0:00:00.000,0:00:06.523 Remember? And it just got awkward, ok. 0:00:18.501,0:00:26.412 You're worthless. I'm not worthless! 0:00:26.727,0:00:33.791 I got up this morning. I went to work. I saw my clients - they count on me. I'm not worthless, I'm helping people. 0:00:34.794,0:00:43.430 What I did right there, that's what I ask a lot of you to do. And that's talking back to that eating disorder voice. That tells us those horrible things. 0:00:43.430,0:00:47.852 So I'm gonna do a couple more. I'm gonna kinda walk you through how to do it. 0:00:47.866,0:00:55.280 Because I know a lot of you have trouble and many of you have asked me to do a video where I just yell back to your eating disorder so you can put it on when you're having a hard time. 0:00:55.506,0:01:01.215 So I'm just gonna kinda ramble off some things that I think fight back against the voices that I know it tells- 0:01:01.215,0:01:05.261 the little snippets of things it tells us all day, ok? 0:01:10.785,0:01:15.490 I'm not fat! I'm working on myself. I'm a person. 0:01:15.869,0:01:21.533 I am so much more than the numbers on a scale. I'm so much more than how, what number's on my clothes. 0:01:21.622,0:01:23.749 I'm so much more than that. 0:01:23.958,0:01:28.910 There's so much to me that you can't even understand, because all you focus on is a number on the scale. 0:01:29.408,0:01:33.090 And how many times I've done the behaviors you keep telling me to do. 0:01:33.864,0:01:38.593 I work hard. I'm not lazy! 0:01:38.594,0:01:41.701 I get up. I talk to people. I see my therapist. 0:01:42.017,0:01:47.851 I get out of the house, right? I get online, I check Kati's videos and when she gives me advice I do it. 0:01:48.029,0:01:50.924 I don't know about you but I wouldn't call that lazy at all. 0:01:52.582,0:01:56.481 I'm not stupid! I'm really freakin' smart. 0:01:56.488,0:01:59.186 I go to school. I get my school work done. 0:01:59.207,0:02:01.115 A lot of times I get A's on things. 0:02:01.115,0:02:05.666 So I wouldn't really think that anybody would actually consider that stupid. Right? 0:02:05.694,0:02:07.769 I don't think so. I go to college. 0:02:07.918,0:02:10.428 Right? I go to class. I got in to college. 0:02:11.186,0:02:13.589 That's not stupid. You're stupid. 0:02:13.975,0:02:16.790 You should shut up. Because you're really annoying me. 0:02:17.970,0:02:20.691 I'm trying to think of other good ones. 0:02:22.859,0:02:25.001 That person's not talking about me. 0:02:25.021,0:02:26.515 They have a lot of other things going on. 0:02:26.515,0:02:30.251 It's not all about you and me and people aren't watching me. 0:02:30.331,0:02:33.010 I'm doing my thing, I'm focusing on myself. 0:02:33.041,0:02:36.537 So stop drawing attention to other people, they're not paying attention to me. 0:02:36.770,0:02:38.814 I am paying attention to me. 0:02:38.814,0:02:41.573 I'm recovering. I'm eating lunch right now. 0:02:41.709,0:02:43.417 So you need to shut the hell up. 0:02:44.487,0:02:48.636 Now those are just a couple things, and I'll keep doing these. It's kinda fun. 0:02:48.636,0:02:52.729 I feel kinda feisty, like, I don't know. It's exciting. (giggle) 0:02:52.731,0:02:54.889 But hopefully that's kind of helpful. 0:02:54.982,0:02:56.816 And these are things that we have to kinda practice. 0:02:56.985,0:03:00.460 It's - We're learning to get our voice back. 0:03:00.551,0:03:02.865 And a lot of times our eating disorder just rips it out. 0:03:02.932,0:03:04.989 I doesn't want to hear it. It just- 0:03:05.007,0:03:11.842 We are so used to stuffing how we feel, worries, normal feelings, things that come up. 0:03:11.880,0:03:15.114 And other people cry, they feel mad, they feel sad. 0:03:15.174,0:03:19.640 We feel like we're not allowed to. Right? So we just stuff this down. 0:03:19.866,0:03:22.178 And we let our eating disorder talk for us. 0:03:22.340,0:03:24.552 And you know what? It's time to take it back. 0:03:24.732,0:03:27.452 We don't have to listen. We don't have to put up with its crap. 0:03:27.465,0:03:31.966 We don't have to have that voice just, all day. Talking negative 0:03:32.458,0:03:37.464 So we're gonna learn to talk back. And if you haven't checked out my, um, workbook it's on my website. 0:03:37.695,0:03:40.274 There's a little tab. A free workbook. You can download it. 0:03:40.523,0:03:44.136 And the first task is practicing this. This very thing I was just doing. 0:03:44.367,0:03:50.067 And I know that for many of you, you will fill up the eating disorder side of the page really quickly but talking back will be hard. 0:03:50.299,0:03:52.791 But just replay this video. Take some time. 0:03:53.071,0:03:55.642 I want you to say these things out loud with me. 0:03:55.679,0:03:57.282 I'm not stupid. 0:03:57.877,0:04:00.393 I work hard, I got into college, I go to school. 0:04:00.500,0:04:02.761 I got good grades. Whatever it is. 0:04:03.069,0:04:04.342 Did you say it out loud? 0:04:04.501,0:04:05.999 Say it out loud! 0:04:06.390,0:04:08.390 We have to say things out loud sometimes. 0:04:08.549,0:04:13.032 I mean if you're sitting at a crowded coffee shop it's probably not the right time but take it home and say it out loud then. 0:04:13.338,0:04:15.974 Ok? Because we have to get our voice back. 0:04:16.089,0:04:19.312 So don't just say it in your head. Don't just type it in your computer. 0:04:19.604,0:04:22.378 I want you to say it out loud and I want you to practice. 0:04:22.515,0:04:24.525 So let's go back to the beginning of this video. 0:04:24.525,0:04:29.627 I want you to go through it and after I've said it back to the eating disorder voice I want you to say it again. Ok? 0:04:29.723,0:04:33.321 And like I said, I'll keep putting these out because I know it's hard. 0:04:33.597,0:04:35.219 And we need that little boost. 0:04:35.513,0:04:38.240 Because our eating disorder needs to know that we're a force to be reckoned with. 0:04:38.612,0:04:40.826 And we're not gonna be quiet anymore. Ok? 0:04:41.059,0:04:48.340 So let's regain our voice, let's say it out loud, and let's fight back.