacher
    Eveline Beumkes
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    Yesterday the Dharma teachers
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    were invited to come together
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    and sit near the Buddha,
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    next to the hall.
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    And Sister Chan Khong was there.
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    And she started our coming together
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    with saying to us,
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    “Dear Friends, I have,
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    I have a riddle for you:
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    " Where, where, is Thay?”
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    (laughter)
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    No one answered.
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    But we all smiled.
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    And I thought, right away.
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    “Wow."
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    (Is it working?)
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    Wow.
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    This is exactly the theme of my talk,
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    what I want to speak about tomorrow:
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    "Where is Thay?”
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    More, a little bit more precisely,
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    for me the theme is
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    "In what way Thay is with me?"
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    And this has been
    a burning question to me,
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    right from the moment I met Thay.
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    I came from a very dark place.
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    I had been looking for so long
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    and finally I found Thay
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    and the practice. So precious.
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    And right away I was afraid
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    that I might lose Thay.
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    I might lose him
    before knowing what I needed to know.
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    And I knew that he was the one who could
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    teach me.
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    He was the only one I knew who really knew
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    what I needed to know in order to live.
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    Because I felt very closed,
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    I felt very fearful, unhappy, hopeless
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    and I knew that I needed Thay,
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    to get the information from him,
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    in order to find the way out.
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    So I was afraid that he ...
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    he might continue his journey
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    before I had received the information
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    I needed to be able to swim by myself.
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    I’ll give you
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    a little bit of background information
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    about the place where I came from,
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    so you understand better my happiness
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    to find Thay.
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    When I was 12 years old, or I guess 11,
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    the world turned grey. I lost my joy.
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    I was very surprised.
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    I didn’t understand it.
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    I used to enjoy playing,
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    going to school, seeing my friends.
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    And all of a sudden,
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    everything lost its meaning.
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    I didn’t care any more, doing this or that.
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    I didn’t understand it.
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    This mood, state of mind,
    stayed maybe for a year,
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    and then it fortunately dissolved.
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    But it has been coming back,
    more or less intense.
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    And it made me question,
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    what am I doing here on earth?
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    What is the reason of my life?
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    What is the meaning of life?
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    When I was 18,
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    there was a booklet
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    called...
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    It was a booklet written about the
    report on the state of the environment,
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    a report from the Club of Rome.
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    And it was called Dead Spring, and
    on the cover was a dead tree.
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    I was 18. I haven’t read the book.
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    I understood right away what was in it,
    and I felt hopeless.
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    Already for some years, when I was
    washing the dishes in the evening,
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    when I put soap in the water to
    wash the dishes, I wondered ...
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    We were living in Amsterdam
    on the third floor,
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    with many, many apartments around us.
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    When everybody in Amsterdam,
    in Holland, all over the world,
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    is putting soap in the dish-washing
    water a few times a day,
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    how can we drink the water?
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    How can we continue to survive?
    And then this is only dish-washing water.
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    I was then maybe 15, 16.
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    So when I read, when I saw this booklet,
    it confirmed my fear.
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    And, when I spoke about it with other
    people, they said,
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    “Eveline, don’t worry.
    Nature is very strong.
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    It can heal itself.”
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    Nobody understood my fear.
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    I felt very alone for a long time,
    and I stopped talking about it.
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    But I always had this fear of
    what is going to come.
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    I felt a cloud, a black cloud of
    the threat, above my head, always.
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    And I didn’t see a way out.
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    It felt meaningless to me to do anything.
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    There was no sense,
    there was no sense in doing anything.
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    So this was not a happy place to be.
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    I thought, well, this is it.
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    This seems to be it.
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    I will have to put up with this
    and live my life.
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    I did, not very happy.
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    And then when I was 28, I read
    a book about parapsychology.
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    Para... well, anyway, miraculous things.
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    I didn’t know whether what was
    written in the book was true or not.
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    I didn’t say it was not true;
    I didn’t say it was true.
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    But when I finished reading, I thought,
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    “Well, you never know.
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    Maybe there is more between
    heaven and earth than I know.”
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    Maybe... So there was a small opening.
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    And then - I was 28 - I started to look,
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    to explore in different
    spiritual traditions,
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    starting to read books and going
    to workshops in Holland, retreats.
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    And then I found,
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    then I found a book of Etty Hillesum,
    the diary of Etty Hillesum.
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    She is like Anne Frank.
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    You may know her, a Jewish woman
    in the Second World War.
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    Anne was 12 years, but Etty was 28,
    just like me at that time.
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    And Etty became a friend.
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    I read every day
    a few pages of her diary.
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    And Etty showed me a way from her…
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    She was 28, and she died finally,
    in the war. So she didn’t survive.
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    But I read in her book that…
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    You could follow her way,
    written day by day,
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    and you could see how she was growing,
    how compassion
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    – I would say now,
    I wouldn’t say it at that time –
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    that compassion and understanding
    were growing in her.
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    And I saw that the darker
    the situation she was in
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    - she went to a camp and the situation
    became, for the Jews in Holland,
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    became more difficult and more difficult.
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    So it was a squeezing situation.
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    But the darker the situation is,
    I could read,
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    the more intense and faster
    her inner light was growing and shining.
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    And her strength was growing
    very fast. And that gave me hope.
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    Because with the idea that in my life
    very dark times might come,
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    now I had hope that however
    dark it might get,
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    and even when the world around me
    gets darker and darker,
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    then that it may be helpful for me to
    grow in the direction of the light faster.
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    So I was less afraid
    for the darkness to come.
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    And then I was so lucky
    to find some day
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    The Miracle of Mindfulness,
    a very small booklet.
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    And, um, no, no, before that, yes, yes,
    I was looking.
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    I kept looking in different directions,
    but I didn’t find anywhere a teacher
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    or a way, a spiritual path, where
    my heart really resonated and
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    where I really said, “Yes, this is it.”
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    So, I didn’t want to make a compromise
    and I continued searching.
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    And then I found
    The Miracle of Mindfulness.
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    And before finishing that book, I knew,
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    “Now, this is it. Now I have found what
    I have been looking for all these years.”
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    And half way the book,
    there is an exercise,
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    “washing the dishes in mindfulness”.
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    (laughter)
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    I wrote a song about it.
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    But ... So I practised that
    for the very first time,
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    and I clearly remember where it was
    and I remember my experience.
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    It proved to me, it was such a different
    experience to wash the dishes
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    and really be aware of the movement of my
    hand, of the temperature of the water, and
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    the contact with the cup that I picked up.
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    And suddenly joy opened,
    I really enjoyed it.
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    And this was what I had been looking for.
    You know, I was not in touch.
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    I was hopeless, what I missed was the
    connection with things.
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    And here I felt a real, direct connection.
    I was in touch.
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    So I was very happy.
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    I knew this is my path.
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    But now ... the teacher -
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    because the author was a monk
    who seemed to be living in Vietnam.
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    And who can describe my surprise when two
    days after finishing reading this book,
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    I read somewhere in a newspaper that
    the author, Thich Nhat Hanh,
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    was coming to Amsterdam - yes! - and
    giving a meditation weekend in Amsterdam.
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    So, I was very, very, very curious
    to meet him.
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    I came from a slightly
    Christian background,
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    So Buddhism .... yes, that was something
    to be very carefully explored.
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    And then Thay came with Sister Chan Khong.
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    And right away I felt, well,
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    I was so moved, so moved.
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    But. I need not explore,
    tell you more about that,
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    because I guess that is the experience
    we all know when we see Thay,
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    with his gentle energy, his smile.
    How can your heart not melt?
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    (laughter)
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    And then I heard about Plum Village.
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    It was May when Thay and Sister Chan Khong
    came to Amsterdam.
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    And I decided when I heard about
    Plum Village, to go there.
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    And when I arrived,
    I felt when I was in Plum Village...
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    Oh, maybe I should tell you what it
    was like.
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    Lower Hamlet ...
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    at most 60 people, maybe 40,
    mostly Vietnamese, 6 westerners.
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    And I felt so happy,
    I felt so extremely happy.
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    I felt really like coming home.
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    And I’ve heard so many people
    after me using the same words.
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    “It feels like coming home here.”
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    I went back to Amsterdam and I thought
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    I thought, “Now my life has changed;
    now I will be happy.”
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    I really believed that.
    And I was so surprised that within …
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    in less than 3 days I was back in my
    old track of … as I used to feel before.
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    And so we, here, of course,
    we understand that was because …
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    because… there was no Sangha.
    There was no Sangha!
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    Next summer I went back to Plum Village,
    of course looking forward, very much.
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    And the same experience,
    enjoying it so deeply.
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    And then I remember one day I was in the
    library, a very small room,
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    and I read a magazine. And until the
    day of today I remember what I read there.
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    It made a very deep impression. It was an
    article about
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    Rumi, from the twelfth century,
    I think a Sufi mystic.
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    And in the article it was described
    how much Rumi loved his master.
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    He loved him so dearly. And I really
    could connect with that.
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    And then, his master died,
    and Rumi was inconsolable.
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    And surely I could connect with that.
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    And there was a description of how
    Rumi kept looking for his master.
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    He kept looking and looking
    and looking for years.
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    And then, after 5 years, it was written,
    he found his master.
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    He found him everywhere.
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    And that was such a hopeful news to me.
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    I thought - and it was a deep intention,
    a deep determination, deep in me -
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    "This is what I want,
    I want to find Thay everywhere."
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    But in the magazine was not a description.
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    I had no clue how Rumi had found his
    master. So this was a koan.
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    I had to find out for myself.
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    (The bell is awoken... )
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    (The bell is invited one time...)
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    So this was a question that I was holding
    in my heart,
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    knowing about Rumi’s example
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    . And for me the question was:
    “How can I find Thay everywhere?”
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    So it was in my heart.
    I carried it along.
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    Then around Christmas that same year, Thay
    and Sister Chan Khong offered a retreat
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    in Paris, in Fleur de Cactus,
    which is now Maison de l’Inspire.
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    I think we were about 20, 25 people then.
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    And I had started to think
    about quitting my job.
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    I felt very unhappy at my job. And at
    first, I had been thinking that,
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    with the practice, I should be able
    to make myself happy there.
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    I tried, but I did not succeed. And then,
    one day I heard Thay say that a seedling -
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    -- you know,
    a seed that has just sprouted ---
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    a seedling needs protection
    in order to grow.
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    And then I knew I had
    permission to leave my job.
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    (laughter)
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    But I was deadly scared to do so.
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    And during that winter retreat,
    I spoke about my situation and my fear
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    with Thay and with Sister Chan Khong.
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    And when I left, Thay said to me,
    “Eveline, we are with you.”
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    Well, those were precious words.
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    “We are with you.”
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    I don’t know how often I have turned
    these words around in my mind,
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    wondering what exactly Thay meant by
    “We are with you.”
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    In what way?
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    And what came up was a story I had read
    in a book a few years ago,
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    one of the books
    I read on my quest for a path.
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    The book was called
    Living with the Himalayan Masters,
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    the masters of the Himalayas, and one of
    the stories in the book described
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    a disciple who was walking by night
    on a very small mountain path, alone.
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    And all of a sudden, he slipped from the
    road and fell into an abyss.
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    And then, miraculously, his master lifted
    him up and put him back on the path.
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    So that story came up, reflecting on
    the question, “How is Thay with me?”
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    It didn’t feel like this was the way that
    Thay was with me.
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    A few months later, I did quit my job, and
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    I went to America on invitation
    of a monk and a friend,
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    who both lived in San Francisco,
    and who had invited me to go there.
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    Again, I was deadly scared to make such a
    big trip, with an airplane, all by myself,
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    to America.
    But, I wanted the adventure.
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    No, that’s not true.
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    I wanted, in fact, to explore the
    different Zen centers that were in America,
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    because in Holland by that time, we had
    no Zen centers at all.
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    And from coming in Plum Village, I had
    heard from people coming from America
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    that there were places in America
    where you could practice.
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    And I was curious to go there and
    to see other teachers than Thay.
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    Thay was the only teacher that I knew.
    I can tell you, that it just confirmed,
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    being in America, that I was on
    the right path being with Thay.
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    Okay. I went to San Francisco,
    invited by Thay Tu Luc.
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    And he was living in a temple there,
    in the busy streets.
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    And then he said, “Eveline, if you want
    to, I can bring you to the monastery
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    in the mountains, in the middle
    of the woods, the Kim Son monastery.”
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    That seemed a very nice adventure.
    So I went to the Kim Son monastery,
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    and I enjoyed it very much,
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    with the redwood trees, the woods
    - I had never seen so beautiful.
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    It was really wild there.
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    And after - I was planning to stay in
    America for half a year at least,
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    maybe a year - and after a few weeks,
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    guess who visited, who came to
    the Kim Son monastery?
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    (laughter)
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    Yes, yes, Thay came. I had no idea.
    For me this was worlds apart.
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    And all of a sudden, there he was.
    And he recognized me,
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    the woman with the bicycle, because
    I came to Plum Village on my bicycle.
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    (laughter)
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    Not all the way from Amsterdam.
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    And I was so happy to be with Thay,
    so happy, and I started to wonder,
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    “Is it a good decision to stay in America?
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    Shouldn’t I go back to Europe
    and spend the summer in Plum Village?
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    It’s so precious to be with Thay.
    Who knows how long he is around?”
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    (I always was aware of that.)
    “Shouldn’t I go back?”
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    I was doubting and doubting.
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    It was a squeezing question
    because finally I had come to America.
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    It had taken me so much courage
    to make this step.
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    Now I was here, and should I go back?
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    So, I haven’t asked Thay many
    questions in my life,
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    but this is one of the questions I asked him.
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    I went to him and explained the situation
    and asked him, “Thay, what do you think?
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    Should I stay or should I go
    and be with you in the summer retreat?”
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    And you may guess what Thay answered...
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    He said - a very nice answer that I always
    keep with me when I have to make a choice
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    - “Both are OK.”
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    (laughter)
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    I decided to stay.
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    And then after about ten days,
    the moment came that Thay left us again.
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    It was a beautiful day, a beautiful evening.
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    Thay was gone and I had decided to stay,
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    and I knew I wouldn’t see him
    for a very long time.
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    I went - I felt sad,
    and I went into nature. I sat on a tree.
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    I sat for hours there in the neighbourhood
    of the temple, looking at the trees,
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    at the sky and the sky was turning dark.
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    And of course, I was wondering,
    "In what way Thay is with me?"
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    And then as I was looking at the sky, there
    were mountains, mountains very far away.
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    And all of a sudden I noticed there was
    some light above the mountains.
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    I was surprised. I thought I must not
    have been looking very well before,
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    because I never noticed
    there was a city over there.
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    But the light grew intenser,
    more and more light.
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    And then, all of a sudden,
    there was the moon.
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    It was not a city.
    It was the light of the moon.
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    And as the moon was rising,
    it wasn’t just the moon.
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    It was the most amazing, biggest,
    radiant moon I have ever seen.
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    I could spread my arms to show
    how huge this moon was.
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    And it moved so gracefully.
    There were no clouds in the sky,
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    none at all. It was a very silent evening,
    without the wind, very peaceful.
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    And very, very slowly, without moving,
    the moon was moving and rising and rising.
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    And all of a sudden there was
    a sound, the sound of the bell:
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    the bell inviting us to come to meditation.
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    I was not happy.
    I was so gazing at the moon.
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    I was completely connected,
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    and I was so happy - and unhappy
    at the same time as I was missing Thay.
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    And after - I don’t understand now
    why I made the decision,
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    because now I would have
    made a different decision,
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    but in those days I obviously did more
    what was expected of me.
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    So I went in.
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    And as soon as I was in
    with the other people, I did regret it.
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    I thought, “What have I done?
    I should have stayed outside!”
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    Fortunately, the Kim Son monastery
    has huge glass windows, really
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    - at least,in my memory,
    but then it’s thirty years ago,
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    but in my memory the windows are
    from the floor to the ceiling.
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    So, I took a place, I choose a place from
    where I could see the moon.
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    I continued to look at the moon.
    I wasn’t very concentrated.
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    I felt sad. Thay wasn’t there. I had
    come inside. I should have stayed outside.
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    And as much as possible,
    I tried to stay connected with the moon.
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    And then something happened.
    I’ve never understood it. Not even today.
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    But what happened was that
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    this huge, brilliant, radiant moon
    that I saw shining over there,
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    began shining from my own belly,
    just as big and radiant.
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    I saw it. It wasn’t something I figured
    with my mind. It happened to me.
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    And as we say in Dutch, “Ik stond er bij
    en ik keek er naar.” Ik zat er bij.
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    [Translated to English: “I stood there, and
    I looked at what was there.” I sat there.]
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    So I just observed it, in surprise.
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    Something else happened
    at the same moment.
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    As this moon was shining
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    -- now there were two moons,
    the moon outside and the moon inside --
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    at the same time, I felt that
    Thay’s smile was sinking into me.
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    I really felt it.
    I had seen Thay smiling so often.
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    And his smile, his serenity,
    was just sinking into me,
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    and I felt it resting
    at the bottom of my being.
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    And I knew, I would always find Thay there.
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    I had, from Store Consciousness I think,
    received an answer to my question,
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    “How is Thay with me?”
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    And I always can find him there.
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    Although there have been waves -
    but they have been on the surface -
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    in the depths of my being,
    I feel Thay’s presence.
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    Then I stayed one year in America.
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    When I came back to Europe, Plum Village
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    opened its doors for the very first time
    to residents, permanent residents,
  • 35:19 - 35:24

    and I didn’t need to think what to do.
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    Of course, I went to live in Plum Village.
    This could be a story in itself.
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    (laughter)
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    [Sister Chan Khong asks from off-stage:
    “Can you sing your song?”]
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    Yes, yes, it’s coming, Sister Chan Khong.
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    (laughter)
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    Yes, yes, yes. .
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    I was given a room from where
    I could watch the sunset every evening
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    It was so beautiful.
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    [Looking around.]
    No, no, we are in Upper Hamlet.
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    And there... So that was maybe a
    few months after coming back from America.
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    And there Thay invited all of us
    – that means eight people -
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    to express our experience with
    the practice in a creative way.
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    He encouraged us to sing and to write songs.
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    And so I wrote a song about
    this experience of the moon:
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    together, the moon in America
    and the sun in Plum Village.
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    And I’ll give it a try...
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    The sun is going down,
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    and the sky is turning grey.
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    The day has not yet ended
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    while the night is on its way.
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    I hear a last bird singing,
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    and I join it in its song.
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    And then everything falls silent
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    while the twilight lingers on.
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    Now the stars are growing brighter,
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    we are waiting for the moon.
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    It is rising from a mountain
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    like a luminous balloon.
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    Shining brighter than the sunshine,
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    smiling limitless serene,
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    Shining inside, shining outside,
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    it’s a moon I’ve never seen.
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    I keep looking in amazement,
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    I keep looking in delight.
  • 38:48 - 38:54
    Every leaf has turned transparent;
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    now it seems no longer night.
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    I would like to look forever,
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    and I pray we never part.
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    Then at once I find it shining
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    from the bottom from my heart.
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    Shining brighter than the sunshine,
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    smiling limitless serene,
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    Shining inside, shining outside,
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    it’s a moon I’ve never seen.
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    I keep looking in amazement,
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    I keep looking in delight.
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    And my joy surmounts the mountains,
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    I have found the moon inside.
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    I’m aware of time ...
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    And this is one of the ways I have found Thay.
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    Very shortly I will share with you other
    ways I’ve found Thay in the course of years.
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    I’ve discovered that when I am
    concentrated in my practice -
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    which of course I’m not always,
    which is from time to time -
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    the more I am concentrated, really
    concentrated, then Thay’s energy is there.
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    The more I am concentrated,
    the more I feel Thay near.
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    He is there, in my practice.
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    My favorite practice is walking meditation.
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    And a few years, no, I guess many years ago,
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    Thay taught us what he did
    sometimes during walking meditation.
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    He said, “Sometimes I walk with my
    students, with one of my students.
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    On my in-breath as I walk, I say
    the name of that student.
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    And on my out-breath, I say,
    ‘I am here, I am here, I am here’.”
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    I thought, “This is a very nice practice.
    I’m going to try that for myself.”
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    I tried it when my father died.
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    And I said, “Daddy, Daddy, Daddy,
    I am here, I am here, I am here.”
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    And as I continued to walk in this way,
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    my father became so present
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    that all by itself - I didn’t think of it -
    but the words “I am here” changed into
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    “We are here, we are here, we are here.”
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    And the same, when I invite
    Thay to walk with me.
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    then I always begin with “I am here”
    until I really feel the presence of Thay.
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    And then I change it
    - or it changes itself - into
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    “We are here, we are here.”
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    So this is another way I have
    found Thay in my practice.
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    And then, much to my relief, after coming
    a few years to Plum Village
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    and making friends here
    - dear friends, Dharma friends -
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    I began to sense that when I was
    with my friends, I began to sense,
  • 43:43 - 43:48
    "Thay is here, Thay is here."
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    He is in my friends.
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    And that was… that took away my fear
    that when Thay is no longer there …
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    I knew I have my friends.
    I will find Thay in my Dharma friends.
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    And when I heard about Thay’s stroke,
    I was shocked at first.
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    And that week, I went to the
    Sangha in Amsterdam.
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    And in the Sangha, though there were people
    who not even had been coming very often,
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    but yet the energy of the Sangha was there
    and I experienced Thay’s presence there.
  • 44:37 - 44:43
    And I was so relieved.
    It was such a reassurance to feel
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    Thay is really here. I can feel him.
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    And I am also aware that
    Thay is in the way I look.
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    I have taken in so much of his words,
    of what he has taught, that the way I see,
  • 45:08 - 45:15
    the way I hear, the way I think,
    is so interwoven with what I’ve learned.
  • 45:15 - 45:22
    So Thay is there in what I see,
    what I hear, what I think,
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    at least when I’m mindful.
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    And, now I am in the most lucky place
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    to see Thay all around me
    -- inside and all around.
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    Now, thank you for listening so long.
    It’s already almost 12:30.
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    [The bell is woken up.]
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    [The bell is invited the first of 3 times.]
  • 46:21 - 46:35
    [The bell second of the bell.]
  • 46:35 - 46:38
    [And soon, the third sound of the bell.]
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Where is Thay? - Vulture Peak Gathering - 2016-06-08 Upper Hamlet
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