I Could Wish Myself Accursed for the Sake of the Lost - Tim Conway

You know what's interesting about love?

Love is a driving force, isn't it?

I mean, think about
what people do who love.

Love will drive people to do

all manner of things.

It will drive people to
lay down their lives.

Right?

Won't people give
their lives if they love?

They will.

We as Christians are supposed
to love the brethren

and be willing to lay down our life.

Jesus loved and He laid down His life.

Love is an incredibly strong force.

Let me say this.

Love is strong.

I think the thing that comes to my mind

when I think of love

and I think of love for the lost

is the Apostle Paul.

Somebody read the first three verses

of Romans 9.

Somebody just read that.

"I am speaking the truth in Christ.

I am not lying.

My conscience bears me witness

in the Holy Spirit that
I have great sorrow

and unceasing anguish in my heart.

For I could wish that I
myself were accursed

and cut off from Christ

for the sake of my brothers,

my kinsmen according to the flesh."

Do you know what love does?

It will cause you to bear
about in your own heart

unceasing anguish. Did you hear that?

Read it again, brother.

"...that I have great sorrow

and unceasing anguish in my heart."

Great sorrow. Unceasing anguish.

You know why somebody will
bear that in their heart?

Because they love.

Okay, here's the thing.

Keep reading after that, brother.

"They are Israelites,
and to them belong..."

Tim: No, right after the part

that talks about unceasing anguish.

"For I could wish that I
myself were accursed..."

Tim: Okay, what does accursed mean?

I could wish myself accursed.

Under the curse of God.

And cut off from Christ.

For what?

"For the sake of my brothers, my kinsmen."

For the sake of my brothers.

I could wish myself...

okay, you know what that does?

How can that be helpful to us

as soul winners?

That statement right there.

Does that help you at all?

Does that help you

want to go down the street here

and make sure the East
side folks don't perish?

Because you hear the
Apostle Paul saying that?

You know what that does for me?

You know what I find is very helpful

when I read biography?

Which, by the way, that's just
kind of a biographical statement

that Paul gives to us right there.

You know when I read
about a Hudson Taylor,

or I read about a George Mueller,

or a Carey, or a Judson,

or a Spurgeon,

do you know what I'm struck with?

I'm struck with men and women

who endured things and did things

that aside from the grace of God

there's no explanation for.

What does James tell us about Elijah?

What does he tell us about Elijah?

(from the room)
He's a man with a nature like ours.

He's a man with a nature like ours.

You know what's interesting?

Why do you think he tells us that?

What did Elijah do?

(unintelligible)

He prayed and it didn't rain,
and he prayed again, and it did rain.

Why do you think he would come along

and tell us he's just like us?

Why would James tell us that?

Because we don't think that, right?

When we see Elijah and Elisha

and these guys from the Scripture,

we think they're super-human.

When we read about the Apostle Paul,

we look at the guy and we think

he's not like us.

But you know what?
They're made of the same stuff.

These are God's people

saved by the blood of Christ

with all the weaknesses
and all the frailties

of humankind just like us.

And do you know what the biography does?

When you read them, you realize,

wow, somebody made of the same stuff I am

and look what they did.

And what it does for me;

how it encourages me

is it makes me realize,

through Christ I can do
all things through Him

Who strengthens me.

I can do these things.

James is telling us this to have us know

that if we'll pray like Elijah did,

nothing is impossible with God.

It's all possible through Him.

And what happens is when I read

about Paul's burden,

it makes me realize this -

it makes me realize a burden like that

is possible in a person made
of the same stuff I'm made of.

Listen, isn't there something

about Paul's burden when he says

that he would be cut off from Christ

that makes you kind of
sit up and take notice?

(incomplete thought)

Listen, how many of you have read

a man with such great sorrow

over the lostness of his kinsmen

that he wishes himself accursed

and cut off from Christ?

He could wish himself damned.

By the way,

if that's not an expression
of Christ's heart -

I could wish myself under the wrath of God

for the sake of My brethren.

And He did it.

But you know what?

If we heard that that was Jesus

in Romans 9, we'd say,

okay, well, He is super-human.

We could understand that.

He was doing things and
thinking things all the time

that go above us.

But when it's Paul,

and we know he's human,

we know he's a sinner;

we know he's saved,

and we see in him -

when I read that,

it suddenly makes me ask myself

that question.

Do I ever feel that?

Now the closest I've felt that

and I don't even know
how to put it in words

would be for my children.

But what that shows me

is that when the Spirit of God

takes over a sinner and indwells,

and begins to work His fruit

in the life of a believer,

the chief aspect of that fruit is love.

And what Paul shows me

is that a sinner saved by grace

can love the lost that much

through the operations
of the Spirit of God.

Doesn't it prove that to us?

That that is within the
realm of possibility?

Why is that important?

Why would that be important for you and I

to realize that?

Because I'll tell you this,

one of the things that James says

is that you don't have
because you don't ask.

And you don't ask for things

that you don't think are possible.

Listen, we don't ask.

We don't seek.

We don't beseech God.

We don't fast for;

we don't lay hold of the Lord for things

that we think are impossible to have.

But when I look and I see Paul

with that mindset,

you know what?

That puts it within
the realm of possibility.

That if I don't have anything in my life,

in my thought life,

in my heart, in my soul,

in my longing for the lost -

I mean, are there any
of you that look at that

and you're just like I
can't even fathom that?

I can't even fathom the idea of saying

that I'd be willing to not be a Christian

and perish for the sake of somebody else.

I mean, to even think that way;

to even love that way.

Brethren, let me ask you this.

What do you think
this city might look like

if we just had 20 people with that heart?

Or even one?

Think about the cities that Paul
walked into with that heart.

He didn't leave them the same.

He goes into Thessalonica.
He goes into Philippi.

He goes into Corinth.

And they weren't left the same.

Can you imagine 20 people let loose

that had a heart that
somehow resembled that?

Let me tell you this,

that kind of burden takes you,

you know what you can't do?

You can't spend your life
doing nothing for sinners.

If you're willing to be
cut off and accursed,

you know what you'll do?

You'll go out your front door.

It's like I heard John
MacArthur talk one time

about the guy that said how
much he loved his fiance

and how much he loved her

and he'd swim the English channel,

but I can't come over
tonight because it's raining.

That's just a silly little
thing that he tells,

but isn't there a reality?

We can surmise what great things we'll do.

It's amazing the young people

that will say they want to go

to the foreign mission field.

Why?

Well, sometimes it's a romantic thing.

But how many is it

that like William Carey,

he would stare at those maps

and he would think of
the multitudes of people.

How many of those missionaries

could hear the cry of the heathen

and it just moved their hearts?

You've heard Paul Washer talking about

laying awake at night for the nations.

His heart just aches. It's rent.

Listen, young people
will say all the time,

well, I think I ought to go
over to Papua, New Guinea.

I've had people from our church -
young guys - tell me that.

I think I need to go over here.
I think I need to go to Laredo.

I think I need to go and do this.

And yet, what?

I don't see these guys
out combing the streets.

Why?

Are you telling me you're driven by a love

that anywhere near resembles this?

Brethren, burdened.

If we're going to be soul winners,

we've got to have burden.

And one of the things to realize,

look, these burdens for soul like this,

they're not natural.

They're Spirit of God wrought.

That's His fruit: love.

Do you think there's anything but love

behind a statement like
that of the apostles?

But what it makes us realize

is it's within the realm of possibility

in a saved sinner.

You can't argue that.

You cannot argue that.

And how many have borne witness

down through the centuries

of having similar hearts and burdens?

And I'll tell you what, when you see it,

their actions bear testimony.

Do you know something?

The average American missionary

stays on the foreign mission field

one year.

You know why?

Why?

Why are all these missionaries

going to the mission field and
coming back after a year?

Never to go back again most of them.

Why?

They're not really burdened.

It was all glamour.

It was romantic.

Foreign countries.

You know, you get this idea
of traveling the world.

I see my daughter the other day

and she's looking at the world map

and she's saying, oh, I want to go here.

And the kids are talking
about here and here.

It's all romantic. It's all glorious.

When it's a map and it's
got all different colors

and you can imagine.

You've seen the National Geographic.

Hey, it's one thing to see
a National Geographic

about Papua, New Guinea.

And to watch this guy
getting eaten by mosquitoes,

while you're sitting in your living room

in your air conditioned house.

It's one thing to see that.

It's another thing to be there.

That guy was so swollen
with mosquito bites.

Have you guys seen that?
Trevor Johnson sent that.

Have you seen that one?

It's a whole other thing.

Are you willing to go in

and lay down your life for cannibals?

When you have a heart

that is willing to be accursed,

will you go endure swarms of mosquitoes?

Or how about being stoned?

Or beaten with rods?

Do you realize that when Paul was stoned,

he turned right around and marched

back into the city

and preached the Gospel all over?

Brethren, if we were out

and somebody threw a rock at us,

oh, we'd be telling stories
for weeks in the church.

We'd have come running home.

We'd be warning people: Don't go back

into that neighborhood.

He marches right back in.

Burden, brethren.

Like I said, sometimes we don't have

because we don't ask.

I'll tell you, if you
were fervently asking

for this kind of burden,

even if God gave you half,

it'd be a long way from
where most of us are now.

You know, listen,

I'm just speaking reality here, guys.

A year ago, two years ago,

do you know how many young guys

from our church were
going down to the Alamo?

But let me tell you this, if it was driven

by a heart that was
really broken for sinners,

it wouldn't have stopped.

If the desire is to go

because it's a fun social event,

and that's where all the people

are going to be hanging
out on Friday night,

well, then, you go as
long as they're going.

And when everybody
stops going, you stop going.

But when it's a burden for souls,

you don't stop going.

Why?

Because just because
everybody else stops going,

the burden for souls doesn't quit.

Right?

Brethren, soul winners are those

(incomplete thought).

I can remember one time,

I can remember one time calling

John Wheeler.

And he's telling me -

it's night and it's raining

and Octave was visiting

and he's out there in the street somewhere

and he doesn't speak Turkish.

Well, of course, that's what we
want to see in missionaries, right?

We want to see them out
there on the streets.

We want to see them out there in the rain.

We want to see them out there at night.

We want to see them out there even
when they don't know the language.

Because they have a burden for souls
and they just want to reach them.

I'll tell you, those are
the kind of people

that turn the world upside down.

But if we don't even know

that it's a burden we lack,

and it's within the realm of possibility

to have a love like this,

and we're not asking for it,

then we're content to
let our hearts go cold

and to not run after the lost,

and to see people all around us

that are perishing.

You have the truth

that God uses to save people,

and you're willing to walk by them

and let them go to hell

and it doesn't bother you.

Why? Because there's no burden.

There's no passion.
There's no love for them.

If you looked at that
guy in the grocery store

with a love like a mother has

for her daughter or her son,

it's a whole different thing.

You're willing to do all sorts of things.

Jesus said go.

He said go. Go to the nations.

Well, this is one of the nations.

Listen, "go" right there doesn't mean

you have to go overseas.

It just means you need to go somewhere.

We need to be a people on the go.

And what are we supposed to do?
We're supposed to make disciples.

But listen, again, isn't that amazing?

Jesus says go make disciples.

What? Can I make a disciple?

That's what He seems to imply.

Just like Paul says:

I can win some. I can save some.

What? We can win some? We can save some?

We can make disciples?

He that wins souls is wise.

In other words, yep, you can do it.

Oh, not in your own strength.

Nobody ever said that.

Obviously in the power of God.

But you'll never do it in the power of God

unless you go.

You'll never do it in the power of God

unless you're convinced you need to go.

You'll never go unless
you have a burden to go.

You have the love to go.

You're compelled by the
excellencies of Christ to go.

Brethren, these are the things we need.

I'll tell you, when we become flat, stale,

and are no longer chasing after souls,

it's because the excellencies
of Christ are not there.

It's because the burden to desire

to anywhere near be cut off,

to have this earnestness
burning within you,

it's not there.

Your love - it's grown cold.

It's because you're not
lifting up your eyes.

You're not seeing.

It's because we're not
convinced that we need to go.

We're convinced of other things.

We're convinced there's other
things in life more important.

Brethren, I'll tell you this,

if you've been saved for
that particular person

to be a people who
proclaim His excellencies,

then whatever else may
be true about your life,

that's something that you need to be doing

in whatever sphere you find yourself in.

Some of you guys are in school. So be it.

Proclaim His excellencies there.

And you can do that verbally.

You can do that through written form.

You can hand out a tract.

You can give them a Paul Washer DVD.

Give them one of these we've made up.

Or you can talk to them.

I know different people
have different gifts.

I know there's different
ways we can go about it.

You can leave tracts around.
You can be like Mona Leiter.

Everywhere that woman goes,

if you're walking behind her,

you're seeing tracts on the sidewalk.

Even sometimes if you're in places

where it's kind of like co-ed
bathrooms or something,

you go in there and there's one there.

You're walking through a restaurant

and there's an empty table over there.

You'll be in another town somewhere

and it's like hey, that's
one of our business cards.

How'd that get here?

Well, of course, you're with Mona.

Why shouldn't we all do that?

What one of you guys,

even if you're socially backwards,

can't take business cards

and just drop them like Johnny Appleseed?

I guess that guy was fictitious right?

But supposedly, folklore, this guy

that just went about
all of the United States.

He wore a pan on his head.

And he threw apple seeds everywhere.

We throw the seed.

Isn't the Word likened to the seed

in the Word of God?

It is.

Listen, if you just drop
business cards all over

and you got to the end of your life

and one soul looked up I'll Be Honest,

came across Paul Washer's youth sermon

and was converted,

would that not be worth it?

Jesus said lift up your eyes!

There's eternal fruit here!

It'd be worth it.

Is not one soul worth that investment?

And who says you'll only harvest one?

But if you lived your whole life

and only harvested one soul,

what a thing!

Could you imagine every time
you see that person in glory?

The Lord used me to save him!