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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.79,0:00:03.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From early spring down to the autumn of the year,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.52,0:00:05.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A very sedate and contemplative man
Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.44,0:00:07.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had been accustomed to call upon me
Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.57,0:00:10.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in respect to his religious thoughts and anxieties.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:10.91,0:00:14.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At first, he seemed to have thoughts only,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.16,0:00:17.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but they ripened by degrees into anxieties.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.47,0:00:20.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He began by asking about theories or doctrines
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.35,0:00:22.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,apparently without any idea of
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.71,0:00:25.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making an application of the truth to himself.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.71,0:00:29.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He had points of difficulty which he wished to have explained.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:29.30,0:00:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then he found other points,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.20,0:00:33.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and these gradually changed in character
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.55,0:00:38.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from abstract questions to those of the application of the truth.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.00,0:00:42.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From the first, I tried to lead him on to the personal application.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.39,0:00:44.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But months passed away before
Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.14,0:00:46.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he appeared to have much sense of his sin
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.39,0:00:49.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or much anxiety about himself.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:49.51,0:00:51.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But he came to this, and after quite
Dialogue: 0,0:00:51.69,0:00:54.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a struggle of mind as it appeared to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.12,0:00:57.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to lead himself to believe in salvation by personal merit,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.77,0:01:00.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he gave that up. He said to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.41,0:01:03.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I had become convinced that sinners are saved
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.41,0:01:05.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not by their own goodness,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.46,0:01:08.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but because they are pardoned on account of Jesus Christ.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.96,0:01:12.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Faith in Him is the only way for them."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.50,0:01:15.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After this, I conversed with him several times
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.26,0:01:18.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when he appeared to me to be not far from the Kingdom of God.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.68,0:01:21.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But, I was as often disappointed,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.04,0:01:23.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for he would come back to me again
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.49,0:01:26.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in as much trouble and unbelief as before.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.65,0:01:30.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Again and again, I had answered all his inquiries,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.44,0:01:32.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,teaching him out of the Scriptures,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.76,0:01:35.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had brought up to his mind all the doctrines of truth,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.92,0:01:38.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the divine promises and directions,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.14,0:01:41.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sin and salvation, but all in vain.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.91,0:01:43.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He had become very solemn
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.86,0:01:47.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and seemed to be entirely candid and really in earnest.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.78,0:01:50.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,His Bible had become his constant study.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.55,0:01:52.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He was a man of prayer.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.50,0:01:57.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He attended upon all our religious services with manifest interest.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.10,0:02:01.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He appeared to have a deep sense of his sin and danger,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.25,0:02:04.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but he had no hope in Christ.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.20,0:02:08.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I finally said to him one evening, "I do not know, my dear sir,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.48,0:02:10.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what more can be said to you.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:10.60,0:02:12.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have told you all that I know.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.99,0:02:14.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Your state as a sinner lost,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.83,0:02:17.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exposed to the righteous penalty of God's law,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.83,0:02:20.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and having a heart alienated from God,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.12,0:02:23.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the free offer of redemption by Christ,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.12,0:02:25.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and your instant duty to repent of sin
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.68,0:02:28.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and give up the world and give God your heart,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.68,0:02:29.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the source of your help
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.91,0:02:32.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through the power of the Holy Spirit assured to you,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.91,0:02:36.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if you will receive Christ, all these things have become
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.56,0:02:39.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as familiar to you as household words.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.56,0:02:41.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What more can I say?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.64,0:02:44.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know not what more there is to be said.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.64,0:02:50.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I cannot read your heart. God can. And you can by His aid.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.41,0:02:54.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Some things you have said almost made me think you a Christian,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.70,0:02:57.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and others again have destroyed that hope.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.66,0:03:00.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I now put it to your own heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.23,0:03:04.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you are not a Christian, what hinders you?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.46,0:03:09.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He thought a moment. Said he, "I can't feel."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.43,0:03:12.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Why didn't you tell me this before?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.12,0:03:14.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I never thought of it before, sir."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.75,0:03:17.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How do you know this hinders you?"\N
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.84,0:03:20.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I can think of nothing else, but I am sure
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.75,0:03:23.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I shall never be converted to God
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.34,0:03:25.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I have no more feeling than I have now.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.72,0:03:28.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But that is my own fault.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.72,0:03:30.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know you cannot help me."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.100,0:03:35.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"No, sir, I cannot. Nor can you help yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.23,0:03:38.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Your heart will not feel at your bidding."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.82,0:03:42.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What then can I do?" said he with much anxiety.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.48,0:03:47.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Come to Christ now. Trust Him. Give up your darling world.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.01,0:03:51.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Repent, so iniquity shall not be your ruin."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.90,0:03:55.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He seemed perplexed, annoyed, vexed.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.15,0:03:57.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And with an accent of impatience,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.08,0:04:00.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such as I had never witnessed in him before, he replied, \N
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.57,0:04:02.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"That is impossible. I want the feeling
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.86,0:04:06.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to bring me to that, and I can't feel."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.60,0:04:10.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Hear me, sir," said I, "and heed well what I say.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.23,0:04:12.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have several points:
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.23,0:04:17.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One, the Bible never tells you that you must feel,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.01,0:04:20.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but that you must repent and believe.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.26,0:04:23.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two, your complaint that you can't feel
Dialogue: 0,0:04:23.94,0:04:26.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is just an excuse by which your wicked heart
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.94,0:04:31.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,would justify you for not coming to Christ now.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.88,0:04:35.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Three, this complaint that you can't feel
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.89,0:04:38.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is the complaint of a self-righteous spirit."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.89,0:04:41.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How is it?" said he.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.13,0:04:45.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Because you look to the desired feeling to commend you to God,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.41,0:04:50.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or to make you fit to come, or to enable you to come."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.67,0:04:53.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Yes, to enable me," said he.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.28,0:04:56.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Well, that is self-righteousness in the shape of
Dialogue: 0,0:04:56.76,0:05:00.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,self-justification for not coming.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:00.95,0:05:03.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or in the shape of self-reliance if you attempt to come.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.95,0:05:08.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That is all legalism and not the acceptance of gracious Christianity.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.76,0:05:12.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You cannot be saved by the Law.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.11,0:05:17.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Four, your complaint is the language of the most profound ignorance.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.30,0:05:20.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To feel would do you no good.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.20,0:05:24.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Devils feel. Lost spirits feel.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:24.32,0:05:27.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Five, your complaint that you can't feel
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.90,0:05:30.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tends to lead you to a false religion.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.90,0:05:34.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A religion of mere self-righteous feeling.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.31,0:05:36.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Religion is duty.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.36,0:05:40.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"But sir," said he, "there is feeling in religion."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.17,0:05:45.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"But sir," said I, "there is duty in religion, and which shall come first?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.86,0:05:47.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You ought to feel.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.99,0:05:49.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You ought to love God
Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.67,0:05:52.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and grieve that you are such a senseless sinner."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:52.83,0:05:55.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I know I am a sinner, but I can't feel
Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.21,0:05:59.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,any confidence to turn to God, to draw me to Him."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.60,0:06:02.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You are like the prodigal in the 15th of Luke
Dialogue: 0,0:06:02.37,0:06:05.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when he thought of saying to his father,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.02,0:06:07.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'make me as one of the hired servants.'"
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.72,0:06:11.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Poor fool, to say that to his father,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.11,0:06:14.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,why the very idea is a libel on his father's heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.63,0:06:18.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But he didn't think so. Poor fool, he knew no better.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.84,0:06:21.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you are a greater fool than he.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.84,0:06:24.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He went home.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.03,0:06:27.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And where he met his father, he found his heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.03,0:06:30.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He could feel when he found his father's arms around him
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.61,0:06:33.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and felt the strong beatings of his father's heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.91,0:06:36.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do as he did. Go home.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.36,0:06:40.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you will feel, if you've never felt before.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.24,0:06:44.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You will starve where you are. Your husks will not save you."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.82,0:06:49.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As I was uttering this, he hung his head, cast his eyes upon the floor
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.39,0:06:51.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and stood like a statue of stone.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:51.90,0:06:53.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I let him think.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.96,0:06:58.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There he stood for some minutes. Then, turning suddenly to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.53,0:07:01.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reaching to me his hand, he said,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.10,0:07:04.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm very much obliged to you. Good night."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.56,0:07:06.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I let him go.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.61,0:07:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,About a month afterwards, I met him riding alone in his wagon,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.20,0:07:12.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and he insisted upon my taking a seat with him,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.59,0:07:15.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for he had something to say to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.59,0:07:18.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he would drive wherever I wanted to go.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.61,0:07:22.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was no sooner seated in the wagon than he said to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.51,0:07:26.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"the human heart is the greatest mystery in the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.25,0:07:31.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inexplicable, contradictory to itself. It is absurd.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.67,0:07:35.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The sinner says, as I said to you that last night,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.14,0:07:38.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'I can't feel' as an excuse
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.14,0:07:40.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for holding on to the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.10,0:07:43.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I found as soon as I was willing to 'go home'
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.10,0:07:47.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as you called it, the road was plain enough."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.13,0:07:50.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Were you hindered long with that want of feeling?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.29,0:07:52.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"No. I never thought of it till that night.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.91,0:07:55.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It came upon me like a flash.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.91,0:07:59.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then just as I was thinking it was a good reason in my favor,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.98,0:08:03.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you dashed it all into shivers."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.69,0:08:05.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"And can you feel now?"
Dialogue: 0,0:08:05.61,0:08:08.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Oh, yes. I have no trouble about that.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.57,0:08:11.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I find that if a poor creature will turn to God,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.57,0:08:17.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the name of Jesus, he will learn to feel as he never felt before."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.100,0:08:20.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sinners not willing to give up the world
Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.77,0:08:24.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and wanting an excuse for their irreligion exclaim,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.84,0:08:27.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I can't feel."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:27.39,0:08:33.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This chapter is from "A Pastor's Sketches: Conversations with Anxious Souls Concerning the Way of Salvation."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.85,0:08:37.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by Ichabod Spencer, originally published in the mid-19th century.