WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:06.523 Remember? And it just got awkward, ok. 00:00:18.501 --> 00:00:26.412 You're worthless. I'm not worthless! 00:00:26.727 --> 00:00:33.791 I got up this morning. I went to work. I saw my clients - they count on me. I'm not worthless, I'm helping people. 00:00:34.794 --> 00:00:43.430 What I did right there, that's what I ask a lot of you to do. And that's talking back to that eating disorder voice. That tells us those horrible things. 00:00:43.430 --> 00:00:47.852 So I'm gonna do a couple more. I'm gonna kinda walk you through how to do it. 00:00:47.866 --> 00:00:55.280 Because I know a lot of you have trouble and many of you have asked me to do a video where I just yell back to your eating disorder so you can put it on when you're having a hard time. 00:00:55.506 --> 00:01:01.215 So I'm just gonna kinda ramble off some things that I think fight back against the voices that I know it tells- 00:01:01.215 --> 00:01:05.261 the little snippets of things it tells us all day, ok? 00:01:10.785 --> 00:01:15.490 I'm not fat! I'm working on myself. I'm a person. 00:01:15.869 --> 00:01:21.533 I am so much more than the numbers on a scale. I'm so much more than how, what number's on my clothes. 00:01:21.622 --> 00:01:23.749 I'm so much more than that. 00:01:23.958 --> 00:01:28.910 There's so much to me that you can't even understand, because all you focus on is a number on the scale. 00:01:29.408 --> 00:01:33.090 And how many times I've done the behaviors you keep telling me to do. 00:01:33.864 --> 00:01:38.593 I work hard. I'm not lazy! 00:01:38.594 --> 00:01:41.701 I get up. I talk to people. I see my therapist. 00:01:42.017 --> 00:01:47.851 I get out of the house, right? I get online, I check Kati's videos and when she gives me advice I do it. 00:01:48.029 --> 00:01:50.924 I don't know about you but I wouldn't call that lazy at all. 00:01:52.582 --> 00:01:56.481 I'm not stupid! I'm really freakin' smart. 00:01:56.488 --> 00:01:59.186 I go to school. I get my school work done. 00:01:59.207 --> 00:02:01.115 A lot of times I get A's on things. 00:02:01.115 --> 00:02:05.666 So I wouldn't really think that anybody would actually consider that stupid. Right? 00:02:05.694 --> 00:02:07.769 I don't think so. I go to college. 00:02:07.918 --> 00:02:10.428 Right? I go to class. I got in to college. 00:02:11.186 --> 00:02:13.589 That's not stupid. You're stupid. 00:02:13.975 --> 00:02:16.790 You should shut up. Because you're really annoying me. 00:02:17.970 --> 00:02:20.691 I'm trying to think of other good ones. 00:02:22.859 --> 00:02:25.001 That person's not talking about me. 00:02:25.021 --> 00:02:26.515 They have a lot of other things going on. 00:02:26.515 --> 00:02:30.251 It's not all about you and me and people aren't watching me. 00:02:30.331 --> 00:02:33.010 I'm doing my thing, I'm focusing on myself. 00:02:33.041 --> 00:02:36.537 So stop drawing attention to other people, they're not paying attention to me. 00:02:36.770 --> 00:02:38.814 I am paying attention to me. 00:02:38.814 --> 00:02:41.573 I'm recovering. I'm eating lunch right now. 00:02:41.709 --> 00:02:43.417 So you need to shut the hell up. 00:02:44.487 --> 00:02:48.636 Now those are just a couple things, and I'll keep doing these. It's kinda fun. 00:02:48.636 --> 00:02:52.729 I feel kinda feisty, like, I don't know. It's exciting. (giggle) 00:02:52.731 --> 00:02:54.889 But hopefully that's kind of helpful. 00:02:54.982 --> 00:02:56.816 And these are things that we have to kinda practice. 00:02:56.985 --> 00:03:00.460 It's - We're learning to get our voice back. 00:03:00.551 --> 00:03:02.865 And a lot of times our eating disorder just rips it out. 00:03:02.932 --> 00:03:04.989 I doesn't want to hear it. It just- 00:03:05.007 --> 00:03:11.842 We are so used to stuffing how we feel, worries, normal feelings, things that come up. 00:03:11.880 --> 00:03:15.114 And other people cry, they feel mad, they feel sad. 00:03:15.174 --> 00:03:19.640 We feel like we're not allowed to. Right? So we just stuff this down. 00:03:19.866 --> 00:03:22.178 And we let our eating disorder talk for us. 00:03:22.340 --> 00:03:24.552 And you know what? It's time to take it back. 00:03:24.732 --> 00:03:27.452 We don't have to listen. We don't have to put up with its crap. 00:03:27.465 --> 00:03:31.966 We don't have to have that voice just, all day. Talking negative 00:03:32.458 --> 00:03:37.464 So we're gonna learn to talk back. And if you haven't checked out my, um, workbook it's on my website. 00:03:37.695 --> 00:03:40.274 There's a little tab. A free workbook. You can download it. 00:03:40.523 --> 00:03:44.136 And the first task is practicing this. This very thing I was just doing. 00:03:44.367 --> 00:03:50.067 And I know that for many of you, you will fill up the eating disorder side of the page really quickly but talking back will be hard. 00:03:50.299 --> 00:03:52.791 But just replay this video. Take some time. 00:03:53.071 --> 00:03:55.642 I want you to say these things out loud with me. 00:03:55.679 --> 00:03:57.282 I'm not stupid. 00:03:57.877 --> 00:04:00.393 I work hard, I got into college, I go to school. 00:04:00.500 --> 00:04:02.761 I got good grades. Whatever it is. 00:04:03.069 --> 00:04:04.342 Did you say it out loud? 00:04:04.501 --> 00:04:05.999 Say it out loud! 00:04:06.390 --> 00:04:08.390 We have to say things out loud sometimes. 00:04:08.549 --> 00:04:13.032 I mean if you're sitting at a crowded coffee shop it's probably not the right time but take it home and say it out loud then. 00:04:13.338 --> 00:04:15.974 Ok? Because we have to get our voice back. 00:04:16.089 --> 00:04:19.312 So don't just say it in your head. Don't just type it in your computer. 00:04:19.604 --> 00:04:22.378 I want you to say it out loud and I want you to practice. 00:04:22.515 --> 00:04:24.525 So let's go back to the beginning of this video. 00:04:24.525 --> 00:04:29.627 I want you to go through it and after I've said it back to the eating disorder voice I want you to say it again. Ok? 00:04:29.723 --> 00:04:33.321 And like I said, I'll keep putting these out because I know it's hard. 00:04:33.597 --> 00:04:35.219 And we need that little boost. 00:04:35.513 --> 00:04:38.240 Because our eating disorder needs to know that we're a force to be reckoned with. 00:04:38.612 --> 00:04:40.826 And we're not gonna be quiet anymore. Ok? 00:04:41.059 --> 00:04:48.340 So let's regain our voice, let's say it out loud, and let's fight back.