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Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text
Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.76,0:00:02.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You don't belong here"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:02.28,0:00:05.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,almost always means, "We can't find\Na function or a role for you."
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.86,0:00:11.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You don't belong here" sometimes means,\N"You're too queer to handle."
Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.20,0:00:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You don't belong here"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.36,0:00:17.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,very rarely means,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.08,0:00:20.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"There's no way for you to exist\Nand be happy here."
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.92,0:00:24.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I went to university\Nin Johannesburg, South Africa,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.36,0:00:26.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I remember the first time\Na white friend of mine
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.81,0:00:30.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,heard me speaking Setswana,\Nthe national language of Botswana.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.24,0:00:32.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was on the phone with my mother
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.92,0:00:38.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the intrigue which painted itself\Nacross her face was absolutely priceless.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.36,0:00:41.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As soon as I hung up,\Nshe comes to me and says,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:41.04,0:00:42.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I didn't know you could do that.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.68,0:00:46.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After all these years of knowing you,\Nhow did I not know you could do that?"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.28,0:00:50.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What she was referring to was the fact\Nthat I could switch off the twang
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.72,0:00:52.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and slip into a native tongue,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.20,0:00:55.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so I chose to let her in\Non a few other things
Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.56,0:00:57.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which locate me as a Motswana,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.40,0:01:00.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not just by virtue of the fact\Nthat I speak a language
Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.00,0:01:02.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or I have family there,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:02.64,0:01:07.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but that a rural child lives\Nwithin this shiny visage of fabulosity.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.72,0:01:10.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.48,0:01:14.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.52,0:01:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I invited the Motswana public\Ninto the story, my story,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.76,0:01:21.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a transgender person years ago,\Nin English of course,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.24,0:01:23.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because Setswana\Nis a gender-neutral language
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.84,0:01:27.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the closest we get\Nis an approximation of "transgender."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.20,0:01:30.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And an important part of my history\Ngot left out of that story,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.92,0:01:33.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by association rather than\Nout of any act of shame.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.40,0:01:38.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Kat" was an international superstar,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.48,0:01:41.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a fashion and lifestyle writer,\Na musician, theater producer
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.76,0:01:43.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and performer --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.04,0:01:46.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all the things that qualify me\Nto be a mainstream, whitewashed,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.96,0:01:49.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,new age digestible queer.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.12,0:01:50.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kat.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.92,0:01:54.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kat had a degree from one\Nof the best universities in Africa,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:54.32,0:01:55.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,oh no, the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.48,0:01:58.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By association, what Kat wasn't
Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.60,0:02:00.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was just like the little\Nbrown-skinned children
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.00,0:02:04.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,frolicking through the streets\Nof some incidental railway settlement
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.28,0:02:05.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like Tati Siding,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.80,0:02:09.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or an off-the-grid village like Kgagodi,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.04,0:02:12.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,legs clad in dust stockings\Nwhose knees had blackened
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.08,0:02:15.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from years of kneeling\Nand wax-polishing floors,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.36,0:02:19.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whose shins were marked\Nwith lessons from climbing trees,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.52,0:02:21.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who played until dusk,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.16,0:02:23.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,went in for supper by a paraffin lamp
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.88,0:02:28.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and returned to play hide-and-seek\Namongst centipedes and owls
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.28,0:02:31.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until finally someone's mother\Nwould call the whole thing to an end.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.44,0:02:37.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That got lost both in translation\Nand in transition,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.16,0:02:38.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when I realized this,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.44,0:02:43.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided it was time for me to start\Nbuilding bridges between myselves.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.56,0:02:46.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For me and for others to access me,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.28,0:02:49.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had to start indigenizing my queerness.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.96,0:02:53.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What I mean by indigenizing\Nis stripping away the city life film
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.40,0:02:56.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that stops you from seeing\Nthe villager within.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.36,0:03:00.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a time where being brown, queer,\NAfrican and seen as worthy of space
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.76,0:03:02.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,means being everything but rural,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.80,0:03:04.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I fear that we're erasing\Nthe very struggles
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.92,0:03:06.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that got us to where we are now.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.64,0:03:10.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The very first time I queered\Nbeing out in a village,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.24,0:03:13.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was in my early 20s,\Nand I wore a kaftan.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.24,0:03:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was ridiculed by some of my family\Nand by strangers for wearing a dress.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.20,0:03:22.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My defense against their comments\Nwas the default that we who don't belong,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.68,0:03:25.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the ones who are better than, get taught,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.64,0:03:28.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we shrug them off and say,\N"They just don't know enough."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.24,0:03:33.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And of course I was wrong,\Nbecause my idea of wealth of knowledge
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.72,0:03:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was based in removing yourself\Nfrom Third World thinking and living.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:40.64,0:03:43.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it took time for me to realize\Nthat my acts of pride
Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.32,0:03:46.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,weren't most alive in\Nthe global cities I traipsed through,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.76,0:03:50.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but in the villages where I speak\Nthe languages and play the games
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.84,0:03:52.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and feel most at home and I can say,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.76,0:03:54.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I have seen the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.68,0:03:58.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know that people like me\Naren't alone here, we are everywhere."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:59.16,0:04:02.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so I used these village homes\Nfor self-reflection
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.52,0:04:05.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to give hope\Nto the others who don't belong.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.96,0:04:07.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Indigenizing my queerness
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.64,0:04:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,means bridging the many\Nexceptional parts of myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.76,0:04:14.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It means honoring the fact
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.04,0:04:17.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that my tongue can contort itself\Nto speak the Romance languages
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.48,0:04:23.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,without denying or exoticizing the fact\Nthat when I am moved, it can do this:
Dialogue: 0,0:04:23.72,0:04:27.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Ululating)
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.16,0:04:30.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It means --
Dialogue: 0,0:04:30.44,0:04:32.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers)
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.12,0:04:36.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.20,0:04:40.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It means branding cattle with my mother\Nor chopping firewood with my cousins
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.16,0:04:42.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,doesn't make me\Nany less fabulous or queer,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:42.60,0:04:46.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,even though I'm now accustomed\Nto rooftop shindigs, wine-paired menus
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.96,0:04:48.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and VIP lounges.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.60,0:04:50.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.48,0:04:55.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It means wearing my pride\Nthrough my grandmother's tongue,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.08,0:04:57.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my mother's food, my grandfather's song,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.92,0:05:01.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my skin etched with stories\Nof falling off donkeys
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.32,0:05:05.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and years and years and years\Nof sleeping under a blanket of stars.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.24,0:05:10.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If there's any place I don't belong,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.16,0:05:14.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's in a mind where the story of me\Nstarts with the branch of me being queer
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.76,0:05:16.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and not with my rural roots.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.24,0:05:20.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Indigenizing my queerness\Nmeans understanding
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.72,0:05:24.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that the rural is a part of me,\Nand I am an indelible part of it.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.36,0:05:26.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.60,0:05:30.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)