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Color Of Fear part 6

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    ...ahead of you. You're developing a new consciousness.
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    You're just starting to see how we as people of colour feel,
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    getting to find out a little bit of our reality.
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    It's gonna be a long process to really really fully understand it.
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    [Roberto] Stretch out your arms
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    and take hold of the cloth that covers you
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    with both hands
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    the cure for the pain
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    is in the pain
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    good and bad are mixed
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    if you do not have both
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    you don't belong with us
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    I really worked to keep my expectations out comin' up here.
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    And one I couldn't keep out was, um, fear.
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    Because I represent, uh, the oppressor.
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    I am the oppressor.
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    But I really see my responsibility
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    and the Euro-American responsibility
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    to get together with our brothers, and talk.
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    Come clean on what we've done, and what we've participated in,
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    and what our ancestors have participated in.
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    Put a stop to it.
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    And one of the things that I really appreciate from all of you is tolerance
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    [voice cracking]
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    because we haven't given you much.
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    And it really felt good that uh I wasn't treated by you the way we have treated you.
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    And I thank you.
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    As I look around the room, I have a lot of beautiful memories of each one of you.
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    Particularly what sticks out at this moment for me
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    is Yutaka and I being belly to belly last night,
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    and talking, we sort of had a little world just within the two of us.
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    [Yutaka] I saw the genetic link that we had between each other that was just so amazing.
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    And as I was looking into him, you were talking about seeing me, but I was seeing you,
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    I was seeing a version of myself.
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    [Roberto] And I could see myself inside him.
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    That was a younger me standing in front of me.
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    [Loren] I know when I got here Friday,
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    I found myself, would people would arrive, I was sizing them up,
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    y'know, I was already trying to decide who was my friend, who was my enemy.
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    I found out that you can really express your opinions with people who are different than you,
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    without it leading to any kind of violence.
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    Over this weekend, it was really important for me to see people express their anger against racism,
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    because it's something that is very hard for me to do.
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    I was raised, acculturated, to not express that kind of anger when I'm mistreated,
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    and to take it silently.
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    And I have always wanted to express it because when I keep it inside, I feel that it's killing me,
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    as it has, I believe, killed my father.
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    Hearing something, and being the nice Japanese man, and just sort of bowing my head,
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    and not wanting to create any waves or not wanting to uh, disturb people,
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    or not wanting to offend people,
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    and, as I get older I'm not longer willing to do that anymore,
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    it's just not acceptable.
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    Y'know, a lot of these guys I may never see again,
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    but um, they got a good, they got a special place inside here, everybody.
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    And if they ever need an ally, they got one.
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    If somebody makes a remark about a Latino,
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    Roberto's face will be there.
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    Hughs face will be there.
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    And I won't be able to put up with it.
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    If I were facing a white audience, and they were asking me what I wanted from them,
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    I would say justice.
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    Because I cannot love you until you give me justice.
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    First.
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    I think I will see change in individuals,
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    I saw that here with the white men, that there was change for them.
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    I don't think I'm gonna see much change on a societal level or institutional level in my lifetime.
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    And that makes me very sad to think that.
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    What I can hold onto are the individuals that I know are changing.
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    And I know David will go away and he will educate his daughters.
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    I know he'll do that, and the people around him.
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    And that's what I have to hold onto.
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    I really am appreciative that I was here [voice cracking] um...
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    You will have an impact on me
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    throughout the remainder of my life.
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    And I will be your ally
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    and do all I can
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    to stop racism wherever I encounter it.
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    He'll fight, and he'll struggle, and he'll intervene on my behalf, um,
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    and I think that it'll wear off.
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    That his ability to struggle against racism will wear off
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    unless he has other white men with him.
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    Unless he has other white people with him
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    sayin' "keep going".
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    If David or people like David are going to depend on people of colour
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    to keep him goin' against racism, it won't change.
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    Racism won't change.
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    I think we have a beautiful world that is in great danger,
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    I know we have a beautiful world,
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    and I know that it's in great danger.
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    And I can't think of aything I'd rather do with my life
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    than to see this great, um, project of human life and of life in general on this planet,
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    persist and go on and I'd like to leave a healthy and beautiful world for my son and any generations that come after him.
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    Well, if I could talk to my father,
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    I'd say, "be brave, be proud, and do what you believe is right, and study,
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    always study, never stop studying."
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    I think what one of the first thoughts for me
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    was that I think I really wanted something for my father to see,
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    because he thought that white people wouldn't listen,
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    or come to see or get really angry if they saw a film on racism.
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    Besides that, I think he also
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    has indoctrinated me for years that people of colour and whites can't get along,
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    there's no way that's going to happen on this earth,
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    it's gonna keep going on and on and on.
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    David, I liked it perfectly when you said, you know, about you like the anger,
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    I mean, it was needed, and it was honest, and it was appropriate, the word you used,
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    but that we do need to get that anger out,
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    because underneath all that anger is all that hurt
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    that has never been allowed to come out for us,
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    and then on the other end
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    is I think what we all saw with David and Gordon also saw was the end of it, was the possibility
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    to get along,
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    if we could just be heard and acknowledged.
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    I remember on Saturday evening I just broke down and I cried on Hughs shoulder,
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    because I told him that I think that I could rest now after this film.
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    That I could say that I left something for my son.
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    And I know that he's gonna go out into the world,
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    to see what I had to see,
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    I wanted to know, to let him know that I, that I was with him in some way,
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    but I wanted the world to be different for him.
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    I wanted him to know that he wasn't crazy.
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    And then I shared with you, David,
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    that I wanted my child to meet your children someday,
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    on an equal basis.
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    And I want that.
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    I will remember every one of you for the rest of my life.
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    I mean, I, some of you I've known,
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    but never quite in this way,
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    and for the rest of your lives, you too have this film
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    for your children and your partners.
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    And Victor, you did your people proud.
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    Each of you did that.
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    Your fathers, your grandfathers, grandmothers.
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    You did it for them,
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    and for that, from the deepest part of my heart, I want to thank each of you.
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    [all singing] may the work that I done speak for me
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    may the work that I done speak for me
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    and if I fall short of my goal
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    someone else come take a hold
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    may the work that I done speak for me.
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    may the truth that I told speak for me
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    may the work that I done speak for me
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    and if I fall short of my goal,
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    someone else come take a hold
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    may the work that I done speak for me.
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    may the truth that I told speak for me
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    may the truth that I told speak for me
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    and if I fall short of my goal,
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    someone else come take a hold
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    may the truth that I told speak for me
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    may the love that I shared speak for me...
Title:
Color Of Fear part 6
Video Language:
English
Duration:
14:27
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