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← An Atheist, Then a Religious Hypocrite, Now a Lover of Christ - Testimony

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Showing Revision 2 created 06/03/2018 by Carrie Spradlin.

  1. What is your life?
  2. It is a vapor.
  3. The Bible says your life
  4. is like a puff of steam.
  5. There for a moment, and then it's gone.
  6. My name is Kevin.

  7. I grew up in Manchester in England
  8. in the seventies,
  9. into a background in those days,
  10. you were either considered
    a Roman Catholic,
  11. or like us, we were considered an Anglican
  12. which is Church of England now.
  13. We never went to church.
  14. All that means is I was
    christened as a child.
  15. Infant baptism is a big ritual there.
  16. It's a big superstition.
  17. People believe that you
    can't get into heaven
  18. without some sort of infant ritual.
  19. So the only times in my childhood
  20. I set foot in a church
  21. was at one of these christenings
  22. or was at somebody's wedding.
  23. And then, when I got to secondary school
  24. or high school
  25. I just professed to be an atheist
  26. back in those days.
  27. Really, even though I didn't know much
  28. about the Bible back then,
  29. and I didn't know much about Jesus Christ
  30. I did really know one thing.
  31. I knew deep down it was all true
  32. even in the days when I professed
  33. to be an atheist.
  34. There was just something inside of me -
  35. a nagging thought - my conscience
  36. which told me it was all true.
  37. And so as time went on,
  38. I left school and I just became
  39. a big sinner.
  40. I drank up as much sin as I could
  41. in various ways.
  42. And I did things which are
    real shameful to speak about
  43. in that time.
  44. And so time went on and I became
  45. a worse and worse sinner.
  46. And I got to my mid-twenties,
  47. and I started asking those questions
  48. that everybody asks at some point in life.
  49. Why are we here
  50. and what happens when this life is over?
  51. And I would philosophize.
  52. I remember each day
  53. I would just philosophize more and more.
  54. And I'd come up with the silliest
    interpretations of things.
  55. This would keep on going.
  56. But I knew there was a God at this time.
  57. I just looked at the whole creation,
  58. the Bible says, declares His handiwork.
  59. And my conscience again
    just keeps telling me
  60. this is true.
  61. At first, I would look at other religions.
  62. I wanted to become
    anything but a Christian.
  63. And I remember, I looked
    at things like Buddhism.
  64. But it was just all fairy tale stuff.
  65. It was just nonsense really.
  66. And then eventually,
  67. I started to open the Bible and look at it
  68. as like a history book.
  69. It was an old Bible that was passed down
  70. in the family from my granddad,
  71. and I just started in Genesis 1:1,
  72. "In the beginning, God created
  73. the heavens and the earth."
  74. And I just kept on reading
  75. and it seemed to make sense.
  76. Now, I didn't really
    understand it at that time,
  77. and I was trying to interpret it
  78. through my atheistic
    worldview I still had.
  79. Even though I wasn't an atheist,
  80. I still had a naturalistic worldview.
  81. I remember reading about
  82. the manna in the desert.
  83. I was thinking, well, that must be snow.
  84. These people must not really understand -
  85. these primitive people.
  86. But I still knew it was all true.
  87. And about the same time,
  88. I started to go to a high Anglican church,
  89. which is basically like Catholicism
  90. but without the Pope.
  91. It's all prayer book rituals.
  92. The sermons there were
    only 10 to 15 minutes.
  93. And there wasn't really
    the Gospel preached there -
  94. the message of how to get saved.
  95. And what truth I did hear there
  96. was all surrounded in hypocrisy.
  97. It was all filtered through that.
  98. Now, I was doing things in that time
  99. that I just become
    more and more religious.
  100. I thought I was a Christian
    for about six years.
  101. I went to that church,
  102. but I never knew Jesus Christ.
  103. I never really knew Him.
  104. But there was so much hypocrisy going on.
  105. For instance, me myself,
  106. you would have thought
  107. that for an hour and a half on a Sunday
  108. I was deeply religious.
  109. But for the rest of the week,
  110. I just lived like a complete hypocrite.
  111. You know, I'd go to nightclubs and things
  112. and do shameful things
  113. and then I'd be in church on a Sunday.
  114. Now, I knew that was wrong,
  115. but I'd look at other people in the church
  116. and they'd be getting blind drunk as well
  117. on a Saturday night.
  118. And I'd just think, well,
    they've been Christians
  119. longer than me.
  120. So this time just went
    on and on like this.
  121. Eventually, I always knew
  122. that there was something
    more to Christianity
  123. that I didn't have.
  124. Now, of course, it was Jesus Christ,
  125. because in this time,
  126. God was just always a distant deity to me.
  127. I didn't really know Him.
  128. I had a cliche - I would say,
  129. I've got a relationship with Jesus.
  130. Christianity is a relationship with Jesus,
  131. but I didn't really know Him.
  132. And so I started to listen to sermons
  133. and messages and look at teachings
  134. outside of the church I was in.
  135. And I was going through a series
  136. on the Sermon on the Mount,
  137. and then one day I sat in the garden
  138. listening to a sermon
  139. and I heard the words of Jesus
  140. from Matthew 5:27-30
  141. where Jesus said, "You have heard
  142. that it was said of old,
  143. 'you shall not commit adultery,'
  144. but I say unto you, if you look at a woman
  145. to lust after her,
  146. you've already committed adultery with her
  147. in your heart."
  148. And Jesus went on to say there,
  149. "cast your eye out, because it is better
  150. to enter heaven with one eye
  151. than to enter hell with both."
  152. Now, the context there
    is of course adultery.
  153. It's not saying it's a sin
  154. for a man to have sexual
    desire for his wife
  155. and vice versa,
  156. but Jesus does clearly say in those verses
  157. that to lust over someone
    you're not married to
  158. is a sin that will surely take you to hell
  159. if it's not repented of.
  160. Now, I had heard those
    verses many times before.
  161. And in fact, I remember discussing it
  162. only a few weeks earlier.
  163. I explained them away every time
  164. saying surely it doesn't mean
  165. what He says there
  166. because everybody does that.
  167. Everybody just lusts all the time.
  168. But that day, when I
    heard those words of Jesus,
  169. I knew He meant what He said.
  170. I knew for the first time,
  171. I realized that God was a holy God
  172. Who I could no longer play games with.
  173. And in all this, it just felt like
  174. the love of Jesus Christ
  175. because I realized that God could have
  176. killed me.
  177. I mean, my life is in His hands,
  178. and He could have killed me
  179. and put me in hell a week before,
  180. or a year before or two years before,
  181. knowing the shameful things I did.
  182. And He would have been
    perfectly just in doing so.
  183. But the kindness and
    the long-suffering of God
  184. which is meant to lead
    a person to repentance,
  185. led me to repentance,
  186. because I just saw the great love of God.
  187. And I'd been mocking Him for so long
  188. and playing games with God.
  189. And He just loved me.
  190. And He just died for me.
  191. In 2 Corinthians 5:21, the Bible says,
  192. "He Who knew no sin became sin for us
  193. that we might become
  194. the righteousness of God."
  195. Jesus Christ on a cross 2,000 years ago,
  196. He became a sin offering for us.
  197. He became a sin offering for me.
  198. He died in my place.
  199. And on that cross,
  200. all the guilt of my sin,
  201. the shame of my sin,
  202. just all my wrongdoings I ever did
  203. were placed upon Jesus on that cross.
  204. Not only did Jesus pay for that,
  205. and take away all my sin,
  206. so there is therefore now
  207. no condemnation left for me
  208. because Christ has already been condemned
  209. in my place.
  210. But He also lived a
    righteous and perfect life.
  211. You see, the greatest commandment
  212. in Scripture we are told
  213. is to love God the Father
    with all our heart,
  214. soul, mind, and strength
  215. and to love our neighbor as ourselves.
  216. Now, in the life of Jesus,
  217. He always perfectly loved God the Father
  218. with all His heart,
    soul, mind, and strength
  219. and He always perfectly loved His neighbor
  220. as Himself for every
    millisecond of His life.
  221. But since becoming a Christian,
  222. we never do that for even one second.
  223. We never perfectly love God.
  224. But from the moment
    I believed on Jesus Christ;
  225. from the moment I saw
    His great love for me,
  226. then not only was all my sin gone,
  227. gone forever,
  228. as far as the east is from the west
  229. the Bible says,
  230. He remembers our sin no more,
  231. but God now looks at me
  232. as if I have lived the perfect,
  233. righteous life of Jesus Christ.
  234. So, God now looks at me and says
  235. this is My beloved son,
  236. in whom I am well pleased.
  237. The cross of Jesus Christ
  238. is such a wonderful thing.
  239. There's an old hymn that goes,
  240. Oh my sin, oh the joy
    of this glorious thought;
  241. my sin, not in part,
    not just part of my sin,
  242. but the whole,
  243. is nailed to the cross
  244. and I bear it no more.
  245. Praise the Lord!
  246. Praise the Lord, O my soul!
  247. And if you don't know Jesus,
  248. if you were like me
  249. with just not knowing your sin's forgiven,
  250. not really knowing God,
  251. then I plead with you,
  252. Jesus really paid it all
    for you on that cross.
  253. He paid every drop of my wrath in hell.
  254. All of my hell Jesus
    paid for on the cross.
  255. That is what He did for us.
  256. If you will come to Him,
  257. if you will surrender to Him,
  258. I plead with you,
  259. Jesus - He doesn't want part of your life.
  260. He wants all of your life.
  261. And He is so worthy.
  262. He is so good. He is so kind.
  263. All together lovely.
  264. I had no life.
  265. I just had a miserable, worthless,
  266. and pathetic life
  267. for so much of my life.
  268. I wasted so much of my life.
  269. But it was by coming to Jesus Christ
  270. that I now have true joy,
  271. true peace of the heart,
  272. and true life.
  273. He offers that to you
  274. if you'll come to Him.
  275. And He offers that to you this day.
  276. You see, the love Jesus has
  277. for the believer is just perfect.
  278. The Bible says - as Jesus said,
  279. "As the Father has loved Me,
  280. even so, I have loved you."
  281. You know, the Song of Solomon says
  282. that Jesus - He comes to the believer
  283. leaping across the mountains.
  284. After all my sin and all
    my shame before God,
  285. when I go to Him,
  286. Jesus comes running to me
  287. with His arms open wide,
  288. hands that were pierced for me,
  289. with holes in them for my sin.
  290. He just comes to us ready to embrace us
  291. in His everlasting love for us.
  292. Eternity!

  293. The next life is forever.
  294. there is nothing more important
  295. than being right with God
  296. for eternity.
  297. The Bible says
  298. it is appointed unto men
  299. once to die, but after this,
  300. the judgment.
  301. After death, there are no second chances
  302. to get right with God.
  303. But you must make peace with God
  304. before you meet Him.