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Dialogue: 0,0:00:02.76,0:00:04.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SOUND OF DIAL-UP DATA MODEM]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:10.68,0:00:11.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[THEME MUSIC FROM "FINAL FANTASY" PLAYS]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.62,0:00:13.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[JACOLBY SATTERWHITE]\NWhen you have cancer, you're supposed to die.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.82,0:00:16.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,With modern technology,\Nyou're basically being resurrected.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.46,0:00:22.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I was a kid, I had cancer.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.58,0:00:25.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I was in the hospital,\NI played "Final Fantasy".
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.48,0:00:31.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Those were my escapisms during\Nsuch a deep period of trauma.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.58,0:00:34.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can see that being my natural lexicon\Nas a creator.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.40,0:00:39.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Maybe I've been skeptical of my own\Nmortality my whole life.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.12,0:00:41.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been making things\Nto make myself
Dialogue: 0,0:00:41.10,0:00:43.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,witness these objects\Nand say that I'm still here.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.80,0:00:55.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[AUDIO RECORDING OF SATTERWHITE'S MOTHER]\N--Moments of silence.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.38,0:01:34.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I originally went to Pioneer Works\Nas a technology resident,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.28,0:01:37.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to 3D print my mother's drawings\Nof consumer objects.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.09,0:01:45.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My mother's practice is like\Na gesso or a primer.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.82,0:01:49.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's basically the foundation\Nfor where I begin all ideas
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.50,0:01:52.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how I perceive these ideas in the present.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.26,0:01:55.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[AUDIO RECORDING OF SATTERWHITE'S MOTHER]\N--I apologize.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.56,0:02:00.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SINGING]\N♪ I apologize for what I put you through... ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.18,0:02:03.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SATTERWHITE]\NShe made 150 a cappellas
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.64,0:02:09.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that were kind of mimicking the traditional\Nstandard for Top 40 hits.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.83,0:02:11.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The songwriting was a big component.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.38,0:02:13.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was something she would do\Nin a mental hospital.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.26,0:02:15.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was something she would do at home.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.10,0:02:17.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SINGING CONTINUES]\N♪ My life was crazy when I didn't understand... ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.16,0:02:20.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SATTERWHITE]\NNick Weiss from Teengirl Fantasy,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.68,0:02:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he and I spent around two years turning these\Nraw a cappellas into an electronic dance record.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.82,0:02:33.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Simultaneously, I was also\Nmaking visuals for it,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.38,0:02:36.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I wanted to make\Na virtual reality album.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.38,0:02:47.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm a Millenial with an addiction to \NInstagram and iPhone.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.20,0:02:50.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lean into it, use it as material,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.24,0:02:52.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and try to make it tactile and poignant,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.03,0:02:54.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and make it feel like skin.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.27,0:02:57.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's really loose and not premeditated.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.54,0:03:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a way, it's like finding\Nreally beautiful compositions with data language.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.66,0:03:21.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The exhibit at Pioneer Works is\Nembodying my work through different mediums,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.49,0:03:23.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,including sculpture, video,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.52,0:03:25.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,performance, and 3D animation.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.40,0:03:35.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was exploring how to make\Na sculpture world out of digital space.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.56,0:03:41.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There are four cabinets that\Nexplore different themes
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.24,0:03:43.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I have unmasked over the years:
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.40,0:03:45.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sports,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.46,0:03:47.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,American dream paraphernalia,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.36,0:03:48.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,money,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:48.36,0:03:49.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and pharmaceuticals.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.10,0:03:54.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so basically, it's just an abstract reaction\Nto that culture.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.78,0:04:02.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--It makes me feel like a video game character.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:03.46,0:04:05.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Like you could just play me and I walk around,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.71,0:04:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--like a third-person Lara Croft shooter or\Nsomething.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.50,0:04:10.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Oh my god, this is annoying.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.42,0:04:15.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you're doing everything by yourself,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.28,0:04:17.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you don't know what it potentially can be.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.28,0:04:21.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The potential of big ideas being\Ndelegated to a team
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.56,0:04:25.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that manifests something much greater\Nthan the individual hand.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.28,0:04:29.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Coming here a lot and talking to the builders,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.61,0:04:32.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,curating the puzzle pieces\Nthat were on the floor,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.50,0:04:34.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's pushed me over the edge sometimes.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.57,0:04:37.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It involved a lot of self reflection\Nand self discovery,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.97,0:04:39.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a lot of self discipline.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.92,0:04:44.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Working with the people here\Nmade me step up my game a little bit more.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.69,0:04:48.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've never been more excited about what new\Npotential forms I can crack through.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.20,0:04:52.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[MAN]\N--You're talking talking about the\Noriginal renderings, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.44,0:04:53.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SATTERWHITE]\N--Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.98,0:04:56.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Oh, it is the right color.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.02,0:05:01.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the past ten years of my career,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.12,0:05:04.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've just been making things very open-endedly,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.84,0:05:06.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,using palettes from everywhere.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.34,0:05:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been drawing the Doubting Thomas composition\Nusing myself as all the figures
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.20,0:05:38.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,since I was in high school,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.70,0:05:42.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which basically narrates the story of \NJesus's resurrection
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.72,0:05:47.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and skepticism around his mortality.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.95,0:06:09.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The ultimate metaphor about the piece is\Nusing ritual as a way to ground you.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.27,0:06:11.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like touching something that\Nyou're skeptical about
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.95,0:06:13.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to ground you that it's real.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.74,0:06:17.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So making art, for me, is just a way\Nto ground me,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.41,0:06:18.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I'm real.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.54,0:06:42.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[RECORDED AUDIO OF SATTERWHITE'S MOTHER]\N♪ Tell me how could it be, ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.50,0:06:45.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ I don't know whatever. ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.94,0:06:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ How did I get here in this place? ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.86,0:06:56.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ Tell me how could it be, ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.68,0:07:00.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ I don't know whatever. ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.46,0:07:06.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ How did I end up in this way? ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.88,0:07:09.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[SATTERWHITE]\NHaving a public practice that
Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.76,0:07:12.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,circulates in galleries and museums
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.38,0:07:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is vulnerable because you're\Npublicly archiving yourself
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.00,0:07:20.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in ways that you may not feel\Nare flattering in the future.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.74,0:07:23.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a masochistic performance gesture,\Nto say the least.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.35,0:07:31.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Successfully creating is the art of\Nbeing willing to embarrass yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.50,0:07:32.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I took that to heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:32.86,0:07:35.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God, I was just being embarrassing for a decade!
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.96,0:07:37.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[LAUGHS]
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.98,0:07:46.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[RECORDED AUDIO OF SATTERWHITE'S MOTHER]\N♪
Dialogue: 0,0:07:51.54,0:07:54.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My mother's death three years ago\Nhad a huge impact on me.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.83,0:07:58.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It really brought in the act of\Nritual a lot more,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:58.90,0:08:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and made me focus on themes of\Nregeneration, healing, and resurrection.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.98,0:08:11.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Art became a form of escapism
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.72,0:08:14.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for me to reroute my personal traumas.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.94,0:08:17.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And now I think I'm trying to pursue something\Nmore...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.02,0:08:20.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,...present.\NMore mindful.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.52,0:08:22.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Trying to search for where\Nhome is for me now.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.92,0:08:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Trying to get to the core of who I am.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.48,0:08:32.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[RECORDED AUDIO OF SATTERWHITE'S MOTHER]\N♪ We will go on ♪
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.40,0:08:39.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ to another place in time. ♪