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← Will You Trust in Christ or Yourself? (Vlog)

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Showing Revision 1 created 12/26/2017 by Carrie Spradlin.

  1. The biggest sin that I was holding on to
  2. was my doubts and unbelief
  3. in the Lord Jesus Christ -
  4. that He was able to save my soul;
  5. to just trust in Him.
  6. And it would always be like,
  7. ok, I trust in Him, and then...
  8. Ok, I've got to repent and
    believe in that enough;
  9. I've got to keep trusting in Him
  10. and that will save my soul.
  11. I've got to keep believing Him
    and that will save my soul.
  12. I've got to repent enough;
  13. turn away from my sin enough,
  14. and that will save my soul.
  15. I mean, the Gospel to me
  16. was pretty much a law.
  17. It was repent and believe,
  18. and you won't go to hell.
  19. But it was different.
  20. It was a law.
  21. It wasn't the free grace of God in it
  22. that God would save me.
  23. It was like, oh, I'm going to seek You
  24. with all my heart and soul
  25. and then I'm going to bend Your arm, God.
  26. I'm going to try and pray enough.
  27. I'm going to seek You
  28. and it never sufficed.
  29. There's never completeness in it all.
  30. It would always fail,
  31. even though I sought God;
  32. cried out to Him;
  33. prayed, thought good thoughts about Him.
  34. It didn't suffice.
  35. God wasn't looking at my works
  36. even though I prayed good.
  37. I mean before, I actually thought -
  38. when I was thinking I was a Christian
  39. and everything like that,
  40. I thought, man, look at my performance.
  41. I just prayed really good there.
  42. Then all of a sudden,
  43. I would even have the thought
  44. but that doesn't matter.
  45. You know Christ matters.
  46. And then that right there,
  47. because I said that,
  48. that was my performance right there.
  49. Because I was acknowledging that
  50. it's Christ's work.
  51. And me pointing to Christ
    and saying, "it's His."
  52. That was how I was performing before God.
  53. And that's what I was holding on to.
  54. I was holding on to:
  55. I'm a special case.
  56. I mean, I can't believe...
  57. woe is me.
  58. The big thing was,
  59. God was pointing at me and saying,
  60. you won't believe.
  61. My Gospel is free and it
    extends its arm to you.
  62. Nothing holds you back
    from trusting in My Son.
  63. You're the one that won't come.
  64. And I kept thinking,
  65. well, I guess I'll wait.
  66. Wait for that special feeling.
  67. The more I waited,
  68. the fruit of waiting came more doubts
  69. and unbelief about God.
  70. Hatred towards Him and everything.
  71. And then, ok, I'm going to cry out to Him.
  72. People would tell me,
  73. cry out to the Lord.
  74. If you really cry out to
    Him, He'll answer you.
  75. I was like, ok.
  76. So I cried out to Him,
  77. and I'm thinking about Him
  78. and trying...
  79. I was trusting in my crying out to Him.
  80. I came to a point where
  81. I can just believe in
    the Lord Jesus Christ,
  82. that it was His prayers that were
  83. 100% completely perfect.
  84. And all that merit of Him is now
  85. imputed to my account.
  86. Not that I'm perfect and righteous
  87. in my own self,
  88. but there's righteousness in Him.
  89. And if I keep believing in Him
  90. and trusting in Him -
  91. not that these are works
    or anything like that,
  92. but it's a ceasing -
  93. giving up and saying,
  94. He has a righteousness
  95. that's going to pay for all my sin.
  96. His death pays for all my sin.
  97. It's His righteousness that covers me
  98. and clothes me.
  99. And God looks at me with love now
  100. because of Christ
  101. and not because of myself.
  102. There's absolutely nothing inside me
  103. that I can come to God with.
  104. It has to come from outside.
  105. There has to be Christ.
  106. If I don't have Christ,
  107. then I don't have that
    propitiation that He's made,
  108. how can I come to God?
  109. I mean, if I didn't see the Gospel,
  110. all I would be doing is
    trying to bend God's arm,
  111. even though I was condemned.
  112. I was a vile, filthy sinner before Him.
  113. I mean, we hope in the Lord
  114. because He saves.
  115. We pray to God because He answers.
  116. I mean, we look to Christ
  117. because He saves us.
  118. He steps in our place
  119. when we should be there.
  120. I mean, it's to the one who does not work
  121. but believes in Him Who
    justifies the ungodly,
  122. his faith - the person who does not work
  123. and believes in God who
    justifies the ungodly,
  124. his faith is counted as righteousness.
  125. Not the person who trusts in his works;
  126. trusts in his prayers;
  127. and trusts in his sighs
  128. and says, oh wow, I did good this time.
  129. He doesn't have any peace from God.
  130. God might give him up to that
  131. and give him a peace in it,
  132. and He'd be perfectly just in doing that.
  133. But in His mercy,
  134. He causes no peace for that person.
  135. That person, like me,
  136. that was trying to repent,
  137. trying to believe,
  138. trying to come to God,
  139. trying and doing anything
  140. to come to God
  141. outside of His Son and what He's done,
  142. it's nothing.
  143. I can't give God my heart
  144. and then God's going
    to give me His heart.
  145. No.
  146. God comes down and says,
  147. here's My Son.
  148. Do you consent?
  149. Will you believe in Him?
  150. This is My beloved Son.
  151. I'm well pleased with Him.
  152. He's willing to take your place.
  153. Will you trust Him?
  154. And then people would go,
  155. well, what about election?
  156. Find your election in Jesus Christ.
  157. Election has done but saved people.
  158. If He didn't elect,
  159. we'd all be like Sodom and Gomorrah.
  160. Totally trashed.
  161. Everything would be totally gone.
  162. There would be no salvation for anybody.
  163. But because God saves...
  164. God is a loving God
  165. and we're wicked.
  166. The thing is,
  167. we have a wrong view about God
  168. when we start going,
    well, I don't know if I'm elect.
  169. Because we're saying, God,
    You're a tyrant.
  170. You're the person that elects people,
  171. and I guess I'm just
    going to have to wait.
  172. And we sit around waiting
  173. and just harbor bad thoughts about God,
  174. instead of coming to
    Him exactly as we are.
  175. He is loving.
  176. God is love.
  177. And He gives a righteousness
  178. to sinners.
  179. People who just come to Him
  180. exactly as they are.
  181. Not trying to put on a show.
  182. Just saying, God, I hate you.
  183. I mean literally,
  184. you can come to God exactly as you are.
  185. But don't expect to stay like that.
    Because His love encompasses you.
  186. John 5:39-40 "You search the Scriptures because
    you think that in them you have eternal life;
  187. and it is they that bear witness about Me, yet you
    refused to come to Me that you may have life."