The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan
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0:00 - 0:02It doesn't take a genius to see
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0:02 - 0:05that the relationships on earth
today are completely dysfunctional. -
0:05 - 0:07It also doesn't take a genius to see
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0:07 - 0:09that if we don't fix this,
we, the human race -
0:09 - 0:11are going to self-destruct.
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0:11 - 0:15Today, I'm going to expose
one of these patterns -
0:15 - 0:16that causes the most damage between people
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0:16 - 0:19so that by being exposed
to your conscious awareness -
0:19 - 0:21we will hopefully change it.
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0:26 - 0:30The Defective Doll
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0:31 - 0:33Essentially, we don't love each other.
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0:34 - 0:36We love the idea of each other.
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0:36 - 0:38And when we fall in love
with the idea of each other, -
0:38 - 0:41we relate to each other as objects,
not as living beings. -
0:42 - 0:44Or people, we relate to them
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0:44 - 0:49as if they are an aspect or a player
of our own pretend game. -
0:49 - 0:51This whole dynamic begins
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0:51 - 0:54like almost every other pattern
in the human race, -
0:54 - 0:56in childhood.
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0:56 - 1:01Most parents do not have children,
for children. -
1:01 - 1:03They have children
to meet their own needs. -
1:03 - 1:05And most people are so unconscious,
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1:05 - 1:10they have no idea of the real reasons
why they decided to have children. -
1:10 - 1:11More than that,
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1:11 - 1:15it's very difficult for them to be honest
about their actual reasons -
1:15 - 1:17because if they were honest
about their actual reasons -
1:17 - 1:19it would equate to something
like self-centeredness. -
1:20 - 1:22And obviously, our ego is designed
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1:22 - 1:24entirely to keep us away
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1:24 - 1:26from those things which might
make us look like a bad person. -
1:26 - 1:30Perhaps a parent has a child
to guarantee closeness with a partner, -
1:30 - 1:34perhaps it's to feel a sense
of self-worth, value and validation, -
1:34 - 1:36perhaps it's for societal esteem,
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1:36 - 1:38perhaps it's because giving a child
what they never had -
1:38 - 1:40would heal their own traumas.
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1:40 - 1:43The thing is, is that a child is born
their own person, -
1:43 - 1:45with their own destiny,
with their own desires, -
1:45 - 1:49needs, feelings, thoughts... Everything.
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1:48 - 1:51So rarely does a child ever conform
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1:51 - 1:54to the original reason
the parent had the child. -
1:54 - 1:57And when a child
does not meet the parents needs, -
1:57 - 2:02especially, the very need
that the parent had the child for, -
2:02 - 2:04it's a recipe for disaster.
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2:04 - 2:07One of the most common dynamics
that we see in the world today, -
2:07 - 2:11is that a parent, usually a mother,
wants a child that will satiate her needs -
2:11 - 2:14in the same way that a doll
satiate needs of a 4 years old girl. -
2:14 - 2:17The four-year-old feels a sense
of self-esteem in having the doll -
2:17 - 2:20and dressing to match the doll
and pretend to be needed by the doll -
2:20 - 2:22and pretending they have
a connection with the doll. -
2:22 - 2:24This parent does not actually want a child
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2:24 - 2:26that is a unique and individual person.
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2:26 - 2:30This parent wants a doll that is animated
and a doll that is a mini-me. -
2:30 - 2:32They want this doll to act
how they want it to act, -
2:32 - 2:35they want it to be hungry
when it's convenient for them. -
2:35 - 2:38They want to be able to put it down
when they want to do something else -
2:38 - 2:40and have it shut its eyes
and open them again -
2:40 - 2:42only when they want to interact with it.
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2:42 - 2:45They don't want the doll to need them
when they don't want to be needed. -
2:45 - 2:49For the father, usually,
this doll of a child they want -
2:49 - 2:51is not about a feeling of sense of self-esteem
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2:51 - 2:53and personal validation
and care taking anything, -
2:53 - 2:56it is more about having a status symbol,
like an animated trophy. -
2:56 - 2:59It is about having something
that through its successes, -
2:59 - 3:01validates him as a person.
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3:01 - 3:05For this parent,
the person that the child actually is -
3:05 - 3:08and the needs and feelings
and wishes and preferences -
3:08 - 3:10the child actually has,
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3:10 - 3:12and how that child
is different to the parent -
3:12 - 3:14will not be received well.
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3:14 - 3:19It will be perceived as a threat
to their own self-concept. -
3:19 - 3:21It's going to be perceived
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3:21 - 3:23as if the very existence of this child
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3:23 - 3:26stands as an invalidation
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3:26 - 3:28of the self of the parent.
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3:28 - 3:31This child will also have needs
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3:31 - 3:34that don't fit into
the schedule of the parent. -
3:35 - 3:36As a result,
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3:36 - 3:40the parent will subconsciously
reject this child. -
3:40 - 3:45Now this rejection leads down 2 paths,
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3:44 - 3:47each of which are incredibly painful;
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3:47 - 3:49When a child is young
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3:49 - 3:52they cannot perceive themselves
to have a life separate from their parent. -
3:52 - 3:55A baby cannot actually preoccupy itself.
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3:56 - 3:58A Baby also cannot sooth itself.
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3:59 - 4:02So, a baby that is rejected
will experience a void when this occurs. -
4:03 - 4:05A void like a pet or a sentient toy
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4:05 - 4:06that is put on the shelf.
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4:07 - 4:11I highly suggest that to grasp
the horror of this condition -
4:11 - 4:13you watch a Pixar movie called
A Toy Story. -
4:14 - 4:16Except for,
when you're watching this film, -
4:16 - 4:19I want you to pretend
that the two children in that story, -
4:19 - 4:20Andy and Sid,
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4:20 - 4:24are the parents of the toys
which they keep. -
4:25 - 4:29The horrific experience
that so many of us have with our parents -
4:29 - 4:32is the horror of being a toy.
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4:33 - 4:37A Toy for our parent's gratification
or lack thereof. -
4:38 - 4:40We are either the toy
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4:40 - 4:42that is born,
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4:42 - 4:46and lives, and dies on the shelf
never being valued, -
4:46 - 4:48or we are the toy
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4:48 - 4:52that looks so good to a child
when it's on the shelf, -
4:52 - 4:53but the minute they unwrap it,
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4:53 - 4:56there's a massive disappointment
and a rejection, -
4:56 - 4:58and so we're put on the shelf.
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4:58 - 5:00Or, we are the person who is loved
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5:00 - 5:03and adored for a certain period of time,
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5:03 - 5:05before someone loses interest,
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5:05 - 5:09or we are replaced by a better toy
(another sibling). -
5:09 - 5:12Or, we are the toy that is loved forever,
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5:12 - 5:15on the condition that we become
exactly what our owner wants us to be. -
5:16 - 5:19What we long for
is for someone to see that we are real -
5:19 - 5:22and to love us forever
for what is real about us. -
5:22 - 5:26If we are the toy
that was perceived to be defective -
5:26 - 5:28because we could not control our animation,
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5:28 - 5:31to perfectly fit in with
what our parents wanted, -
5:32 - 5:35Then we are the one that is rejected
and put on the Shelf. -
5:35 - 5:40Often at an age where we could not
actually preoccupy ourselves. -
5:39 - 5:42Or we are punished for it, directly.
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5:42 - 5:45Like a toy or a neglected pet,
we may be fed and clothed -
5:45 - 5:47but we do not have a life.
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5:47 - 5:50Our life only has movement
and meaning and emotional breath, -
5:50 - 5:51if we are interacted with.
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5:51 - 5:54So when we are not, we experience
crippling separation anxiety. -
5:54 - 5:57We dissolve in the hell of knowing
we have no value to the person -
5:57 - 5:59upon whom our life depends.
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5:59 - 6:01We feel we are not real without them.
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6:01 - 6:05We feel the potential eternal hell
of our living and self-concept -
6:05 - 6:07being completely at the mercy
of another person -
6:07 - 6:10who we can't make value us enough,
to play with us. -
6:10 - 6:12And we do not know if or when
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6:12 - 6:14that other person will come to claim us.
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6:14 - 6:16And even if they did,
it wouldn't erase the fact -
6:16 - 6:20that we were rejected by the person
who mattered to us so much. -
6:20 - 6:23And when we try to cry out
to get the love back, -
6:23 - 6:24and our life back with it,
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6:24 - 6:25there is no response.
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6:25 - 6:27Our parent goes on with their own life
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6:27 - 6:30as if we were screaming inside,
but not making a noise. -
6:30 - 6:32Or they shame us
for reaching out for them -
6:32 - 6:34with our voice or actions.
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6:34 - 6:35On the visceral level,
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6:35 - 6:37it feels like someone
has run through our chest, -
6:37 - 6:40solar plexus, lungs and ribcage
with an old-fashioned lawnmower. -
6:40 - 6:42We often resort to addictions
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6:42 - 6:45to try to numb the pain
of this ineffable wound. -
6:45 - 6:47We grow up to be the type of people
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6:47 - 6:50who feel like we actually
have no life without our partner. -
6:51 - 6:53And what happens is,
we line up with partners -
6:53 - 6:57who follow the same pattern
of rejecting us. -
6:57 - 7:00Either they don't value us
in the first place, -
7:01 - 7:04or they love us for a time,
and then put us on the shelf. -
7:05 - 7:08If we are the doll
who could control our animation -
7:08 - 7:12to perfectly fit in with what
the parent that we had wanted, -
7:12 - 7:16we are like the G.I. Joe
sitting at a tea party. -
7:17 - 7:19We too are not loved for what we are,
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7:19 - 7:21but instead of being discarded
for exposing what we are, -
7:21 - 7:23we pretend to be something else.
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7:23 - 7:24The pressure of this inauthenticity
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7:24 - 7:27makes us not feel
as if we have an individual life. -
7:27 - 7:29Our identity is consumed.
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7:29 - 7:32Therefore we must push people away
and be alone to feel a sense of self. -
7:32 - 7:33On a visceral level,
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7:33 - 7:36it feels like we are a fly
caught in the spider's web -
7:36 - 7:38being slowly spun
to the point of suffocation -
7:38 - 7:40and simultaneously being eaten alive.
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7:40 - 7:44We grow up to be the kind of person
who feels as if we can't have a life, -
7:44 - 7:47unless we push
the people in our life away. -
7:47 - 7:50When we grow up with this type of pattern,
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7:50 - 7:52what will happen is,
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7:52 - 7:53we will want to be in a relationship
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7:53 - 7:56and so, we will misrepresent ourselves,
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7:56 - 8:00we will be the G.I. Joe that pretends
that it's Little Miss Muffat. -
8:00 - 8:02If that's what the person
in our life wants. -
8:02 - 8:04But we can only keep up this act
for so long, -
8:04 - 8:06before suddenly, the pressure builds
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8:06 - 8:09and we have to make
a blow for our freedom -
8:09 - 8:10by declaring that we're
a completely different person -
8:10 - 8:12than we made ourselves out to be,
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8:12 - 8:15and that we better be loved
for who we are. -
8:16 - 8:21Not only does this make it so that we
put relationships entirely on our terms, -
8:22 - 8:24which, nobody can say yes to,
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8:24 - 8:26but we also set ourselves up
for rejection. -
8:26 - 8:29The same kind of rejection
that we experienced -
8:29 - 8:30with our parent, to begin with.
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8:30 - 8:32Or didn't let ourselves experience.
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8:33 - 8:35The experience of the person saying:
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8:35 - 8:36"But I'm not in love with you for you,
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8:36 - 8:39I'm in love for what you
pretended to be." -
8:39 - 8:42In both scenarios,
we receive the message -
8:42 - 8:45that we are not valued
by the person who gives us life. -
8:45 - 8:49We either had to be what they wanted,
instead of ourselves, to be loved -
8:49 - 8:51or couldn't be who they wanted
us to be in order to be loved, -
8:51 - 8:53so we are innately rejected.
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8:54 - 8:57Our self-concept
is complete and total shame. -
8:58 - 8:59Self hate occurs in us
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8:59 - 9:02because we either
are not lovable as we are, -
9:02 - 9:04or if we were discarded emotionally,
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9:04 - 9:06we could not become
what would make us lovable. -
9:07 - 9:09We are so desperate to be loved,
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9:09 - 9:11that we want to cut these aspects
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9:11 - 9:13that make us reject it,
away from our being. -
9:13 - 9:17We want so desperately to become
what will make us be loved, -
9:17 - 9:20and to be that, it's just not
the truth of who we really are. -
9:21 - 9:22Basically, we internalize
the original message -
9:22 - 9:24that our parents subconsciously sent us
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9:24 - 9:27by treating us like dolls
that were there for their disposal, -
9:27 - 9:29than like human beings.
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9:29 - 9:31This is the root of self hate.
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9:32 - 9:34To understand completely
how this dynamic works, -
9:34 - 9:36watch my video titled:
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9:36 - 9:38Self Hate
(The Most Dangerous Coping Mechanism) -
9:39 - 9:41If we are born to parents
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9:41 - 9:43who wanted us to be something
other than what we are, -
9:43 - 9:45then we hate ourselves erroneously.
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9:46 - 9:50I Want you to imagine that somebody
really wants a horse figurine, -
9:50 - 9:52but they go out and they buy a horse.
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9:52 - 9:55This is a setup.
It's a recipe for self hate. -
9:55 - 9:55Why?
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9:55 - 9:57Because they're gonna hate the manure,
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9:57 - 10:00they're gonna hate how big the horse is,
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10:00 - 10:02they're gonna hate
that they have to exercise it, -
10:02 - 10:04hate that they have to groom it...
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10:05 - 10:07Inevitably, what they're gonna be doing
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10:07 - 10:10is leaving this horse by itself,
completely neglected, -
10:11 - 10:12until they eventually,
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10:12 - 10:14hopefully, give the horse away.
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10:14 - 10:18Now, should this horse hate itself
because it's not a horse figurine? -
10:18 - 10:21Or is it really that issue of the person
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10:21 - 10:23who decided to buy a horse
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10:23 - 10:25when what they really wanted
was a figurine? -
10:26 - 10:30The reality is that so many parents
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10:31 - 10:32do not really want a child,
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10:33 - 10:35they want an animated doll.
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10:36 - 10:39Because parents saw us as their thing,
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10:39 - 10:40like an object,
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10:41 - 10:45obviously, they can't be attuned to us
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10:45 - 10:49Any more than a child is really attuned
to a toy if it's sentient. -
10:49 - 10:51But they're dragging it around
by the neck. -
10:51 - 10:54This is the terror of our life experience.
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10:54 - 10:55And not attuning we cannot feel loved
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10:55 - 10:58because we can't take something
as part of ourselves -
10:58 - 11:01if we cannot even perceive
the reality of that thing. -
11:01 - 11:04It is merely a player
in our own pretend game. -
11:05 - 11:07Being raised in this reality,
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11:07 - 11:10makes us feel as if we are objects
in everyone else's reality. -
11:10 - 11:14It makes us treat other people
as if they're objects in our reality. -
11:14 - 11:16It makes it so that
no relationship we have -
11:17 - 11:20means more than the use
that person serves for our needs. -
11:21 - 11:23It makes the entire world
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11:23 - 11:25a world of playthings and penny candy.
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11:26 - 11:28It makes it a world where we can't see,
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11:28 - 11:30hear, feel and understand each other
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11:30 - 11:32or value each other for who we really are.
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11:32 - 11:35A World where we cannot find people
who are compatible to us -
11:35 - 11:37and can therefore,
be in harmony with us -
11:37 - 11:38and make us feel loved.
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11:38 - 11:40We cannot attune to each other.
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11:40 - 11:43We must learn to attune to one another
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11:43 - 11:44to stop this dynamic.
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11:44 - 11:46To learn how to do this,
watch my video titled: -
11:46 - 11:49Attunement
(The Key To A Good Relationship) -
11:49 - 11:51We need to become very very clear
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11:51 - 11:54about the deep and often very dark reasons
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11:54 - 11:55why we want to have a child,
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11:55 - 11:57before we have them.
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11:58 - 12:01We need to accept that a child
is born its own person, -
12:01 - 12:03with its own life.
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12:03 - 12:05It is not an object.
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12:05 - 12:06It is not a doll.
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12:06 - 12:09It will not operate
according to our schedule. -
12:09 - 12:12It will have needs
when it is incredibly inconvenient -
12:12 - 12:14for them to have those needs.
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12:14 - 12:15It will have its own feelings,
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12:15 - 12:17its own wants, its own desires,
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12:17 - 12:19its own preferences
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12:19 - 12:21and its own destiny.
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12:21 - 12:24And often,
it will be very different to our own. -
12:24 - 12:26What we need to teach our children
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12:26 - 12:28is that they can have all of that
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12:29 - 12:30selfhood
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12:30 - 12:33Without losing us at all.
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12:33 - 12:34That they can guarantee
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12:34 - 12:38that with that,
they can have us, and permanently. -
12:38 - 12:42We need to break free
from our single family households. -
12:42 - 12:44The destruction of the child
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12:44 - 12:49rests upon our continual separation
from the group. -
12:49 - 12:51The more that we segment ourselves
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12:51 - 12:55into single family households
and now broken homes, -
12:55 - 12:58the less resources
a child has available to them. -
12:59 - 13:01All that they have at their disposal is
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13:02 - 13:04the parents, or sometimes parent
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13:05 - 13:06that is in their vicinity.
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13:07 - 13:08And let's be honest,
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13:08 - 13:12as parents, we can't always
be there for our children. -
13:12 - 13:15But we better believe
that it's our responsibility -
13:15 - 13:18to find someone who can be,
when we can't. -
13:18 - 13:22This way, they will not feel
as if they must be a doll in our reality. -
13:22 - 13:24And they will never feel
put on the shelf. -
13:24 - 13:27Imagine being loved
for what you actually are, and forever. -
13:27 - 13:29We need to see that we have a life
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13:29 - 13:32regardless of whether people
are or are not interacting with us. -
13:32 - 13:35But it is a personal choice
to have interaction in our life. -
13:36 - 13:38We need to learn how to have ourselves
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13:38 - 13:41and have other people too
at the exact same time. -
13:42 - 13:44Having people must never be contingent
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13:44 - 13:46upon becoming exactly
what they want us to be -
13:46 - 13:49The time has come
to live an authentic life -
13:49 - 13:51and to choose to see people
for who they really are, -
13:51 - 13:54instead of to hold them to a role
in our game of pretend. -
13:54 - 13:57If we do this from the get-go with people,
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13:57 - 13:59we will find people
who are compatible to us -
13:59 - 14:01and who really will love us
for all that we are. -
14:01 - 14:03To know how to do this,
watch my video titled: -
14:03 - 14:05How To Be Authentic
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14:06 - 14:10People are worth infinitely more
than their use to us in our life. -
14:11 - 14:15If we approach the world
in any other way than this, -
14:15 - 14:18then what we're doing
is treating people like objects. -
14:18 - 14:20We're treating people like dolls.
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14:20 - 14:23We're expecting them
to fit into a game of pretend -
14:23 - 14:26that we are playing
in our own individual reality. -
14:26 - 14:30By doing this we are perpetuating
the isolation on this planet, -
14:30 - 14:33we're perpetuating the dislocation
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14:33 - 14:36of each person from each other's hearts
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14:36 - 14:38and from the web that connects us.
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14:38 - 14:40If we perpetuate this,
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14:40 - 14:42we will continue to create disconnection.
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14:42 - 14:44The very disconnection
that is at the heart -
14:44 - 14:48of every act of terrorism and war
that you see on this planet. -
14:49 - 14:54The time has come to demolish
the self-concept of the defective doll. -
14:55 - 14:58And the doll that was able
to operate perfectly -
14:58 - 15:00in accordance with its instructions.
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15:02 - 15:06The time has come
to learn how to love what is real. -
15:06 - 15:08Have a good week.
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15:26 - 15:28Subtitles by: Tanya Duarte
- Title:
- The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan
- Description:
-
The Defective Doll in this Ask Teal episode refers to your dysfunctional relationship with your parents or kids. It deals with your perception of who your child or parent is versus who you want them to be. Teal Swan explains that by seeing this dysfunctional dynamic we can truly see our relationships for what they are, and in turn heal them.
Referenced Videos:
Attunement The Key to a Good Relationship: 11:49
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7OIOkd43ev4&t=206sSelf Hate The Most Dangerous Coping Mechanism: 9:31
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvhhubvTX1oHow to be Authentic: 14:00
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgWBIVQ1qAQ&t=565sToy Story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3986gGp3Qs
Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, authenticity, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality
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Beginning Song:
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- Video Language:
- English
- Duration:
- 15:28
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan | ||
Tanya Duarte edited English subtitles for The Defective Doll (Dysfunctional Relationships) - Teal Swan |