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I'm tired.
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I'm so tired.
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Not from a lack of sleep,
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but from a sheer amount of disbelief.
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From seeing this water color world we live in
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slowly turning a light shade of tan.
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Smiles fading to frowns, ups turning to downs,
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some of us have lost our spark.
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Lost our drive, lost our heart.
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And frankly, I am tired of it.
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I'm exhausted by the sight of lives lacking a certain light,
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when each and every one of us deserve that right.
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Now do me a favor and lend me your ears.
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Keep your eyes peeled, place them here.
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Poetry and fancy word play on hold,
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here's a meaningful story I've never told.
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You see, a couple of weeks ago, a day like any other,
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I was heading to meet up with some friends for lunch.
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And for some reason, I truly couldn't be bothered
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but tackling the mess that is Los Angeles parking.
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So, I called myself a taxi.
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You see, I'm the type of person who likes to
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make conversation with pretty much anyone and everyone.
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Whether it's an old lady at a bus stop, or a barista at a coffee shop.
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People are people, and they all have something to say.
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After a few introduction sentences,
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me and this thirty-something year old gentlemen realized
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we're both creative types originally from the mid-west,
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out here in Los Angeles pursuing our many artsy endeavors.
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We continued conversing but quickly things got a little bit deeper.
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He asked me,
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"Was your family ok with you moving on to a bigger city,
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and chasing such an alternative career type?"
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"Definitely," I said.
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"They're just happy I'm happy and doing something I love everyday."
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He continued by saying,
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"Good, that's really good you're doing something you're passionate about.
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A lot of people nowadays can't seem to say that.
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He hesitated slightly but then continued.
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"You know, my dad and brother worked night and day
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for practically their entire lives,
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receiving little pay for doing something they didn't enjoy at all.
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They both always talked about how,
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'It'll be worth it one day,
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we can spend our hard-earned money later on.
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We will live a good life eventually.'
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But you know what?
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Neither of them got that.
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My dad died unexpectedly 4 years ago,
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and my brother just last year.
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They'll never get to live the life they always wanted to.
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So it's honestly very nice to see people following their heart,
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and living their life now, rather than later."
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And at that point, he dropped me off.
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After only a ten minute car ride,
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I left with a new perspective in my mind.
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Life waits for no one.
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If yours isnt' going the way you want it to,
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if you aren't pursuing what you want to pursue,
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if you wake up with immediate dread,
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constantly saddened by the hours ahead,
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moving through the days feeling lost, heart in a haze,
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holding back what you wanna say,
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waiting to be yourself another day,
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all your dreams and desires put on hold to be fulfilled
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maybe when you're old,
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you aren't doing it right.
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You aren't living your life.
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Eventually is not ok.
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Why tomorrow, when there is today?
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I finally feel like I'm finding my way.
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And not just living day by day.
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I'm doing what I love, I'm going where I wanna go,
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I'm being who I want to be, I'm happy.
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And you know what,
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I think everyone deserves to feel the same way.
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Thanks so much for listening,
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and I'll see you guys next monday.