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[ 4/4 time electronic beats and synth... ]
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I thought you were my friend,
you're my demon and addiction
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I'm makin' amends,
cause I'm free from your affliction.
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Now I'm walkin' out of the blue, and into the light,
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from cold, careless, lost, death,
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to warm, careful, found, and rest;
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different, rejected, stereotyped by my own life,
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controlled by rage,
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curious confused betrayed despised and hate
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hate and despise aren't able to see
through another's eyes
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now I'm shining in the skies,
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I tell you no lies,
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I'm free to walk through any door,
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learn how to live without our rage,
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learn to adapt and break the chains.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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Comin' from a broken home
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runnin' out alone
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in a world so cold
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growin' old
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I'm only in my teens
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but to live with the feelings
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___ and ____
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losin' all my dreams...
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nobody knows where I come from.
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only.... to run from...
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on the blocks unlocked don't wanna get caught
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freedom? I didn't have a lot.
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How they diss me, tell me that I'm ugly,
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hurt me verbally, abuse me physically,
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I've come to realize
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that everything they said...
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I know inside that I'm the grand prize.
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_______
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the pain and the voices of what they never shared
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I am equal to a man, no control, I am free
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I can get through this,
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I am strong, I am me.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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What was his excuse for the sexual abuse?
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She was such a little girl, comin' into his world...
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then it got worse, maybe a curse,
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she grew up.
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What came first was the shame,
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drugs came, crack cocaine,
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12 years old on the street,
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havin' nothin' to eat, gettin' beat..
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Lookin' for a place to sleep.
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Now she's in jail,
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she ain't gettin' no bail.
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She's lookin' for a new tale.
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I gotta change, it's time to engage.
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Less____I'm doin' this for you,
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P.S. I love you.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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Behind every anger, there is a pain,
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behind every pain there's a shame,
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but in who's to blame I've got nothin' to gain,
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I'ma stop this rain and ignite my flame.
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Girl, you're worthy of everything good,
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if you're thinking of leaving, you probably should.
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It's not ____
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use your voice, break the silence!
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Respect yourself, don't let it ruin you.
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Take it from me, cuz I've been through it too.
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Always forgive but never forget.
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Live your life with no regrets.
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[ Captions by The Radical Access Mapping Project,
on Un-ceded Coast Salish Territories, 2013 ]