A grief casserole -- how to help your friends & family through loss | Kate Schutt | TEDxWestChester
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0:28 - 0:33♪ I know you are weary ♪
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0:34 - 0:40♪ I know you are scared ♪
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0:40 - 0:47♪ There's nothing I won't do for you ♪
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0:50 - 0:56♪ There's nothing I won't bear ♪
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1:00 - 1:04The CT scan showed a tumor
the size of a grapefruit -
1:04 - 1:06on my mom's abdomen.
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1:06 - 1:09The doctor wanted to operate immediately
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1:09 - 1:13and as soon as possible after that,
start frontline chemo. -
1:14 - 1:15She was 67 years old.
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1:17 - 1:20I was headed to an extended gig
in The Middle East. -
1:20 - 1:23My two guitars and duffel bags
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1:23 - 1:25sat on the floor of my New York apartment.
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1:26 - 1:29I unpacked, repacked, and
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1:29 - 1:31♪ Was on the next train home ♪
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1:31 - 1:34♪ When she found out ♪
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1:34 - 1:38♪ She had a stomach full of cancer ♪
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1:39 - 1:44♪ It was the last day
that she was herself, yeah ♪ -
1:45 - 1:48♪ It hit us like a hammer ♪
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1:49 - 1:54♪ Sometimes in life, you have a choice ♪
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1:54 - 1:59♪ And sometimes none at all ♪
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2:00 - 2:04♪ So I moved into my childhood room ♪
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2:04 - 2:09♪ And I put down my guitar ♪
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2:10 - 2:14And I didn't pick it up again
for another year and a half. -
2:15 - 2:18I became my mom's primary caregiver,
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2:18 - 2:24and getting her through each day
took all of my energy and focus - -
2:24 - 2:27the never-ending meetings with doctors,
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2:27 - 2:31the labyrinth of medical
decisions to navigate, -
2:31 - 2:36not to mention her day-to-day care
and side-effects to manage. -
2:37 - 2:41No, there'd be no more writing songs.
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2:42 - 2:46But I kept notes of the songs
I wanted to write -
2:47 - 2:51should I ever get back to music
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2:51 - 2:56or somehow find my way
through this new landscape of loss. -
2:58 - 3:00My mom felt guilty for getting cancer.
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3:00 - 3:05She felt as though she was a burden
on me and the family. -
3:05 - 3:08And no matter how many times
I told her that she wasn't, -
3:08 - 3:09it wasn't her fault,
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3:10 - 3:14it was like the words never sank in.
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3:16 - 3:20Finally, eventually,
she went into her first remission, -
3:20 - 3:23and I got a few weeks to myself.
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3:24 - 3:27I pulled out my notes
and I started writing songs, -
3:27 - 3:31and that first song you heard,
"Nothing I Won't Bear," -
3:32 - 3:34was yet another attempt to tell her
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3:34 - 3:39that all I wanted to do
was be there by her side. -
3:41 - 3:45I got home, I played that song
for her, and it was ... -
3:48 - 3:53it was like the music and the lyrics
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3:53 - 3:55went straight to her heart.
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3:55 - 4:02We never had to have that conversation
about her being a burden ever again. -
4:08 - 4:11Let's do loss better.
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4:13 - 4:17Loss is a thread
that's woven through our lives. -
4:17 - 4:18It's everywhere!
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4:18 - 4:21How many of you have lost a beloved pet?
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4:22 - 4:24Lost a job,
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4:25 - 4:27lost a close friendship or two,
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4:28 - 4:31maybe have a person in your life die,
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4:31 - 4:34or know someone who's been
through that experience? -
4:34 - 4:38It's evident to live is to lose.
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4:38 - 4:44There's no escaping loss,
not our own or other people's. -
4:45 - 4:46Let's face it.
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4:47 - 4:51We do loss pretty badly.
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4:52 - 4:56We don't know what to do and say
when someone's going through grief. -
4:57 - 5:00We just want to get through it
and away from it. -
5:00 - 5:01It's uncomfortable.
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5:01 - 5:04And as soon as our life
goes back to normal, -
5:04 - 5:05the crisis is over,
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5:05 - 5:08we don't think about loss at all.
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5:08 - 5:09I mean, why would we?
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5:11 - 5:16What are the consequences
of doing loss so poorly? -
5:17 - 5:23Among other things,
people feel alone, bereft, -
5:23 - 5:25like they're underwater.
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5:26 - 5:29That's how I felt
when I was taking care of my mom. -
5:29 - 5:31Especially as her illness wore on,
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5:31 - 5:35it was like I was in some strange vacuum.
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5:40 - 5:46People close to me going MIA,
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5:48 - 5:50a lot of silence,
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5:54 - 5:55giving me space.
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5:56 - 5:57Space?
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5:57 - 6:02I'm going through the hardest thing
I've ever been through in my entire life -
6:02 - 6:05and you're giving me space?
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6:05 - 6:08I literally lost count
of the number of people -
6:08 - 6:09who came up to me and said,
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6:09 - 6:11"I really wanted to be in touch,
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6:11 - 6:14I know you've been having
a hard time with your mom, -
6:14 - 6:16but I didn't know what to say,
I didn't know what to do. -
6:16 - 6:20I didn't want to bring it up
or make it worse." -
6:20 - 6:22Bring it up?
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6:22 - 6:23It was up.
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6:24 - 6:26Make it worse?
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6:27 - 6:30There's no way you could have.
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6:33 - 6:36Listen, I, too, used to act the same way.
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6:36 - 6:39Back before my mom got cancer,
I didn't know what to do and say -
6:39 - 6:41when someone I knew
was going through grief. -
6:41 - 6:42I wished I did.
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6:42 - 6:45I wanted to be helpful,
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6:45 - 6:47but every impulse I had
felt awkward or off. -
6:47 - 6:52I mean, should I send a text or an email?
Is that appropriate at a time like this? -
6:52 - 6:54What about Facebook? Facebook?
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6:54 - 6:57Maybe I'll screw up my courage
and call them on the phone. -
6:58 - 6:59And say what?
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7:00 - 7:02My thoughts and prayers are with you?
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7:05 - 7:06I don't pray,
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7:06 - 7:09and at this point
in our cultural conversation, -
7:09 - 7:11that phrase is tired.
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7:13 - 7:18What about doing something for someone?
Everything I wanted to do felt intrusive. -
7:18 - 7:22Sure, I'd mouth that
sickeningly familiar phrase, -
7:22 - 7:27"Let me know what I can do to help,"
as if that was a kind of helping, -
7:27 - 7:30full well knowing they'd
never take me up on the offer. -
7:30 - 7:33It was just another thing
they'd have to decide. -
7:33 - 7:34And who was I?
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7:34 - 7:36Was I even close enough to them,
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7:36 - 7:39a good enough friend to be involved
at such an awful moment? -
7:39 - 7:42No, I'd say nothing,
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7:42 - 7:47convincing myself that at least then,
I wasn't making a bad situation worse, -
7:47 - 7:51and then I'd let myself
get distracted by my life, -
7:51 - 7:55maybe even on purpose, to avoid
the whole scary topic of mortality. -
7:56 - 7:58And it would all fade away
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7:58 - 8:01until the next loss came around.
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8:01 - 8:06Even in the middle of my mom's illness,
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8:06 - 8:09when I was quarter-backing
all of her care - -
8:11 - 8:15driving her to the hospital
week after week, -
8:15 - 8:20sitting with her
in the chemo suite for hours -
8:20 - 8:22while the clear plastic bag
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8:22 - 8:24dripped toxic liquid
into the port on her chest, -
8:24 - 8:28and I knew everything there was to know
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8:28 - 8:32about the state of her heart
and the state of her head -
8:32 - 8:34and the state of her health -
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8:34 - 8:40even I sometimes didn't know what to do
and say to my very own mother. -
8:43 - 8:47That's where being able
to write songs came in handy. -
8:49 - 8:52♪ I'm scared and you're brave ♪
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8:53 - 8:56♪ I'm free and you're caught ♪
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8:57 - 9:00♪ We're fighting a battle ♪
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9:01 - 9:05♪ We've already lost ♪
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9:05 - 9:11♪ We are living every minute ♪
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9:11 - 9:17♪ Of your dying days ♪
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9:21 - 9:23In the last days of my mom's life,
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9:24 - 9:26a family friend brought over dinner.
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9:27 - 9:29She didn't ask if she could.
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9:29 - 9:33She just showed up,
walked through the front door, -
9:33 - 9:35put two brown paper bags
down on the kitchen counter, -
9:35 - 9:37turned around and walked out.
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9:38 - 9:41I bet this felt risky for her to do.
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9:42 - 9:44She couldn't be sure
how many people were in the house, -
9:44 - 9:47what we liked to eat, were we
vegan, vegetarian, gluten-free, -
9:47 - 9:51or if there'd be enough food to go around.
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9:51 - 9:53Let me tell you right now.
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9:54 - 10:00That simple gift of showing up
with food ready to eat -
10:00 - 10:02was a godsend.
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10:02 - 10:05It meant I didn't have to think
about the rest of my day. -
10:05 - 10:08My mom was actively dying.
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10:08 - 10:11The hospice nurse said
she'd be gone within 24 hours. -
10:11 - 10:14We were glued to her bedside.
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10:14 - 10:17My dad, my brothers and their families,
and my mom's sisters. -
10:18 - 10:21I was giving her morphine
every couple of hours. -
10:21 - 10:23We were wiping her forehead
and the corners of her mouth. -
10:23 - 10:29It meant that we could go downstairs
when we needed to and wanted to -
10:29 - 10:32and sit down together and have a meal.
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10:33 - 10:36I'll never forget it;
it was such a relief. -
10:36 - 10:39And relief is all that a grieving person
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10:39 - 10:40wants in this world;
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10:40 - 10:46it helps make the unbearable bearable.
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10:48 - 10:52I learned a lot from actions like these.
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10:52 - 10:58There are simple things you can do
to show up for your loved ones, -
10:58 - 11:03things that'll make them
feel seen and supported, -
11:03 - 11:07because it's not about you
and what you're worried about. -
11:08 - 11:11It's about them
and what they're going through. -
11:12 - 11:16I've got three simple things
I want to share with you tonight, -
11:16 - 11:21things that'll make them feel loved.
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11:22 - 11:25These are the things
that I once didn't know how to do, -
11:25 - 11:28and through the process of losing my mom,
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11:28 - 11:30I figured out how to do them.
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11:30 - 11:34And now, whenever anyone around me
is going through something tough, -
11:34 - 11:37I pick one of these
three things and I do it. -
11:37 - 11:40They're reliable and they work.
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11:42 - 11:44So number one,
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11:45 - 11:49do send a text or an email or call,
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11:50 - 11:51and say simply this:
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11:53 - 11:57"This must be so difficult for you,
I can't imagine what you're going through. -
11:58 - 12:01I'm sending you my love.
No need to respond." -
12:02 - 12:05You don't need to say
anything groundbreaking here. -
12:05 - 12:07Just be honest.
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12:07 - 12:10Loss sucks and it's
different for everyone. -
12:10 - 12:11Speak to that.
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12:13 - 12:16And be sure to tell them
that they don't need to get back to you. -
12:16 - 12:19It's a busy and strange time for them.
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12:19 - 12:23Let them off the hook.
They'll be so grateful that you did. -
12:24 - 12:26Number two.
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12:26 - 12:31Just go and do a chore or an errand
for them, something simple. -
12:31 - 12:34Don't ask their permission,
just show up and do it. -
12:34 - 12:36Take the dogs for a walk,
fold the laundry, -
12:36 - 12:39clean the kitchen floor,
pick up the dry-cleaning, -
12:39 - 12:41take the kids out for ice cream.
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12:42 - 12:46Just one act that gives them
a moment of peace -
12:46 - 12:50or a break from their busy time.
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12:51 - 12:53I can imagine you're thinking,
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12:53 - 12:56"But I live so far away,
how do I do that?" -
12:56 - 12:58You can figure it out.
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12:58 - 13:01You're more resourceful than you know.
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13:01 - 13:03Call a dog walking service,
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13:03 - 13:05call and get the dry-cleaning delivered.
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13:07 - 13:08Find someone who does live nearby
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13:08 - 13:11and have them take the
kids for the afternoon. -
13:11 - 13:13You can figure it out.
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13:14 - 13:16And number three,
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13:18 - 13:24make or buy a big mac and cheese casserole
and drop it off at their house. -
13:24 - 13:25(Laughter)
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13:26 - 13:29They can eat it right then,
put it in the fridge, freeze it for later. -
13:29 - 13:31Listen, we've all got to eat,
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13:31 - 13:34even those of us wracked by grief.
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13:34 - 13:37And if you don't live nearby,
this one's easy. -
13:37 - 13:39Call and get pizza delivered.
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13:39 - 13:42I'm pretty sure there's
a local pizza place or a Domino's -
13:42 - 13:45within striking distance
of every house on the planet. -
13:45 - 13:47(Laughter)
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13:48 - 13:49"Oh, my god!
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13:49 - 13:52Remember when you dropped
off the casserole after my mom's funeral? -
13:52 - 13:55I hated you when you did that,"
said no one ever! -
13:55 - 13:58(Laughter)
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13:59 - 14:03I even dropped off the casserole
after my friend's dog died. -
14:04 - 14:08Listen, it's been three years
since my mom passed away, -
14:08 - 14:12and at the end of her life,
she was sent so many flowers. -
14:12 - 14:13They were beautiful.
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14:13 - 14:18They covered practically
every surface in our house. -
14:20 - 14:23But one of the things
I remember most of all -
14:24 - 14:28was that chicken noodle soup
and the pasta with red sauce -
14:28 - 14:31that came out of those brown paper bags.
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14:32 - 14:37Find the courage to show up
for your grieving friend. -
14:37 - 14:41It might feel awkward
or like you're going to get it wrong. -
14:41 - 14:44Risk getting it wrong.
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14:45 - 14:48Don't dwell on the voices
of doubt in your head, -
14:48 - 14:51just pick one of these
three things and do it. -
14:51 - 14:53Don't be silent.
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14:53 - 14:56Don't be absent from their lives.
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14:56 - 15:00Stop thinking about it, just act.
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15:01 - 15:03Your grieving friend needs you to.
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15:06 - 15:09No, you can't fix
what they're going through, -
15:09 - 15:12you can't make it
so the marriage didn't fall apart, -
15:12 - 15:16you can't bring back
the person they've lost, -
15:17 - 15:21but you can show up for them in a real way
that doesn't put the burden on them. -
15:22 - 15:24Loss is all around us,
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15:24 - 15:27and now you know three
ways to do it better. -
15:28 - 15:33♪ You don't have to fight
the good fight for me ♪ -
15:33 - 15:36♪ What's it gonna take
for you to believe me ♪ -
15:36 - 15:38♪ Believe me, yeah ♪
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15:38 - 15:41♪ When your world's been blown apart ♪
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15:41 - 15:44♪ I got your back, I got your heart ♪
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15:44 - 15:51♪ You don't have to fight
the good fight for me ♪ -
15:52 - 15:56We all know someone
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15:57 - 16:00who's going through
something tough right now. -
16:00 - 16:02Go say something to them.
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16:02 - 16:05Go do something for them.
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16:06 - 16:07Maybe even something
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16:07 - 16:10as intrusive as dropping off a casserole.
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16:10 - 16:14(Applause)
- Title:
- A grief casserole -- how to help your friends & family through loss | Kate Schutt | TEDxWestChester
- Description:
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Kate Schutt (pronounced “shut”) spent four years as her mom’s primary caregiver, writing songs about the dark and the light of her mother’s journey from diagnosis to death of ovarian cancer. Kate wants us all to know how to show up for our grieving friends so they don’t feel alone with their loss.
Working with legendary producer/arranger Rob Mounsey, Kate just finished a new album, entitled Bright Nowhere. It’s an achingly real collection of the songs about the new landscape of loss she found herself in. The music is melodic and memorable; the sound is that perfect combination of pop and jazz.
Known for her heartfelt, literary songwriting, Kate’s fans are drawn to her authenticity and vulnerability on and off the stage. Her songs have won top honors from the John Lennon Songwriting Contest and ASCAP. Kate studied the influence of jazz on poetry at Harvard, and studied jazz guitar at Berklee College of Music. After nearly a decade living and making music in Canada, she now calls New York City home.
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at https://www.ted.com/tedx
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- English
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- Duration:
- 16:42