Nothing happens to us by accident I Nadalette La Fonta Six I TEDxChampsElyseesWomen
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0:14 - 0:16Like many, many of you,
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0:16 - 0:20I am Wonder Woman, Mrs. Perfect.
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0:21 - 0:23Yes, that's me here. (Laughter)
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0:23 - 0:26Mrs Perfect is actually the Goddess Shiva,
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0:26 - 0:30one who carries a baby bottle in one
hand, a carton of milk in the other, -
0:30 - 0:35a computer, a mobile phone,
the written speech of her boss, -
0:35 - 0:38the tickets for the show -
"Don’t forget, sweetie!" - -
0:38 - 0:41and also slightly soggy cookies
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0:41 - 0:45that her kids have kindly left
in her coat pocket. -
0:46 - 0:49And, of course, Mrs Perfect
has one foot in a plane, -
0:49 - 0:54and the other in her
Louboutin stiletto heels. -
0:54 - 0:58She lives at 500 km/h.
She is successful in everything she does. -
0:58 - 1:01And ... her pantyhose does not get torn!
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1:01 - 1:04(Laughter) Yes!
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1:04 - 1:07In 2010 - I really wished
to tell you this story - -
1:07 - 1:10I was working
for an international company, -
1:10 - 1:14and I had a boss, in Madrid, who was
known for his Homeric fits of anger. -
1:14 - 1:18When I say "Homeric," I mean
there was blood on the walls! -
1:18 - 1:21Each of us had a monthly
update meeting with him, -
1:21 - 1:23and, like the others, I would go.
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1:23 - 1:30I'd say first ''Hello'' and then next,
''I had to say such and such.'' -
1:30 - 1:31He'd reply ''No.''
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1:31 - 1:34''Well, I must insist, you need
to understand such and such." -
1:34 - 1:36He'd say ''No.''
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1:36 - 1:38''For the last time,
let me tell you such and such.'' -
1:38 - 1:41And he'd say "yes" or "no"
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1:41 - 1:45but in any case, there was no drama,
we remained both calm. -
1:45 - 1:48Then, when this man
went back to his country, -
1:48 - 1:51he told me goodbye and said,
''I must ask you something. -
1:53 - 1:55Why are you not afraid?''
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1:56 - 1:58This concerned me
because honestly, I had no answer, -
1:58 - 2:03so I said something silly like,
''Well, we're not in Narcos movie. -
2:03 - 2:05You're not going to shoot me
the next minute!'' -
2:05 - 2:07(Laughter)
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2:07 - 2:10Then, somehow the question
stuck with me and, the other day, -
2:10 - 2:13while I was thinking about you
and Wonder woman, -
2:13 - 2:17I thought "Why is Wonder woman
Wonder woman ?" -
2:17 - 2:20Well, it's because
she does not listen to her fear. -
2:20 - 2:24Okay, but you know what?
She doesn't listen to herself either. -
2:24 - 2:26What about you?
Are you listening right now? -
2:26 - 2:31So, we all came into this life
one day, that's the way it is. -
2:31 - 2:34I was born in the sixties -
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2:34 - 2:36please do not calculate my age.
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2:37 - 2:39I am a woman,
until proven otherwise, -
2:39 - 2:42and I was born in Paris
to a family that was not ideal. -
2:43 - 2:46By the way, if you know
the ideal family, please inform me. -
2:46 - 2:48Anyway, I was in a family,
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2:48 - 2:54but it was so far from being ideal
that at birth, I got an extra card. -
2:55 - 2:59This card was a 50% chance
of ending up in a bin, -
2:59 - 3:01and that actually happened
to my twin brother. -
3:01 - 3:06And I must say, when you draw such a card
at the beginning of your life, -
3:06 - 3:11it gives you a certain perspective
on things and an acute sense of survival. -
3:11 - 3:17So the beliefs on which
I structured and built myself, were: -
3:17 - 3:19''I don't feel pain,"
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3:19 - 3:21"Nothing can hurt me,"
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3:21 - 3:23"I am all-powerful."
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3:24 - 3:28Now, you see, beliefs are a little bit
like crutches during our early life. -
3:28 - 3:33They enable us to find our balance,
and then one day, we no longer need them. -
3:33 - 3:35I do not have crutches anymore.
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3:35 - 3:39Well, I still have this one,
but let's speak about this later. -
3:39 - 3:44In short, it is with these beliefs
that I framed my role as Wonder woman. -
3:44 - 3:46And you know what?
It was the perfect time -
3:46 - 3:49because my professional life
started in the eighties, -
3:49 - 3:51the glamour years, the money years.
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3:51 - 3:54So back then, being a
Wonder woman was really trendy. -
3:54 - 4:00Therefore, I jumped immediately
at full speed in my professional life. -
4:00 - 4:05At the beginning of my career,
I got the most prestigious jobs, -
4:05 - 4:09the most charismatic managers,
the most staggering budgets, -
4:09 - 4:12the greatest products and brands, etc.
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4:13 - 4:15Yeah, all that.
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4:15 - 4:18Indeed, I did understand
the movie quite a bit. -
4:18 - 4:22I knew there were two keys
to what I called "happiness". -
4:22 - 4:24The first was financial independence.
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4:24 - 4:30Believe me, it worked for me,
and this enabled me to leave my family. -
4:30 - 4:33The second was conformity
to social and professional model -
4:33 - 4:38because to succeed, you must please,
and to please, what do you need? -
4:38 - 4:40Well, you must give up your dreams
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4:40 - 4:42because teenage dreams,
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4:43 - 4:47the most audacious
and adventurous dreams - -
4:47 - 4:51such as, among others,
my dream of being a writer - -
4:51 - 4:53honestly, they are not going
to keep a woman fed. -
4:53 - 4:55So, they are brushed under the carpet.
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4:56 - 4:58Then there is something
else we all share. -
4:58 - 5:01You know, this little voice inside you?
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5:01 - 5:04The one inside there that tells you,
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5:04 - 5:07''Are you happy with what you do?
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5:08 - 5:10Do you really love yourself?
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5:10 - 5:12Are you really satisfied?
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5:12 - 5:16What happened to your dream
of becoming a writer?'' -
5:16 - 5:20Ah! This one, frankly, got on my nerves.
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5:20 - 5:24I replied, ''You shut up.
I don't want to listen to you, silence!'' -
5:24 - 5:28And as a matter of fact, I didn't
hear it for a number of years. -
5:28 - 5:34So, here I was in the eighties ...
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5:34 - 5:36Oops! I've forgotten something!
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5:36 - 5:39I've just forgotten one tiny detail.
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5:39 - 5:43In my teens, in this family that ... -
well, it would take forever! - -
5:43 - 5:46I had a scoliosis
that had not been treated. -
5:46 - 5:49Seriously, confidently,
scoliosis is nothing. -
5:49 - 5:51If I were to ask you to raise your hand,
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5:51 - 5:5625% of you in this room would say
they have a little scoliosis, -
5:56 - 5:58It's a curvature of the spine.
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5:58 - 6:01The other 25% would have a cold.
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6:01 - 6:06Actually, scoliosis is to the vertebrae
what the common cold is to the nose, -
6:06 - 6:08meaning nothing at all.
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6:08 - 6:10So I had no time for that,
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6:10 - 6:14meaning no time for me,
no time to listen to myself, -
6:14 - 6:16no time for Mrs. Perfect,
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6:16 - 6:21Mrs. Demanding of herself
and much of others, -
6:22 - 6:24but still funny after all.
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6:24 - 6:27I tell you, I did party like crazy.
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6:27 - 6:29(Laughter)
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6:29 - 6:30But what about the body?
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6:30 - 6:32(Sigh)
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6:32 - 6:34Well, it had merely to follow.
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6:35 - 6:38Then came midlife,
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6:38 - 6:40the love of my life,
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6:40 - 6:42maternity,
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6:43 - 6:45three magnificent girls.
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6:46 - 6:48And, I kept on working.
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6:48 - 6:51Yeah, they are gorgeous, thank you!
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6:51 - 6:52(Applause)
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6:52 - 6:55Really, that's the most
perfect achievement! -
6:55 - 7:00Then I went on with the job,
the travels, the buddies and friends, -
7:00 - 7:03and everything was like this, forever.
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7:03 - 7:07And as a matter of fact, it was perfect.
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7:07 - 7:12I was in my bubble,
my comfort zone, my cocoon. -
7:12 - 7:15Nothing could happen to me.
Everything was for granted. -
7:15 - 7:17Nothing could hurt me.
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7:18 - 7:22Except that fate -
you know, "fatum" in latin - -
7:22 - 7:25was thinking there, in a corner,
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7:25 - 7:29''It's time for this girl to understand
she has to do something of her life.'' -
7:29 - 7:33So it knocked a first time,
I didn't hear anything. -
7:33 - 7:37It knocked a second time,
and I didn't hear, so it got upset. -
7:37 - 7:40It got angry because
what we resist, persists. -
7:40 - 7:45Therefore it punched, punched, punched
until I eventually was knocked out. -
7:45 - 7:48In reality, it knocked me out.
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7:48 - 7:51My body reminded me
of its presence in 2013. -
7:51 - 7:54My body, I had negated it,
denied it, and disavowed it. -
7:54 - 7:58At that point, it reminded me it was there
and not in a gentle manner. -
7:58 - 8:02My teenage scoliosis had
transformed into a double curve -
8:03 - 8:06up to 73 degrees.
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8:06 - 8:08It is huge!
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8:08 - 8:11To give you an idea, it's similar
to those old ladies you see walking, -
8:11 - 8:16bended almost horizontally,
their nose on the pavement, forever. -
8:17 - 8:21I was so good at denying that none
of my family or my girlfriends, -
8:21 - 8:23nobody noticed my condition.
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8:24 - 8:26In fact, I just collapsed physically,
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8:26 - 8:30and let's be frank, I was
the only one responsible for it. -
8:30 - 8:33So I knew I needed to do
something. I had no choice. -
8:34 - 8:37I tried very creatively
all the bad solutions, -
8:37 - 8:40until only one was left.
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8:40 - 8:46The solution I had to accept, I warn you,
is not going to be appealing to you. -
8:47 - 8:49It is called an "arthrodesis".
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8:50 - 8:53Here is it. It's pretty, it's my back.
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8:53 - 8:56It is an arthrodesis of the spine,
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8:56 - 9:01a ten-hour operation
in which they open your spine -
9:01 - 9:03from cervicals to lumbars,
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9:03 - 9:07insert two titanium rods,
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9:07 - 9:09and straighten
whatever vertebrae they can. -
9:09 - 9:12Now don't ask me how!
I don't know and don't want to know. -
9:12 - 9:14Next, they screw everything back together
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9:14 - 9:18And hup! I found myself
as straight as the letter "I". -
9:18 - 9:20(Applause)... But!
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9:23 - 9:25Well, that was a wrong move, folks,
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9:25 - 9:28because yes, my friends were saying
I'll look like Madonna -
9:28 - 9:32while I was saying "like Frida Kahlo,"
but the surgeon was telling me, -
9:32 - 9:35''Your torso will be slightly rigid,
you won't dance the Zumba very much, -
9:35 - 9:37but you will have good legs"
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9:37 - 9:40and "Don't worry! I do
surgeries like yours every week. -
9:40 - 9:42You'll be back to normal life
in two months." -
9:42 - 9:44Well, I had already doubts
about my normal life. -
9:45 - 9:48I had no choice,
so on October 14th, 2014, -
9:48 - 9:51I entered the hospital with my two legs.
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9:52 - 9:56They woke me up in the intensive
care unit on October 15th, 2014. -
9:56 - 9:59I don’t know why there are dates
we don't forget! -
9:59 - 10:01And they were all there
at the foot of my bed, -
10:01 - 10:04in white and blue, a solemn
expression on their faces. -
10:04 - 10:06Was it a jury or verdict? I wasn't sure.
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10:06 - 10:09But the whole medical team
was there, and they told me, -
10:09 - 10:13"Miss, your bone marrow
has been damaged. -
10:13 - 10:15You will never walk again.
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10:16 - 10:18You are paraplegic.''
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10:21 - 10:22I was stunned.
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10:22 - 10:26By "stunned" I don't mean
surprised, but dumbfounded. -
10:27 - 10:31Because my life had been crushed.
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10:31 - 10:35From being the actor of my life,
I was now its spectator. -
10:36 - 10:40From being independent,
I found myself in dependency. -
10:40 - 10:43From being hyperactive, Wonder woman,
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10:43 - 10:46I became incapable
of even reading or writing. -
10:47 - 10:50My body and I
were treated as objects -
10:50 - 10:53that were given injections, washed,
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10:53 - 10:57that were probed,
auscultated, and pinched. -
10:58 - 11:03From my hospital bed, I had only access
to what my hands could reach. -
11:04 - 11:05It was not much.
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11:06 - 11:09Then for nine months,
I was no longer anybody. -
11:10 - 11:13I was nothing: no longer a mum,
no longer a woman, -
11:13 - 11:16no longer a lover, no longer a manager,
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11:16 - 11:18no longer anything!
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11:21 - 11:24So one day, my body
had become my master. -
11:24 - 11:26For example, it was my body that decided
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11:26 - 11:30what I could do
and when I could do it. -
11:32 - 11:35One day, I came home
to my family and I discovered - -
11:37 - 11:40or rather "they" discovered -
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11:40 - 11:42that Wonder woman had become a burden.
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11:42 - 11:47As for me, I discovered that my loved
and loving ones had become my helpers. -
11:47 - 11:49It wasn't that great a discovery.
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11:49 - 11:52And there was also a new life for me.
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11:52 - 11:55I found out all that was now
impossible for me to do -
11:55 - 11:58such as walking alone on the street,
getting out unexpectedly, -
11:58 - 12:02or going to the shop ...
in short, living like them, -
12:02 - 12:03living like you.
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12:05 - 12:07My family was shattered.
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12:08 - 12:10I'm saying this because
a family is a system, -
12:10 - 12:15and all of us, both I and they
had to morn a loss - -
12:15 - 12:17I, the loss of my former self,
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12:17 - 12:20and they, the loss of the mother
and the woman they knew. -
12:20 - 12:22And mourning is extremely
important in adversity. -
12:22 - 12:24Morning is synonymous of anger,
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12:24 - 12:26of sadness,
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12:26 - 12:28of denial,
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12:28 - 12:30of negotiation.
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12:30 - 12:34And we know that these are phases
we go through time and again, -
12:34 - 12:36until we finally accept.
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12:36 - 12:39Acceptance is neither
abandonment nor flight. -
12:39 - 12:43It means that you need to accept, accept,
accept for the transformation to occur. -
12:44 - 12:48But you don't need to become
paraplegic to transform. -
12:48 - 12:51Come on, take a nice breath!
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12:52 - 12:57In fact, whatever ordeal
you are confronted with, -
12:57 - 13:03whether it be a divorce, unemployment,
a frustration, a death, or an illness, -
13:04 - 13:05you must respect it.
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13:06 - 13:08It is important that you
respect it as well as yourself. -
13:08 - 13:13What is essential in adversity
is that the only benchmark -
13:13 - 13:16is the individual, how he or she
deals with it and feels, -
13:16 - 13:21but above all, what he or she
makes of it - meaning you and also me. -
13:23 - 13:25Now let me still speak to you
about my ordeal with kindness -
13:26 - 13:29because it ended up being
an initiation actually. -
13:29 - 13:33It was my third birth,
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13:33 - 13:35a regeneration,
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13:35 - 13:37and for two reasons.
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13:38 - 13:41The first is my damned character.
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13:41 - 13:46That is, I never believed
I will not walk again, never. -
13:47 - 13:51Therefore, the very first
or second day after the surgery, -
13:51 - 13:58I partnered with my body and, at its pace,
we began the verticalization protocol -
13:58 - 14:00until I reached the point
I could stand straight -
14:00 - 14:03after spending many weeks
working with a verbalization table, -
14:03 - 14:07without vomiting or fainting,
which was cool! -
14:07 - 14:11Following that, I was
hooked to parallel bars. -
14:11 - 14:13And then, I learned
how to get by obstacles. -
14:13 - 14:19Next, I wobbled around using
a walking aid, and later walking canes. -
14:20 - 14:22So it was my regeneration for this reason,
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14:22 - 14:26and because I reached
a point where I thought, -
14:26 - 14:30''Nope. That's not possible!
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14:30 - 14:33I can’t let my life be stolen again."
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14:33 - 14:37And this time, I could hear my voice.
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14:37 - 14:39I listened to my little voice saying,
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14:39 - 14:43'' You had your life stolen at birth
and during your teenage years. -
14:43 - 14:46Later on, you stole it from yourself.
Enough is enough!" -
14:47 - 14:51As I was hearing and listening
and respecting this voice, -
14:51 - 14:56at that moment, my limiting beliefs
ceased to be limiting. -
14:57 - 15:03This is because, you see,
beliefs are really simple. -
15:04 - 15:10Your beliefs or your identity, call it
whatever you want, is like a medallion, -
15:10 - 15:13and this medallion has two sides:
the yin and yang, etc. -
15:14 - 15:20On the flip side, you give
your beliefs power over your life, -
15:20 - 15:23Don't blame yourself, we can't do
otherwise during childhood. -
15:23 - 15:25And they delight.
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15:25 - 15:31They become limiting,
blocking and enslaving. -
15:31 - 15:33They just become odious!
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15:33 - 15:37It was my feeling of being
all-powerful, my stubbornness, -
15:37 - 15:40my fear of life, and my fear of dying too.
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15:41 - 15:43Then came the day,
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15:44 - 15:48the day I gave myself love,
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15:48 - 15:51respect, tenderness,
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15:51 - 15:54time, attention, light ...
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15:55 - 15:58That day, turning the other
side of the medallion, -
15:58 - 16:03those same beliefs
exploded in all their splendor! -
16:03 - 16:08They became strength, desire for life,
creativity, wholeness, femininity. -
16:08 - 16:11They became all of this!
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16:13 - 16:16And all became possible.
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16:16 - 16:21They opened the entire field
of possibilities, my possibilities, -
16:21 - 16:24by way of embodiment,
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16:24 - 16:28by aligning heart, body
and spirit vertically, -
16:28 - 16:33physically, emotionally
and intellectually. -
16:34 - 16:37Nothing happens to us by accident.
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16:38 - 16:41My heart had to surrender
for me to find myself. -
16:41 - 16:44My body had to surrender.
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16:45 - 16:48And since dreaming was not forbidden,
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16:48 - 16:50actually ...
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16:52 - 16:57... I allowed myself to live
the dream I had when I was 18. -
16:58 - 16:59Today,
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17:00 - 17:02I am a writer,
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17:02 - 17:04as I wanted to be.
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17:04 - 17:07(Applause)
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17:14 - 17:16I wrote my first book called,
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17:16 - 17:20"Le roseau penchant, histoire
d'une merveilleuse opération" -
17:20 - 17:23meaning "The bent reed", you know,
the one that bends down? -
17:23 - 17:26Yet it never breaks!
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17:26 - 17:29So you have it, but wait!
Get ready for this: -
17:29 - 17:35it came out exactly three years,
day for day, after my surgery. -
17:35 - 17:39Now you may not believe
in destiny, but l really do. -
17:39 - 17:42And I won't need an arthrodesis
to write my second book. -
17:42 - 17:45Whoever you are,
whatever the ordeal, -
17:45 - 17:48we all have the ability to transmute it.
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17:49 - 17:54Today, I have within me my first,
tough and rich 59 years of existence: -
17:55 - 17:58my romances, my friends,
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17:58 - 18:01my hardships, my joys, my mistakes,
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18:01 - 18:05my wake-up call while I was
kept prisoner at the hospital. -
18:05 - 18:09I am not the victim of anything or anyone.
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18:09 - 18:13I have a disability that is today
nearly invisible but still major. -
18:14 - 18:18But I am not my disability,
absolutely not. -
18:22 - 18:24Life is slower,
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18:24 - 18:26different,
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18:26 - 18:28less warlike
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18:28 - 18:30but more battle-hardened.
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18:31 - 18:34I convey and I share,
as I am doing it tonight. -
18:35 - 18:37You decide.
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18:37 - 18:41Your beliefs' solar phase,
would you not like to go and see it? -
18:42 - 18:43That's it.
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18:43 - 18:45(Applause)
- Title:
- Nothing happens to us by accident I Nadalette La Fonta Six I TEDxChampsElyseesWomen
- Description:
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After an international career in business with a strong commitment in the female networks, following a surgical accident, Nadalette La Fonta changed her life, to realize her dream to be a writer, with her book « Le roseau penchant, histoire d'une merveilleuse opération » (The bent reed, the story of a wonderful surgery) (Ed. Fauves), and above all to be reborn to a life richer in meaning. Nadalette shares her story without make-up and with authenticity.
This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at http://ted.com/tedx
- Video Language:
- French
- Team:
- closed TED
- Project:
- TEDxTalks
- Duration:
- 18:55
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