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Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.10,0:00:02.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Ridgewood--Queens]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.04,0:00:08.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,["New York Close Up"]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.68,0:00:14.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,["Jamian Juliano-Villani Gets to work"]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.16,0:00:18.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a very simple routine:
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.60,0:00:19.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I come in,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.92,0:00:21.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reheat my coffee,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.11,0:00:23.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,go on to computer, look at stuff,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.37,0:00:24.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,clean my brushes,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.08,0:00:28.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I get to work.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.88,0:00:40.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've not had time off since I started,\Nwhich is crazy.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.32,0:00:53.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Once you have a deadline\Nit's like impending doom.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.18,0:00:54.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like a pimp!
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.69,0:00:56.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Constantly, like you owe someone something.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.96,0:00:59.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stress assassinates creativity.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.64,0:01:07.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you make a bad painting\Nand your job is an artist,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.75,0:01:09.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's like the worst.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.50,0:01:10.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's mortifying.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.50,0:01:13.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like having chocolate all over your face\Nor something--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.56,0:01:15.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you're going to some gala.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.34,0:01:19.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're only as good as your last painting--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.20,0:01:21.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which sucks--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.66,0:01:23.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but, you know, it's kind of the truth.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.32,0:01:34.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was growing up in the middle of nowhere,\Nin New Jersey.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.32,0:01:38.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I just wanted to get out of New Jersey\Nand get to New York immediately.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.14,0:01:44.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,New York is where it seemed like all\Nthe artists went to be artists.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:44.55,0:01:45.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,["Painters Painting"]\N
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.55,0:01:47.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was watching "Painters Painting"--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.09,0:01:49.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stella i Rauschenberg\Nand blah blah blah,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.65,0:01:51.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and they're all in New York, you know--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.33,0:01:53.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sitting on ladders, covered in paint.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.02,0:01:55.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For me as a teenager, it was amazing.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.86,0:01:56.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"That's..."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.36,0:01:58.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"That's it!"\NYou know?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.14,0:02:00.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now I romanticize it less
Dialogue: 0,0:02:00.46,0:02:05.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because coming to New York\Nand starting to be in the art world thing--
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.25,0:02:06.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's insane!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.20,0:02:10.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had a million shitty jobs.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:10.26,0:02:12.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Overnight shift diner waitress.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.02,0:02:13.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I worked at a group home.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.38,0:02:14.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Taught gymnastics.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.58,0:02:15.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kindergarten teacher.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.81,0:02:20.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I organized books for a marine\Nwho was obsessed with ships.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.66,0:02:24.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was commuting back and forth\Nfrom working at a restaurant in New Jersey.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.79,0:02:27.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I could get my first apartment in New York.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.69,0:02:29.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was basically painting on top of my bed,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.45,0:02:31.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,staying up every other night to paint.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.46,0:02:33.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Slowly, I got slighter bigger room--
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.10,0:02:35.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I got a slightly bigger room.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.86,0:02:39.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Three years ago,\NI actually got my first real studio ever.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.63,0:02:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was like Christmas, every day.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.00,0:02:48.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Terrible.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.34,0:02:55.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The paintings, I think, are...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.18,0:02:57.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They're tricky,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.60,0:03:02.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You need to make them better,\Nmake them weirder
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.30,0:03:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,make them smarter,\Nmake them dumber.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.16,0:03:15.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You just paint a snowman\Nin the desert...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.38,0:03:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's it? Really?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.74,0:03:19.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, there's no other step,\Nyou know?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.38,0:03:21.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like some stupid one-liner?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.00,0:03:26.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have a sense of humor\Nand a really light way to approach something.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:26.90,0:03:28.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just come up with a joke,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.03,0:03:30.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then from there,\Nhow can you offset that,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.48,0:03:32.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so it's like \Npsychological or personal?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.02,0:03:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like ping pong\Nback and forth, back and forth,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.71,0:03:38.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until it's just\Nall these things going like this,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.63,0:03:39.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,negating itself.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.28,0:03:43.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A lot of weird decisions just happen here\Nby myself
Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.56,0:03:44.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the middle of the night.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.90,0:03:47.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But also a lot of it is talking to other people.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.70,0:03:50.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you have all these voices \Ncoming here,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.06,0:03:52.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's less of a one-person lecture.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.10,0:03:56.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Ajay Kurian, Artist]
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.76,0:04:00.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Preko puta hodnika je Ajay,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:03.12,0:04:04.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koji je izvanredan umjetnik
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.44,0:04:08.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Spasio me toliko puta
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.58,0:04:10.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Uh, can you give me a minute\Nand we could like, um..."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.78,0:04:12.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You could just give me moral support please? Thanks."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.80,0:04:18.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--I'm thinking like a very very, super light,\Npale teal kind of colors.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.34,0:04:20.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Blue, or very very pale purple.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.58,0:04:23.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Purple is probably better?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.60,0:04:25.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Like cool purple.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.66,0:04:26.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[KURIAN]\N--Like lavender, or?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.80,0:04:27.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[JULIANO-VILLANI]\N--Cool ass purple.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.94,0:04:29.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[KURIAN]\N--I could see that.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.78,0:04:30.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[JULIANO-VILLANI]\N--Right.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.62,0:04:32.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Or like a...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.62,0:04:34.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[KURIAN]\N--Is that a vase or a mirror?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.10,0:04:35.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[JULIANO-VILLANI]\N--Who the fuck knows?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.83,0:04:37.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--It will be a mirror.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.18,0:04:37.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[KURIAN]\N--Okay.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.94,0:04:38.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[JULIANO-VILLANI]\N--Hmm...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:42.02,0:04:42.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--Fuck.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.52,0:04:45.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One of my friends was telling me,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.92,0:04:47.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Just put some crap in there,\Nno one can tell."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.84,0:04:49.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was like, "Thanks, jerk!"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.12,0:04:50.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Inhales sharply]
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.84,0:04:53.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I can definitely tell.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.36,0:04:55.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because these are supposed to be confident.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.28,0:05:02.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I just turned 30.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.08,0:05:05.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, I chainsmoke--\Nlike, you know, a pack and a half a day.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.70,0:05:06.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I drink a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.35,0:05:09.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My sleeping habits are terrible.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:09.01,0:05:10.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I eat garbage.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.29,0:05:12.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is just a vessel,\Nyou know what I mean?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.08,0:05:18.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The past couple of years, I had so much stamina
Dialogue: 0,0:05:18.90,0:05:20.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just kept on working and pumping.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.70,0:05:22.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And now, it's like, when it actually matters,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:22.16,0:05:23.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I got to make sure I still have it.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.80,0:05:27.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think the main pressure is\Nmaintaining integrity
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.03,0:05:28.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and making work that you feel good about--
Dialogue: 0,0:05:28.93,0:05:31.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,even under pressure,\Nwhich is really difficult.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.04,0:05:34.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I really want to push the paintings--
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.58,0:05:38.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I don't know how yet,\Nbut hopefully I'll figure it out
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.32,0:05:40.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and make them something\Nthat they aren't yet.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.22,0:05:44.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know I'm going to make some, like,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.65,0:05:46.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,embarrassing, bad sculptures\Nor videos or something.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:46.76,0:05:48.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But, like, fuck it,\NI got to do it,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.26,0:05:49.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,now is the time--
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.26,0:05:51.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,while I have the energy.