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[waves crashing against a shore]
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[Denali] I overheard someone talking
about their problems the other day.
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"I had the worst day ever", they said.
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"First, there was nowhere to park
at Whole Foods,
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and everyone was acting all aggro,
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so I had to walk like two blocks in the rain,
and my shoes got soaked.
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Then my stupid salad was like $12.
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Then I was in such a rush to get to yoga,
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I forgot my mat
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and I had to use some nasty loaner mat
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and it smelled like balls."
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[Denali] I don't know what the big deal is,
I love the way balls smell.
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I'm pretty sure Ben knows I'm dying.
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I'm not sure if it's the cancer
or something else,
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but he's been taking me
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to all the places we used to go to,
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and checking on me a lot.
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The other day he asked me to let him know
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when I was ready to go.
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He said he didn't want me to suffer.
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[waves crashing]
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Growing up with Ben was pretty great.
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He made pictures for a living,
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and didn't feel as comfortable in the city,
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so we traveled around a lot.
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He's what his hippie friends call
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a "free spirit" or something.
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We camped a lot.
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I'd pretend I was a giant stinky butterfly.
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I'd help Ben find girlfriends.
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We'd go shark fishing.
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We'd do yoga.
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I'd give him kisses.
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We'd hang out with famous people.
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We even went sailing in the desert once.
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Which brings me to a time in my life
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that I've always been
a little self-conscious about.
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Of course it's not my fault,
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but I became SO HANDSOME
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that it was impossible to ignore.
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When Ben started to notice,
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I had to start working for a living.
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Humiliating outfits became pretty standard.
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If you've ever been told to look cute,
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you know it's not as easy as it sounds.
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And you can't just fake
special kisses in the studio.
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It won't look authentic.
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Oh man, those were the good old days for sure.
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I think most people would've
left their old dog at home,
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but Ben insisted on taking me
to all our favourite spots one more time.
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I think he feels like he can't
leave my side right now.
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This one time, about ten years ago,
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we were camping at Joshua Tree,
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and Ben stood up by the campfire
and just passed out.
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And he started bleeding.
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Things changed a lot after that.
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When I licked him, I could taste the chemicals
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they were putting in him to kill the cancer;
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but it just seemed like
they were killing him too.
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[muffled deep waves crashing under water]
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If anyone had tried to take me
out of that hospital room,
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I would've bitten their face.
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I remember feeling really sad for Ben
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when he found out he'd have to poop into
a plastic bag attached to his stomach
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for the rest of his life.
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Mainly because he already had
to put all of my poop into plastic bags.
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The worst though was when this letter
came from the insurance company.
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["...we are rescinding your coverage
and denying the claim."]
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One time I had the best dream ever.
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I dreamed I had rabies
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and snuck into the insurance company
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to share my rabies
with as many people as I could
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before they shot me with a tranquilizer gun.
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I don't know what
I would have done without Ben.
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I'm so glad his cancer went away.
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I'd be so scared right now
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if I was going through this without him.
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I've been trying to be really strong
for him this week.
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Just like he was when things
were going really bad.
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My last night was really peaceful.
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I wasn't hungry anymore,
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so I let Ben know it was time.
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And he let me sleep on his chest all night.
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Ben said a raven swooped by
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while he carried me
to the vet's car in the morning.
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I'm sure his hippie friends
had lots to say about that.
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There was this really smart scientist guy
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who thought that people
could learn a lot from dogs.
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He said that when someone you love
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walks through the door,
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even if it happens five times a day,
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you should go totally insane with joy.
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[sweeping melodic electronic music
with high vocals]