[Script Info] Title: [Events] Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.28,0:00:07.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Psalm 105:5 says, Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.59,0:00:10.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Remember His wonders which He has done." Dialogue: 0,0:00:10.43,0:00:14.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So it is a good thing for us to remember Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.45,0:00:17.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to think about what God has done Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.03,0:00:18.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in our life. Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.99,0:00:21.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I grew up in a home Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.64,0:00:24.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where my family took me to church Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.42,0:00:26.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,basically every time the doors were open. Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.97,0:00:30.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So the reality of God was in my life Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.30,0:00:32.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from infancy upward. Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.16,0:00:34.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was never really a time in my life Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.24,0:00:37.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where my parents didn't \Nmake me go to church. Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.23,0:00:38.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Through that time, Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.78,0:00:42.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there was conviction of sin. Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.39,0:00:44.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There were times especially when Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.08,0:00:46.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,revivalists would come through, Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.20,0:00:48.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I would have an emotional experience. Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.32,0:00:50.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I would realize the reality of hell. Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.33,0:00:54.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Realize where I was at. Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.15,0:00:55.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I would walk an aisle, Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.42,0:00:56.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pray a prayer, Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.100,0:00:58.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and make a decision Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.90,0:01:01.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that never seemed to really last. Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.31,0:01:03.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People make jokes about this, Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.23,0:01:05.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I actually believe that at my house Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.86,0:01:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in Alabama, there are at least Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.50,0:01:10.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,two Bibles where I have, Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.86,0:01:12.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I, Mason Vann, was saved..." Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.92,0:01:14.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the date. Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.54,0:01:16.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And signed it, so I wouldn't doubt it. Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.89,0:01:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that's a reality. Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.18,0:01:20.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's not just a joke that people make. Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.83,0:01:22.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have at least a couple of those. Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.55,0:01:24.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that's kind of the realm Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.51,0:01:25.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in which I grew up. Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.70,0:01:28.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I can remember the final time Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.27,0:01:29.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in that period of my life Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.60,0:01:31.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I came under conviction. Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.88,0:01:33.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A revivalist had come through, Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.87,0:01:35.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and made a very emotional appeal, Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.60,0:01:37.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and yet God was dealing with me Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.26,0:01:39.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on a certain level. Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.75,0:01:43.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that thought came over me Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.75,0:01:45.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I am not right with God. Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.64,0:01:47.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I need to be right with God. Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.37,0:01:49.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that every \Nprofession that I'd made Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.31,0:01:50.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,up until now was not real Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.67,0:01:52.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I needed something that was real. Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.87,0:01:54.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I went forward once again. Dialogue: 0,0:01:54.73,0:01:56.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this time, I decided, Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.01,0:01:57.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this time is going to be real. Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.94,0:01:59.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am really going to make an effort Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.100,0:02:02.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this time to be a Christian. Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.40,0:02:05.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, I think I printed it again Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.30,0:02:07.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the back of my Bible Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.00,0:02:09.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was saved on this date. Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.69,0:02:12.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I started diligently trying Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.42,0:02:14.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to read my Bible. Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.03,0:02:15.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One of the times before that, Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.94,0:02:18.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had come under such \Nintense conviction of sin, Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.65,0:02:20.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I went downstairs in the basement Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.63,0:02:22.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and went into a corner Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.11,0:02:24.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I sobbed for hours. Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.28,0:02:25.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As a matter of fact, Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.37,0:02:26.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my father came down there Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.58,0:02:28.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and asked me \Nwhat was going on. Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.13,0:02:29.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that's kind of the reality Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.77,0:02:31.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the level of \Nconviction that I was under. Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.73,0:02:32.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But this time, Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.72,0:02:34.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it was going to be different. Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.22,0:02:36.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I set to reading the Bible Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.15,0:02:38.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to praying the best that I could. Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.33,0:02:41.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Every night I would light a candle, Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.40,0:02:42.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,turn off all my lights, Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.99,0:02:45.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and light a candle by my bed, Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.09,0:02:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so that I would read \Nmy Bible by candlelight, Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.81,0:02:50.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because that felt more spiritual. Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.47,0:02:51.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's a funny thing, Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.92,0:02:53.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it really helps us to realize Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.56,0:02:55.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what's going on with a lot of things Dialogue: 0,0:02:55.42,0:02:56.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like Catholicism, Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.55,0:02:59.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and people that use lighting Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.46,0:03:02.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and soft music and things like that. Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.13,0:03:03.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My life was propped up on Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.58,0:03:06.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,things like reading \Nmy Bible by candlelight. Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.34,0:03:09.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It gave me the feeling that this was real. Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.99,0:03:11.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But as soon as the candle went out, Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.66,0:03:13.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there went my spiritual life also. Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.39,0:03:15.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, this began to fade. Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.23,0:03:17.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this is about 12 or 13, Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.81,0:03:20.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was very much into baseball, Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.08,0:03:22.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sports and athletics and things like that. Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.80,0:03:25.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My father is actually in the Hall of Fame Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.19,0:03:27.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in a college in Alabama. Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.53,0:03:29.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So he was really \Npushing sports and things. Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.82,0:03:32.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I was heavily involved in these things, Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.82,0:03:34.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and began to run around in these circles Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.81,0:03:37.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with people that were into sports. Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.31,0:03:41.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And we as a crowd began to move away from Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.64,0:03:43.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all that we had grown up under. Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.91,0:03:45.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And we began to get into things Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.47,0:03:47.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that we knew that we should not be doing. Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.92,0:03:50.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, I kind of, in my mind, Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.22,0:03:52.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,walked away from the whole church scene. Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.38,0:03:54.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even though I was still going to church, Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.30,0:03:55.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and things like that, Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.64,0:03:57.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I knew that I wasn't real. Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.86,0:03:59.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I kept going to church Dialogue: 0,0:03:59.75,0:04:02.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I was trying to \Nease my conscience. Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.07,0:04:05.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, about 14 and a half, Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.56,0:04:07.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this conviction came back. Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.88,0:04:09.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it came back this time Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.14,0:04:11.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with such reality, Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.24,0:04:13.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such an unshakeable Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.57,0:04:15.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,hold on my life, Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.27,0:04:16.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I could not do anything Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.41,0:04:17.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to get away from it. Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.63,0:04:19.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,During that time, Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.01,0:04:20.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,most people's perception of me Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.60,0:04:22.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was that I was a tough guy. Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.61,0:04:24.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was a guy who had very little emotion. Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.96,0:04:26.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had a very quick temper. Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.78,0:04:28.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So most people thought of me, Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.20,0:04:31.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,probably, as a person who would never Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.41,0:04:34.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,show any kind of sorrow or remorse Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.22,0:04:35.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or anything like that. Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.53,0:04:36.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, little did they know, Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.92,0:04:39.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that every night when \NI came home from their parties, Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.47,0:04:41.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I came home from \Nhanging out with them, Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.57,0:04:43.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I would cry my eyes out Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.04,0:04:45.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for about one to two hours each night, Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.59,0:04:47.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,under the reality that Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.07,0:04:49.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am not right with God. Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.69,0:04:51.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My profession of faith is worthless. Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.90,0:04:53.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Those Bibles with the date in them Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.68,0:04:54.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are worthless. Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.78,0:04:57.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Despite everything else around me, Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.01,0:04:59.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am not right with Christ. Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.17,0:05:00.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And if I go tonight, Dialogue: 0,0:05:00.63,0:05:03.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will die under the wrath of God. Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.02,0:05:05.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, every night it was \Nbasically the same routine. Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.62,0:05:06.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would cry myself to sleep. Dialogue: 0,0:05:06.99,0:05:08.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And right before \NI would go to sleep, Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.66,0:05:10.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would pray the \Nsinner's prayer again, Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.26,0:05:12.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because that's what I \Nwas taught growing up. Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.40,0:05:14.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's how you became a Christian. Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.12,0:05:15.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You prayed the sinner's prayer. Dialogue: 0,0:05:15.76,0:05:21.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so this continued for about two years Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.47,0:05:24.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was in this state of reality Dialogue: 0,0:05:24.64,0:05:27.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and such intense conviction. Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.55,0:05:29.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, my temper ended up Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.74,0:05:31.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,getting me in trouble. Dialogue: 0,0:05:31.61,0:05:35.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And without going into \Ntoo many gory details, Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.98,0:05:37.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I got into a fight with a guy Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.83,0:05:39.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from a neighboring city. Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.08,0:05:40.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All my friends were supposed Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.46,0:05:41.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to come to this fight, Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.64,0:05:44.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was clearly smaller than this guy, Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.48,0:05:48.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so the plan was that \NI basically start the fight Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.00,0:05:49.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then you guys come and help me. Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.93,0:05:53.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, that is not how the plan worked out. Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.30,0:05:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God was pursuing me. Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.10,0:05:57.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And God providentially, looking back now, Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.88,0:05:59.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a Christian I can see, Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.53,0:06:01.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God was closing in on me Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.31,0:06:02.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at this point in my life. Dialogue: 0,0:06:02.82,0:06:04.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, needless to say, Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.55,0:06:05.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lose this fight. Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.85,0:06:07.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I am running for my life. Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.96,0:06:10.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Literally, I am running for my life. Dialogue: 0,0:06:10.34,0:06:11.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And for two weeks, Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.56,0:06:13.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm hiding out from everyone. Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.54,0:06:17.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And all these people are looking for me. Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.51,0:06:19.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, providentially, the youth group Dialogue: 0,0:06:19.88,0:06:21.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at the church I went to Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.36,0:06:23.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was going to South Carolina. Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.91,0:06:26.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The year before, I had went with my friend Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.54,0:06:27.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to South Carolina. Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.98,0:06:29.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We met some people up there. Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.42,0:06:33.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I thought, I have to get out of town. Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.11,0:06:34.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So what I'll do, Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.00,0:06:36.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll catch the bus up there. Dialogue: 0,0:06:36.17,0:06:38.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my friend and I will \Nhang out with these people, Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.16,0:06:39.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when the youth \Ngroup comes back, Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.98,0:06:42.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we'll catch a ride on the way back. Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.05,0:06:43.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that was the plan. Dialogue: 0,0:06:43.77,0:06:45.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you should have seen the shock Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.60,0:06:49.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on the youth group's face, when I, Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.12,0:06:51.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the pagan of the school, Dialogue: 0,0:06:51.05,0:06:53.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,show up on the church bus, Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.96,0:06:55.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,going to South Carolina. Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.75,0:06:59.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, these people were dumbfounded. Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.10,0:07:01.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A dear brother at the time, Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.21,0:07:03.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who had some discernment. Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.27,0:07:05.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He began to pray for me. Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.31,0:07:07.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He was the youth leader at that time. Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.28,0:07:09.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he began to pray for me. Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.40,0:07:10.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He knew that I was just Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.78,0:07:12.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in a world of mess. Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.90,0:07:14.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, we go up there. Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.31,0:07:16.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And throughout this time, Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.79,0:07:19.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and especially through those two weeks, Dialogue: 0,0:07:19.71,0:07:22.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had been able to, so much of my life, Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.91,0:07:24.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,drown out the voice of God. Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.82,0:07:28.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,See, I hated when I \Nhad to lay my head down Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.88,0:07:31.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on a pillow. Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.17,0:07:32.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because then the voice of God Dialogue: 0,0:07:32.72,0:07:33.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,would come rushing back. Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.98,0:07:35.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So if I wasn't listening to music, Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.62,0:07:36.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was at a party. Dialogue: 0,0:07:36.53,0:07:38.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If I wasn't at a party, \NI was talking to a friend. Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.49,0:07:40.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If I wasn't talking to a friend, Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.10,0:07:41.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was doing something. Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.35,0:07:43.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would do absolutely anything Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.57,0:07:45.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to avoid silence. Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.63,0:07:47.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because when silence came, Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.34,0:07:49.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the voice of God came back Dialogue: 0,0:07:49.04,0:07:51.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rushing into my life saying, Dialogue: 0,0:07:51.11,0:07:53.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You're not right with God." Dialogue: 0,0:07:53.13,0:07:55.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You know you need to be converted." Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.40,0:07:57.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, this whole thing with this fight, Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.69,0:07:59.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my support system for Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.32,0:08:00.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,drowning out the voice of God Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.96,0:08:02.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with my friends, Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.16,0:08:04.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all came crumbling down, Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.95,0:08:07.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and here I find myself on a trip Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.54,0:08:11.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to South Carolina. Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.16,0:08:13.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,During that time in South Carolina, Dialogue: 0,0:08:13.69,0:08:16.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't really have \Nany recollection that Dialogue: 0,0:08:16.42,0:08:18.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was making another decision Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.79,0:08:20.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was going to follow Christ. Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.72,0:08:22.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I did not go up there with the mindset Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.91,0:08:24.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I'm really in trouble Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.96,0:08:27.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I need to make another decision. Dialogue: 0,0:08:27.72,0:08:29.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had already seen enough at that point Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.95,0:08:32.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to know that it was \Ngoing to take more than Dialogue: 0,0:08:32.03,0:08:33.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,me just praying another prayer Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.92,0:08:36.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for something real to happen. Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.29,0:08:40.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, the first two \Ndays were pretty normal. Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.80,0:08:43.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't even really \Nremember much about them. Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.86,0:08:46.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,About the only thing that I remember Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.29,0:08:49.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is the very last night before we were Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.48,0:08:52.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to leave and go back the next day. Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.80,0:08:55.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It seemed to be a really emotional time. Dialogue: 0,0:08:55.72,0:08:57.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I can remember a little bit that day Dialogue: 0,0:08:57.78,0:08:59.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of thinking about some of these things Dialogue: 0,0:08:59.64,0:09:01.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about I'm not right with God, Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.14,0:09:02.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I need to be right with God, Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.86,0:09:05.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I feel absolutely powerless. Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.30,0:09:08.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so during that night, Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.33,0:09:10.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like I said, typical emotional time, Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.22,0:09:11.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everyone bowed their heads. Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.53,0:09:15.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, out of courtesy, I bowed my head. Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.52,0:09:16.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I do remember thinking Dialogue: 0,0:09:16.93,0:09:18.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I bowed my head, Dialogue: 0,0:09:18.37,0:09:21.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I need something real. Dialogue: 0,0:09:21.68,0:09:24.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can't explain what happened. Dialogue: 0,0:09:24.79,0:09:27.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But somewhere between the time Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.27,0:09:29.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of bowing my head Dialogue: 0,0:09:29.42,0:09:30.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when I looked up Dialogue: 0,0:09:30.60,0:09:32.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and opened my eyes again, Dialogue: 0,0:09:32.58,0:09:34.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the only thing that I could see Dialogue: 0,0:09:34.15,0:09:37.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was the glory of God \Nin the face of Christ. Dialogue: 0,0:09:37.45,0:09:39.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All of a sudden, Dialogue: 0,0:09:39.09,0:09:41.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the wilderness had become a pool. Dialogue: 0,0:09:41.91,0:09:45.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the love of God came Dialogue: 0,0:09:45.37,0:09:47.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rushing into my life. Dialogue: 0,0:09:47.28,0:09:48.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It overwhelmed me. Dialogue: 0,0:09:48.99,0:09:51.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I could not be helped. Dialogue: 0,0:09:51.42,0:09:53.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The youth leaders didn't know what to do. Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.73,0:09:56.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I was crying my eyes out. Dialogue: 0,0:09:56.08,0:09:59.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had such an overwhelming sense Dialogue: 0,0:09:59.33,0:10:00.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I'm free. Dialogue: 0,0:10:00.95,0:10:02.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am free. Dialogue: 0,0:10:02.04,0:10:02.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This whole thing. Dialogue: 0,0:10:02.94,0:10:04.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This whole burden of sin. Dialogue: 0,0:10:04.20,0:10:06.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two years of the wrath of God Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.34,0:10:08.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,closing down on me. Dialogue: 0,0:10:08.03,0:10:10.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All of my sins are gone. Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.74,0:10:13.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And Christ is no longer this Dialogue: 0,0:10:13.13,0:10:15.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,religious figure that's way back there Dialogue: 0,0:10:15.63,0:10:17.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,2,000 years ago Dialogue: 0,0:10:17.10,0:10:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,carrying lambs around \Non His shoulders. Dialogue: 0,0:10:19.00,0:10:19.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All of a sudden, Dialogue: 0,0:10:19.98,0:10:22.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He is the risen Son of God, Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.26,0:10:23.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I love Him. Dialogue: 0,0:10:23.55,0:10:24.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I want to follow Him. Dialogue: 0,0:10:24.78,0:10:26.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't ever want to sin again. Dialogue: 0,0:10:26.33,0:10:28.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't ever want to do anything Dialogue: 0,0:10:28.14,0:10:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that would offend \Nlove that is this precious. Dialogue: 0,0:10:31.20,0:10:34.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so that was that night. Dialogue: 0,0:10:34.58,0:10:38.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They wisely sent me back to my room Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.28,0:10:42.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and said you need to pray. Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.07,0:10:43.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I misunderstood that. Dialogue: 0,0:10:43.57,0:10:45.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I had grown \Nup under the mentality Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.66,0:10:48.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that you had to pray \Nand ask Christ into your heart. Dialogue: 0,0:10:48.45,0:10:51.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so I go back to my hotel room Dialogue: 0,0:10:51.00,0:10:53.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,once I can kind of compose myself some. Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.21,0:10:55.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I began to try to \Npray the sinner's prayer. Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.62,0:10:58.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I was much like the prodigal son Dialogue: 0,0:10:58.42,0:11:01.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when he returned to his father. Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.88,0:11:03.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, on the \Nway returning back, Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.77,0:11:05.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he had rehearsed this speech Dialogue: 0,0:11:05.48,0:11:07.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that he was going to give Dialogue: 0,0:11:07.08,0:11:09.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to his father when he got back. Dialogue: 0,0:11:09.22,0:11:11.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And basically what happens is, Dialogue: 0,0:11:11.18,0:11:12.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when the prodigal \Nactually shows up, Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.92,0:11:15.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the father cuts him off \Nhalfway through the speech Dialogue: 0,0:11:15.30,0:11:17.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and says I don't \Nwant to hear all that Dialogue: 0,0:11:17.17,0:11:18.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you can do for me. Dialogue: 0,0:11:18.38,0:11:20.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm glad you're home. Dialogue: 0,0:11:20.13,0:11:21.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so that's the way I felt like Dialogue: 0,0:11:21.72,0:11:23.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,praying the sinner's prayer. Dialogue: 0,0:11:23.30,0:11:25.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like I'm asking Christ \Nto come into my heart Dialogue: 0,0:11:25.39,0:11:26.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and He's saying, Dialogue: 0,0:11:26.26,0:11:28.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You don't have to... I'm here. Dialogue: 0,0:11:28.26,0:11:29.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm here. Dialogue: 0,0:11:29.16,0:11:30.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm a living reality. Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.65,0:11:32.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Your sins are done. Dialogue: 0,0:11:32.53,0:11:33.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Your sins are done. Dialogue: 0,0:11:33.79,0:11:37.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so there was joy unspeakable. Dialogue: 0,0:11:37.33,0:11:40.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my life was totally different. Dialogue: 0,0:11:40.07,0:11:41.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I made a phone call. Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.32,0:11:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I believe it was that night\Nor the next day, Dialogue: 0,0:11:43.00,0:11:44.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to all the people that I'd \Ngotten into a fight with Dialogue: 0,0:11:44.61,0:11:47.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and said I don't care what \Nyou do when I get back home, Dialogue: 0,0:11:47.17,0:11:49.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have become a Christian now. Dialogue: 0,0:11:49.82,0:11:53.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which, what do you say to that? Dialogue: 0,0:11:53.59,0:11:56.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I want to say something Dialogue: 0,0:11:56.31,0:11:57.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about this whole thing Dialogue: 0,0:11:57.45,0:11:59.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because there was joy unspeakable. Dialogue: 0,0:11:59.43,0:12:01.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And there was so much happiness. Dialogue: 0,0:12:01.14,0:12:03.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I went through several months, Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.98,0:12:05.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe even a couple of years Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.67,0:12:06.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of darkness in a way Dialogue: 0,0:12:06.98,0:12:10.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,over this whole issue \Nof the sinner's prayer. Dialogue: 0,0:12:10.48,0:12:14.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can hear guys preaching against that, Dialogue: 0,0:12:14.08,0:12:15.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you can think, Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.81,0:12:17.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe you're overemphasizing this Dialogue: 0,0:12:17.54,0:12:18.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a little too much. Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.87,0:12:21.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Maybe you need to back off a little bit. Dialogue: 0,0:12:21.71,0:12:23.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, that hurts people. Dialogue: 0,0:12:23.71,0:12:25.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bad doctrine hurts people. Dialogue: 0,0:12:25.92,0:12:27.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it hurt me. Dialogue: 0,0:12:27.02,0:12:29.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And here's the way that it hurt me. Dialogue: 0,0:12:29.02,0:12:31.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For months and like I said, Dialogue: 0,0:12:31.27,0:12:32.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe even a couple of years Dialogue: 0,0:12:32.61,0:12:34.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,after I was saved, Dialogue: 0,0:12:34.21,0:12:36.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I left almost every meeting I was in Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.76,0:12:38.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about halfway through the meeting Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.42,0:12:41.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and went to a Sunday school room Dialogue: 0,0:12:41.29,0:12:43.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and would pray the sinner's prayer. Dialogue: 0,0:12:43.35,0:12:44.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I thought, Dialogue: 0,0:12:44.48,0:12:45.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Lord, You're so real to me, Dialogue: 0,0:12:45.81,0:12:47.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I cannot be saved Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.34,0:12:49.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I was taught that the way Dialogue: 0,0:12:49.44,0:12:50.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that you become a Christian is Dialogue: 0,0:12:50.95,0:12:53.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you pray, ask Christ into your heart, Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.68,0:12:54.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then God saves you. Dialogue: 0,0:12:54.93,0:12:57.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, none of that happened. Dialogue: 0,0:12:57.05,0:12:58.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All that happened to me was Dialogue: 0,0:12:58.47,0:13:00.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I bowed my head and at some point Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.99,0:13:04.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God shown the light of the knowledge Dialogue: 0,0:13:04.51,0:13:06.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of the glory of God in the face of Christ Dialogue: 0,0:13:06.50,0:13:07.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,into my heart, Dialogue: 0,0:13:07.38,0:13:09.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was converted. Dialogue: 0,0:13:09.42,0:13:12.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that's basically the \Nway that it happened. Dialogue: 0,0:13:12.22,0:13:13.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, like I said, Dialogue: 0,0:13:13.44,0:13:15.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this went on for a couple of years. Dialogue: 0,0:13:15.100,0:13:20.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what brought me out of all of that, Dialogue: 0,0:13:20.56,0:13:22.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was someone gave me a tape Dialogue: 0,0:13:22.42,0:13:23.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by Paul Washer. Dialogue: 0,0:13:23.64,0:13:25.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this was back before the days Dialogue: 0,0:13:25.28,0:13:27.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when everyone knew Paul Washer. Dialogue: 0,0:13:27.13,0:13:28.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it was a tape of Paul Dialogue: 0,0:13:28.50,0:13:30.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,preaching on Hosea 4:6 Dialogue: 0,0:13:30.94,0:13:31.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where it says, Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.78,0:13:35.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"My people are destroyed \Nfor a lack of knowledge." Dialogue: 0,0:13:35.88,0:13:39.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And somewhere in the midst of that sermon, Dialogue: 0,0:13:39.22,0:13:44.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he mentioned Jeremiah 17:9 where it says, Dialogue: 0,0:13:44.46,0:13:46.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"The heart is desparately wicked Dialogue: 0,0:13:46.26,0:13:48.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and deceitful above all things, Dialogue: 0,0:13:48.01,0:13:49.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who can know it?" Dialogue: 0,0:13:49.79,0:13:53.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God made that verse real. Dialogue: 0,0:13:53.22,0:13:54.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God brought that home to me. Dialogue: 0,0:13:54.70,0:13:56.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't hear anything \Nelse he said after that. Dialogue: 0,0:13:56.99,0:13:58.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I realized, Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.66,0:14:01.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God began to unpack that verse in my life. Dialogue: 0,0:14:01.77,0:14:03.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And He began showing me, Dialogue: 0,0:14:03.16,0:14:06.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if my heart was desparately wicked Dialogue: 0,0:14:06.07,0:14:07.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and deceitful above all things, Dialogue: 0,0:14:07.62,0:14:10.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and myself - I can't even know it? Dialogue: 0,0:14:10.39,0:14:14.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was no way I \Nwas going to save myself. Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.35,0:14:15.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So all of a sudden, Dialogue: 0,0:14:15.72,0:14:17.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,these verses started becoming real. Dialogue: 0,0:14:17.41,0:14:19.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Matthew 1:21, Dialogue: 0,0:14:19.18,0:14:20.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You shall call His name Jesus, Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.67,0:14:22.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and He will save His people Dialogue: 0,0:14:22.46,0:14:23.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from their sins." Dialogue: 0,0:14:23.84,0:14:26.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I realized what happened that night. Dialogue: 0,0:14:26.19,0:14:28.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't save myself. Dialogue: 0,0:14:28.45,0:14:30.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God saved me. Dialogue: 0,0:14:30.88,0:14:32.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We're not saved by deeds Dialogue: 0,0:14:32.36,0:14:33.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,done in righteousness, Dialogue: 0,0:14:33.87,0:14:35.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but by His mercy. Dialogue: 0,0:14:35.50,0:14:37.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so what happened that night, Dialogue: 0,0:14:37.08,0:14:39.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that God in His mercy Dialogue: 0,0:14:39.43,0:14:43.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,opened my eyes to see \Nthe preciousness of Christ. Dialogue: 0,0:14:43.17,0:14:46.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that vision so raptured my heart Dialogue: 0,0:14:46.46,0:14:47.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I wanted to follow Christ Dialogue: 0,0:14:47.99,0:14:50.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all of the days of my life. Dialogue: 0,0:14:50.67,0:14:56.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so that's what the \NLord has done for me. Dialogue: 0,0:14:56.10,0:15:00.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Amen.