I Feel Like I'm Spiritually Dying - Ask Pastor Tim

This is something that I know that

James and I encounter on a regular basis.

And maybe some of the others of you

can relate to dealing
with people like this

or even maybe in your own life

there's these kind of wrestlings.

From Joseph Foster:

"Pastor Tim,

I feel like I'm spiritually dying."

In fact, I thought, that's probably

a good name for the study tonight.

I feel like I'm spiritually dying.

"My desires for God

have come and gone,

and I don't know what's happening.

Maybe I committed the unpardonable

with my willful sin.

I need help, because I can see God

in everything except for my life.

I know that the gifts and call of God

is without repentance,

but somehow I feel like He's done with me.

I pray every day and ask the Lord

to deliver me or shed light

or show me what I must do.

Maybe I have some unrepented stuff.

I don't know.

All I know is God is silent

and I think He left me.

Yet, I'm still holding on and praying.

I'm the worst ever,

and I need help.

I don't know what to do or say to Him.

Please, if you could possibly pray for me

and maybe pray about it

and see what the Lord says to you,

I'd appreciate it.

I don't know if I'm even saved,

but I heard God call me once.

I remember when He delivered me

and changed me,

but I've fallen into somewhere

I don't want to be.

I've never been in such
a bad place spiritually.

I haven't been a Christian long,

but I know the Word."

And obviously, you can see some

back and forth here.

I don't know if I'm even saved,

and then he says,

I remember when He delivered me

and changed me.

He says I haven't been a Christian long,

but I know the Word.

At the same time, he says,

I'm in a place where I never wanted to be.

I've never been in such
a bad place spiritually.

I may have committed the unpardonable sin

with my willful sin.

So, it's obvious there's
lots of confusion.

"I've fallen into somewhere
I don't want to be.

I've never been in such
a bad place spiritually.

I haven't been a Christian long,
but I know the Word.

Maybe, I don't know the power of God.

I need help. Please."

James, how often do you get something

of this nature?

James: Every week.

Tim: Yeah, when the church phone

rang my phone,

and when my email address

was public information,

I got them oftentimes
more than once a week.

In fact, some people,

once they start calling -

do you get that?

Some of the same people

over and over and over?

Like, sometimes even more than once a day.

James: I've been emailing him for years.

Tim: So, this is a guy that you didn't

just get one message from.

James: Yeah, and he probably
sent that a year ago.

Tim: Probably.

And I thought answering this

is not just good for him

if he happened to listen,

but numerous people -

for one, you've got numerous people

that they don't know if they're saved.

They're back and forth.

Am I in? Am I out?

They've got things happening in their life

that they're not certain
what to make of it.

Am I Christian? Am I not a Christian?

They recognize something's not good.

Something's not right.

They recognize God is silent.

And on top of that,

you have people all the time,

and I think it's a favorite with the devil

to really use the unpardonable sin

just to paralyze people spiritually.

And I know, when we did

a full-blown message on the
unpardonable sin one time

and I mentioned in there

my own testimony that
shortly after I was saved,

I came under the grips
of that kind of thing,

and God took me through it

and just gave me real assurance

in my own soul.

But, you know, one of the things is

James has been dealing with this guy

for a long time.

And see, the thing about
one paragraph like this

is there's so much

that you really need clarity on;

there's so much that you need

to talk to somebody about;

there's so much you need to dig into.

Because here's the problem,

when people give you
a paragraph like this,

the thing is people often -

because we kind of have this built-in

protection mechanism -

people often present things in a way

that they are wanting pity.

I mean, you see this.

You can see this if you've got a situation

like in a pastoral situation

where we've got a problem
between two people,

and you know, if you
hear one person's side,

you're going to get a story

a lot of times that is very one-sided

because you're getting their side,

and it's going to be that way.

And oftentimes, when
you hear it presented,

well, it's presented in a light -

they're going to emphasize the things

that they want to emphasize,

because there is an agenda here

to prove oneself right.

Oftentimes, it's not surprising

that people have defense mechanisms up

and they want to protect themselves,

and they desire to be in the right,

and they desire to have pity,

and they desire other people

to show compassion to them

and feel for them.

So there's a sense,

when you can present things,

and you don't always get all the details.

Sometimes you don't get some
of the most relevant details,

and James, if he just
unfolded with this guy,

he could probably tell you things

that are not expressed here

that are really critical and necessary

to try to properly diagnose

where a guy like this is at spiritually.

But, I think there's some general things

we can say about a situation like this

that can be really helpful.

Think about what he's saying.

Think about the impression
that you get here.

You get the feeling

that very often, very often,

you get the feeling from people

that they are in a situation

that if it was in their control,

they would not be in.

See what I'm saying?

You get this sense

that they want to be saved,

but God's not saving them.

Or they want to have assurance,

but God's not giving it to them.

You see, it's presented in a way:

Well, I want this. I want this.

I would gladly be converted.

I would gladly be a healthy Christian.

I would gladly have all this assurance,

if it were in my power to do it.

If it were up to me,
that's what I would have.

That's the condition I would be in.

I would be a very healthy Christian.

I would have assurance.

I would be walking well.

I would be pleasing the Lord.

(Incomplete thought)

It's presented in the way it comes across,

they believe that they're doing everything

they can possibly do

in order to make things right with God,

but God isn't coming through.

And if you didn't hear that in this,

let me emphasize something again.

He says this:

"Maybe I have some unrepented stuff.

I don't know.

All I know is God is silent,

and I think He left me.

Yet, I'm still holding on..."

God left me. I'm holding on.

"...and praying.

I'm the worst ever and I need help."

Do you see the feeling
that you're getting?

I need help and God's not helping me.

He says, "I don't know what to do

or say to Him."

In other words, I've expended myself.

I've gone to Him for help.

I've said everything I know how to say.

I've done everything I know how to do.

And He's not helping me.

"Please. If you could
possibly pray for me.

Maybe pray about it

and see what the Lord says to you.

I'd appreciate it."

And so, you see what he's saying here?

He's saying I'm holding on.

I'm praying.

You get this idea again

that he's assuming

he would gladly make
everything right with God.

Brethren, let me tell you.

Look, I feel for this guy in this sense.

Is there confusion? Yes.

Is there frustration? Yes.

Is there ignorance? Yes.

I mean, to be in the place he is.

I feel pity for him.

But listen, we need to
listen very carefully

when people speak this way.

Listen, if anybody says to us;

they come across in this way,

that I'm doing everything

and God won't save me.

I'm willing to be saved.

I'm willing to be right.

I'm willing to have a
relationship with God.

But God is silent.

God's not helping.

God's not coming.

You see, you need to be very careful -

very careful that you pity

an individual like that,

and fall into basically

putting your arm around them

and staring at God like this.

You know? What are You doing?

Lord, what are You doing?

And you can do that.

You can do that.

You have to be real careful.

Because look, the fact is

that when you go to Scripture,

do you ever find -

do you ever find?

I was thinking the other day,

years ago, years ago, years ago...

I saw this Hollywood production -

Was it called "The Robe?"

Something that was made

about some Roman soldier.

It was "Ben Hur" or it was
"The Robe" or something.

And there was a woman

portrayed in the movie

who was basically on a stretcher -

on a bed -

and they were hauling her around.

And she said,

I asked the Master to heal me

and He didn't.

And He told me that it was God's will

that I not be healed.

Anybody see that movie?

Anybody know what I'm talking about?

Maybe it's probably best you don't.

But I've always remembered that,

that how dare Hollywood do that!

How dare they do that!

That is no small thing,

because there is no account
like that in the Bible.

There is no account of somebody

genuinely going to the Lord for help

and He turned His back on them.

Never.

In fact, do you know what you find?

Weeping.

"How often I would have gathered you,

and you would not."

Brethren, we need to be aware

of just how God presents
Himself in Scripture.

Look, what can happen is

you begin to get exposed

to accounts like this,

and you can begin to suppose

because this is how they feel,

God is cruel.

God is standoffish.

God doesn't want to help me.

God is just up there

and in all my desperation

and all my cries for help,

He just ignores me.

And that's not the case.

That's not how we find
the Lord in Scripture.

That is not how we find it at all.

And I know I've brought
this verse up before,

but I think it's worth looking at again.

Look at Luke 14.

I really dealt strongly with this text

when I dealt with hyper-Calvinism.

But brethren, we want to think right.

Don't let sinners

who claim to be seeking for
God and not find Him -

don't ever let them
change your view of God

from a solidly biblical view of God,

and from a solidly biblical view

of the free offer of the Gospel.

Sometimes, we can take sinners

just far too much at their word

to the place where we
begin to question God.

And to the place where
a shadow comes over.

Be careful

when unconverted people

or people like this,

who they don't know if they're in,

they don't know if they're out,

that they're doing everything

that He requires,

and they're praying,

and they're calling upon Him,

and they're believing,
and they're trusting,

and they're repenting,

but God isn't doing anything.

Because that just isn't true.

Listen, if God hasn't saved somebody,

be certain they have not believed.

Be certain.

But anyway, Luke 14.

Let's look at this.

Verse 16

We need to have this in
our mind all the time.

This is such a helpful and balancing text.

"He said to him,

'A man once gave a great banquet,

and invited many.'"

Notice the invitation.

Notice that the people aren't

doing everything that they possibly can do

to get into the banquet,

and he's keeping them out.

Scripture never paints a picture

of a banquet going on in here,

and the crowds are
amassed around the house

trying to get in at the door.

Now once the door's shut,

people try to get in.

After it's too late.

But in this day, at this time,

in this age of the free
offer of the Gospel,

there is never a picture of a closed door.

The picture is: you're invited.

There's never a picture of people

gathered at the door saying,

please, let us in;
please, let us in.

And He's saying, oh no,

no, you can't come in.

That's not what we find.

Remember what Scripture says?

The kindness of God

is meant to lead us to repentance.

Not to harden us.

God didn't give Joseph his meal

the day that he wrote this

to convince him that He was a cruel God

and unwilling to help sinners.

Just the opposite.

Just the opposite message

was sent by the meal he ate that day.

You see, the way Scripture
presents it is this:

It presents it as here's this banquet.

Here's this banquet - v. 16.

"A man once gave a great banquet

and invited many.

And at the time for the banquet,

he sent his servant to say to those

who had been invited,

'Come, for everything is now ready.'"

But what? They didn't flock there

and then he turned them away.

They all alike began to make excuses.

"The first said to him,

'I have bought a field.

I must go out and see it.

Please have me excused.'"

You see, it's not God turning them away.

It's them making excuses and running away.

That's what we have to see.

And look, if somebody comes along

and they're questioning whether

they are even saved at all,

they put God in a bad light.

Brethren, be careful that
you don't take sinners -

unconverted sinners -

too much at their word

as far as the picture they paint

of an unwilling God to save.

Don't go there.

Because you know what?

Lost people are in the
power of the evil one.

Lost people are deceived.

Lost people do not have

proper views of God.

Be careful that you don't
buy into that view.

Because what God does is

He shows Himself in Scripture

very willing to save.

And He sends His Son into this world

to actually even look at a city

of His rejectors and weep tears,

and say how often I
would have gathered you,

as a hen gathers her chicks,

and you would not.

You would not.

Not, I would not. You would not.

That's how God communicated to this world.

That's the kind of Messiah
He sent into this world.

"They all alike began to make excuses.

The first said to him,

'I bought a field. I
must go out and see it.

Please have me excused.'

Another said, 'I bought five yoke of oxen

and I go to examine them.

Please have me excused.'

Another said, 'I've married a wife

and therefore I cannot come.'

So the servant came and reported

these things to his master.

Then the master of the
house became angry."

Why?

Is He angry at a bunch of people

that want to be saved

and are standing at the door

trying to get in to the banquet?

But He's angry because
He didn't elect them?

Nothing like that.

He's angry because the
invitation was free;

it was full;

and they refused it.

Sinners on judgment day

will not talk like this.

They won't talk like this.

Look, I know there's confusion here.

But, did you hear?

He said maybe I committed the unpardonable

with my willful sin.

Do you know what he's acknowledging here?

Willful sin.

Do you know what Scripture says?

Can you think of
anywhere in the Scriptures

that it speaks about willful sin?

Two texts come right to my mind.

Can you think of one?

Hebrews 10:26. Let's turn there.

Keep your finger here because we
need to finish out this account.

See, he's acknowledging
that he has had light.

He's acknowledging that he has been

exposed to the Gospel it would seem.

He's acknowledging that he even believes

he was exposed to so much

that he thinks he may have been saved.

He says, "I haven't been a Christian long,

but I know the Word."

I know the Word.

And yet, he admits willful sin here.

Hebrews 10:26

"If we go on sinning deliberately

(or willfully)

after receiving the
knowledge of the truth,

there no longer remains
a sacrifice for sins."

Let me tell you something
else you don't want to do.

You don't want to come to people like this

and assure them that
everything's going to be ok.

Or even assure them that
everything is presently ok.

In other words,

you don't have to worry.

You haven't committed
the unpardonable sin.

You haven't gone too far.

You haven't been overly willful

and tread upon the blood of Jesus Christ.

You can't tell people that.

Because you know what?

There are such things in Scripture,

and when you know the Word

and you've been exposed to the truth,

and you go on in willful sin,

that is extremely dangerous.

And you don't want
to tell people it's not.

You don't want to tell
people at all that it's not.

Anyway, back to Luke 14.

"Another said, 'I have married a wife

(v. 20) and therefore I cannot come.'

So the servant came and reported
these things to his master.

Then the master of the house became angry

and said to his servant,

'Go out quickly to the streets

and lanes of the city.

Bring in the poor and crippled

and blind and lame.

And the servant said,

'Sir, what you've commanded has been done.

Still there is room.'

The master said to the servant,

'Go out to the highways and hedges...'"

Spurgeon preached a tremendous message

on this text called,
"Compel Them to Come In."

Notice this.

Notice what the master is saying.

"Compel people to come in

that my house may be filled.

For I tell you, none of those men

who were invited shall taste my banquet."

But it's not because they got invited

and then they desperately wanted to come

and were turned away.

It was only because
when the invitation came,

they thought there were better things

than the banquet.

See, there's only one thing

that prevents people from coming

to the banquet.

It's clearly that they loved other things

more than the banquet.

They were more important.

You know, one of the things is

we have to be honest.

He's obviously a young guy using "IDK."

That "IDK" shows up a lot of times here.

I don't know. I don't know.
I don't know. I don't know.

You know what? You need to know.

You need to know.

Can I tell you something?

Blind Bartimaeus is a great picture.

Why? Why do I say that?

Jesus came passing by
on His way to Jericho.

Blind Bartimaeus - what did he do?

He heard the throng of people going by.

That's Jesus.

Jesus, Son of David.

What did he do?

What did blind Bartimaeus do?

He cried out!

What did the crowd do?

James: Rebuked him.
Telling him to be silent.

Tim: Shut up!

Hold your tongue!

What did he do?

He kept going.

You know why?

Two realities gripped that man.

Be sure of it.

I'm blind.

And my only hope is Christ.

You see, you don't yell like that

until there's a proper assessment

of who you are, what your condition is,

and who He is

and that your only hope is found there.

That is key.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

You know what?

You do need to know.

We need to be honest with ourselves.

You know what, no sinner ever gets saved

until they come face to face

with what they are.

Why do sinners flee to Christ?

Because they come to recognize

like blind Bartimaeus,

"Lord..." I mean, they're
not going to give up.

I can remember that night

when I cried out.

I mean, I saw what I was.

And He was my only hope

and my only help.

We do need to know.

Because you remember what Jesus said.

He said the doctor comes for the sick.

See, if you waffle around.

Sometimes the thing with people

who they don't know if
they're saved or lost,

the real issue is:

they don't know if
they're a sinner or not.

That's the real issue.

That's the real issue.

Well, I don't know if I'm
really that bad or not.

See, blind Bartimaeus was not waffling

about his blindness.

He knew.

He knew. We need to know.

We need to do serious and honest

spiritual evaluation.

We really do.

Because you know what?

Nobody, until they recognize,

I'm blind.

You see those people in Scripture.

It was desperation.

The woman - she had that issue of blood.

"I've got to get to Him."

That's the one thing that occupied her.

Versus what?

Luke 14

What were they occupied with?

A bunch of other things.

Bunches of other things.

There's one thing that keeps those people.

It's their idols.

It's their sin.

It's when you love that ox,

that team of oxen;

it's when when you love that wife,

that land more than the banquet.

Your heart is pulled after other things.

But they don't recognize,

because when you get to the place

where Bartimaeus is,

you know what?

Oh, remember those words?

Remember when the invitation came to him?

Remember when the invitation

to the banquet came to him?

"He's calling you."

Did you have that looked up?

Do you have Mark's account?

Listen when they call him.

Read what happens when they call him.

"And Jesus stopped and said,

'Call him.'

And they called the blind man,

saying to him,

'Take heart. Get up. He is calling you.'

Throwing off his cloak,

he sprang up and came to Jesus."

Listen to that.

"Jesus said to him,

'what do you want Me to do for you?'

And the blind man said to Him,

'Rabbi, let me recover my sight.'

Jesus said to him,

'Go your way. Your faith
has made you well.'

And immediately he recovered his sight

and followed Him on the way."

Don't you love that?

(Incomplete thought)

That was the invitation.

Call him.

He's calling you.

That's exactly Luke 14.

Go call them.

The Master's calling you.

Remember, there was a master there?

The invitation went out.

The Master's calling you.

Do you know why the wife,

the field, the oxen?

Because you don't really know

who you are and how bad you need that.

You see, that's the issue.

Brethren, we have to know.

I don't know.

What? I don't know if I'm sick.

I don't know where I'm at.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

Brethren, the thing that
you find in Scripture -

that leper that went to Christ,

he knew he was a leper.

The blind man that went to Christ,

he knew he was blind.

That Syropheonician woman

knew her daughter had a demon.

The man down there at the bottom

of the Mount of Transfiguration

knew his son had a demon.

People in Scripture - they knew.

They knew they had a problem.

They knew - my daughter is sick.

I've got an issue of blood.

They knew it.

And I've got to get to Christ.

Brethren, there's only one
way to come to Him.

And that is desperate,

and that is helpless,

and that is broken,

and that is seeing in Him our only help

and our only hope.

"I feel like I'm spiritually dying."

That's what he said.

But you know what, we have to step back

and we have to say,

well, is there not a cause?

I mean, is there not a cause?

We have to ask ourselves that

even if we're in a place

where we're solidly
grounded as Christians.

If we start getting into a cold state,

a backslidden state,

some kind of spiritual declension,

we need to ask ourselves this.

Is there not a cause?

Did I not get here some way?

Brethren, we have to be honest.

We really have to be honest

with the state of our own souls.

You know the people that run to Christ?

The ones that look up and recognize

I don't have anything to offer.

I'm poor.

I don't have any righteousness.

Lord, I'm guilty.

I'm guilty.

That's where I was.

I don't have any righteousness.

And I don't have any hope

other than in Him.

I am hellbound and I'm going there

and I deserve to go there.

And if Christ doesn't save me,

there's no hope.

And I cried out.

You see, when you get to the place

where you do know

you're a leper;

you do know

Lazarus is dead in that grave;

you do know you're blind.

When you do know

your daughter has a demon.

You're not ignorant.

You're not playing games.

Because you know what?

A lot of times when we say we don't know,

it's a mask.

Because the fact is we do know.

This statement here,

"Maybe I have some unrepented stuff.

I don't know."

That's not true.

You do know.

(Incomplete thought)

Look, I'm not talking about

looking under rocks for stuff.

We're sinners.

We're sinners by nature.

We've done things in our life

and we have idols

and we're wrecked in ways we do know.

I mean, you know, the truth is

if this guy even is a genuine Christian -

if he is after all this -

or if you are,

brethren, if we begin to go into a place

where we find ourselves spiritually dying,

the way out is honesty.

Because you know,

the only way you get
saved in the first place

is honesty.

I'm a sinner.

You see, that was the tax collector.

God, be merciful to me, the sinner.

God doesn't save the righteous.

He never has.

He doesn't save those who are well.

And you know how any sinner

who really gets saved,

gets saved in the beginning?

They come desperate.
They come broken.

They come bankrupt.
They come guilty.

They come vile.
They come filthy.

They come a sinner

to a Savior.

And you know, the thing is,

if we begin to fall into some kind

of spiritual lethargy,

in the same way we came honest

in the beginning, we need to come again.

Lord, the truth is,

I do have things in my life
I need to confess to You,

and I need to repent of.

And we do know.

We know.

It's just a matter of being honest.

If we really think,

if we really think...

we do know.

Brethren, no concealment.

No concealment.

If we confess our sins,

He's faithful and just to forgive.

I really believe there's so much

in 1 John 1 about fellowship

and that relationship.

It's true when we come at first

and it's true in maintaining

that relationship with God.

You cannot be hiding things.

No concealment.

There needs to be honesty.

We can't be compromised.

Unreserved openness.

We talked about, Sunday,

with open face.

We need to deal with God

with an unveiled, open face.

Open hearts before Him.

We go to Christ as sinners.

Once we're saved,

we go to Him as we really are.

And brethren, the thing is,

it's the same whether
we go to Christ at first

or whether we go to Him now.

The truth is that we go to Him to receive.

He doesn't want anything.

That's what He says.

The water of life without price.

But you know the same thing goes

in the Christian life.

Yes, He expects us as Christians

to be living the righteous life,

but it's still abiding in Christ.

He supplies all of our needs.

He supplies through His riches.

It doesn't come from us.
It doesn't originate with us.

There's no starting point with us.

We're not the source.

We're not the originator

of anything we need to live this life.

And we can lose sight of that

as we walk in this Christian life.

We can lose sight of the fact

that we are just as dependent on God now

as we were at the very beginning.

And if we become careless and negligent

of that reality,

we become self-sufficient;

we become independent.

And look, we need to be honest.

Don't conceal anything.

And he's admitting willful sin.

And then he says maybe I have things

that I need to repent of - I don't know.

That's the kind of attitude

that's going to leave you

in a condition like this.

I mean, look, when you recognize,

I'm just like blind Bartimaeus.

Unless the Son of David comes to me

and answers my cry,

there's no help.

And so what do you do?

When you really recognize you're blind

and when you really recognize
He's your only help

and there is no other,

you are going to cry in desperation

until He says, "Call him."

"Come."

And then what do you do?

You throw off the garment and you run!

Why? Because you really saw what you are.

And you really saw that
He is your only hope.

He says here,

"I feel like He's done with me."

Well, I don't know that
and he doesn't know that.

But I can tell you this,

Jesus Christ is the only Savior of sinners

and there is no other hope this guy has.

What are we going to say?

If we feel this way,

or if somebody else feels this way,

what are we going to say?

So, ok, you feel like God's done with you.

What? Should you assume He is?

And just be content to go to hell?

I wouldn't advise that.

I wouldn't advise anybody to take that.

If I'm sitting there
like blind Bartimaeus,

might I say to Christ,

I'm bad.

I'm real bad.

I'm so bad that I don't know
if there's any hope for me.

But, He's the Savior and if
anybody's going to help me;

if anybody's going to provide
hope for me it's Him.

Lord, help me.

Help somebody that's committed
the unpardonable sin,

because I want to be saved!

Anyway, brethren, you guys understand,

saving faith is not
believing you're saved.

That's assurance.

Saving faith is like blind Bartimaeus

where you recognize,

He is my only hope.

And I'm trusting Him.

I'm trusting Him to save sinners

as He shows in His Word

that He will for those who trust Him.

Faith believes,

not that I'm saved;

faith believes in the Person

and the work of Christ,

and that that alone is my hope

and it satisfied God.

My only hope.

Anyway, I think my primary reason

for bringing this up

is that we want to be careful, brethren,

that we don't think wrongly of God

when we find sinners struggling,

and assuming and wanting to convince you

that they're doing
everything in their power

and that they're actually responding

in a biblical manner,

and God wants nothing to do with them.

Don't fall for that.

Don't fall for that.

Listen, those who do not
want to give up their sins,

typically find the Gospel
very difficult to understand,

and typically find fault with God

for not saving them on their terms.

People that are scared to death of hell,

but love their sin,

they will tell you stories

that will cast a shadow
over God's character.

Beware.

And the reason they will

is because they want to get to heaven

holding their sins,

and God won't save them

because they want to skip hell

and hold on to the sin
they so dearly love.

And you see, that is precisely the thing

and the only thing

that keeps men and women from responding

to the invitation.

They love their stuff.

They love their sin.

And you know, you can imagine the guy.

You can imagine the guy, right?

That went to see his oxen?

Once he comes to recognize,

you know, ok, I've checked them out now.

I might like to get into the banquet.

Now, God's going to keep me out?

Yeah, be careful.

Scripture says that if you hear

the fullness of this truth;

you hear about the blood of Christ,

and you go on willfully sinning,

you may find that the Master is angry

and you'll never get in.

Be very careful.
Be very careful.

Brethren, the big thing
that I want to stress

in situations like this

is we want to stand for
the character of God.

And in Scripture, God sent His Son

into this world

to shed tears over His rejectors,

and to shed tears

and to exclaim with great pathos

that I would have gathered you.

I would have gathered you

and you would not.

See, that is the character

of the God that we find in Scripture.

Anybody want to add anything to that?

James: We could maybe just give a thought,

you mentioned a couple times:

Come to Christ broken,

and constant response to that is

then they look inwardly and think,

am I broken enough?

Tim: Yes, and that's so good.

I was just reading
Lloyd-Jones the other day,

and he said this:

He said there was a day

when the term repentance

communicated weakness.

What a saying.

What a thing to say.

Today, I get this distinct feeling

when we talk about repentance,

it doesn't make people think of weakness.

It makes people think of
something they need to do

in order to get God's attention

or to get on God's right side

or to twist His arm.

But you see, the very
nature of saving faith

and the very nature of true repentance -

it's blind Bartimaeus.

It's, "Lord, I don't have
anything to offer."

You see, that's what repentance is.

The idea of repentance is this idea

that remember, we talked about this,

it's re-thinking, but more than that,

that Greek term metanoia has to do

with changing your mind.

What happens?

Well, basically, we're going along

and we're thinking we're pretty good.

We think we're not blind.

We think we have strength.

We think we have something to offer God.

We really think - we heard
it today at the funeral -

people assume that they're good.

Blind Bartimaeus was in a position

where there was no assumption

that he had sight.

You see, repentance is really a mindset

that Christ is mighty

and I don't have anything to offer.

And then saving faith is beholding,

that's trusting Christ.

That's seeing the reality of Him.

That's hearing this One can restore sight;

this One can cure the leper;

this One has raised the palsied;

He's raised the dead;
He's calmed the storm.

Ah, that's what I need.

And so it's not so much,

oh, what can I do

so that I can get to heaven?

All it's about is in my desperation

and my emptiness

and my bankruptcy,

I just have to get ahold of Him.

I have to get His attention.

That's blind Bartimaeus.

He cried out. People told him to shut up.

But he wasn't going to shut up. Why?

Because his mind had been changed.

He knew.

There may have been a day

when Jesus didn't mean anything to him.

There may have been a day when

he had no idea about Jesus

having that ability,

but somewhere along the line

he came to learn about this Savior.

He came to learn about this One:

He can heal.

Word came to him.

And you remember,

that was the very thing that Jesus said

to those cities where most of
His mighty works were done.

He faulted them for not having repented

after He did those mighty works.

Well, here's Bartimaeus.

And he caught wind of those works.

And something happened in his mind

and something happened in his thinking,

and he wasn't thinking,

oh, how can I produce a repentance

that is somehow going to
work out God's favor here.

You see, the whole idea of repentance

is weakness.

Real repentance brings us to a mindset

of weakness; not of strength.

And he recognized, I can't do a thing

to restore my own sight.

But if I can just cry out to Him,

He is my only hope.

The cry doesn't save me.

It's the cry to Him.

I've got to get to Him.

He's my only hope.

Oh, think about when he heard those words:

"He's calling you."

He threw off his cloak.

Think about that.

Blind men don't throw off their cloak.

Blind men are going to keep in contact

with the stuff that is precious to them,

and I guarantee you a blind man

would have valued his cloak.

He threw it off because it
didn't matter anymore.

Because it wasn't like the wife

or the oxen or the field.

It didn't matter.

He's calling me and He's my only hope.

And if I can get to Him,

I don't care about anything else.

I've got to get to Him.

I don't care.

People that talk like this guy talks,

and then if you were to take a snapshot

of their life and see them
surfing the Internet,

and see them spending hours on video games

and see them watching smut on TV.

See, when you know He's my only hope,

and I'm sick and I'm blind

and I'm bankrupt

and I'm in trouble

and I'm guilty

and I'm a sinner before God

and I'm going to hell -

you will cry out.

Bartimaeus did not all of a sudden

decide that he was going to go

over to the other side of Jericho

and beg for awhile

and then he would worry
about finding Jesus later.

When you come to the realization,

when you do a proper spiritual inventory

and you recognize,

I am lost and I'm going to hell

and I am under God's wrath,

and it is not well with my soul,

and I'm going to perish,

and I need Christ.

He is my only hope and my only help.

That's it.

(Incomplete thought)

If you're here in that condition,

throw off the cloak

and run.

But the throwing off of the cloak

and the running don't do you anything,

don't look at that.

Can you imagine him?

He threw off those things.

Can you imagine him?

Can you imagine watching,

here's a blind man.

He had some idea of the direction

that Jesus was in.

He might have heard Jesus even.

I don't know, but he took off.

Can you imagine a blind man just running?

It's like he didn't care.

His one thought:

I've got to get to Christ.

Get to Christ.

I've got to get to Christ.

And his life proved it.

What he did proved the
nature of that repentance

and of that faith.

Yeah, such a question, it would be

so ridiculous to Bartimaeus.

Are you blind enough?

Do you sense your blindness enough?

Obviously, he was blind enough.

And obviously, he did sense his blindness.

But his focus was on that reality,

that I've got to get to Christ.

I've got to get to Christ.

Anybody have anything else?

Father,

Father, we know that You save sinners.

Lord, we know that from beginning to end,

we don't love first. You love first.

We don't call first. You call first.

We don't see first. You see first.

Being saved does not originate

in our own minds.

Being able to behold the reality

of our only hope being in Christ.

We even read about this on Sunday.

There's a veil.

We recognize that the god of this world

blinds the eyes of unbelievers

and those that are perishing.

Lord, have mercy and save sinners.

Lord, please, in this day,

bring sweeping - Lord, sweeping salvation

to multitudes, we pray, Lord,

may this be a day of salvation.

May today be the day of salvation.

Lord, would You have mercy upon

the masses of humanity in our country.

Lord, I pray for Joseph.

Lord, I pray. I pray for him.

Lord, there's no sinner beyond Your reach.

We just pray that You'd have mercy.

We pray, Lord, have mercy upon sinners,

just like him.

Just like we were; maybe some of us are.

Mercy, Lord. We pray for mercy.

Aside from Your mercy,

aside from Your compassion -

Lord, You sent Your Son.

And we see His tears by faith

as articulated there for us in Luke 19.

We see those tears.

Lord, may the reality of those tears

be demonstrated in our presence

in this generation,

by You sweeping many into the Kingdom.

We pray this in Christ's name,

Amen.