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Ninataka kuzungumza namna kusoma 
kunavyoweza kubadilisha maisha yetu

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na kuhusu mipaka ya mabadiliko hayo

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Ninataka kuzungumza na wewe namna kusoma
kunavyoweza kutupa ulimwengu wa ushirika

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wa muunganiko wenye nguvu wa kibinadamu

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pia namna ambavyo muunganiko huo 
ni sehemu tu mara zote

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Kusoma mwisho wa siku ni kitendo cha 
upweke na kisicho cha kawaida.

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Muandishi aliyebadilisha maisha yangu

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Ni mmarekani mweusi na mwandishi
wa riwaya James Baldwin

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Wakati ninakuwa katika eneo la
Magharibi mwa Michigan miaka ya 1980,

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hakukuwa na wamarekani wenye asili ya asia
wengi wanaoandika kuhusu mabadiliko ya kijamii

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Na ndio maana nilimgeukia James Baldwin

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kama namna ya kuliziba hili ombwe,
kama namna ya kuwamakini na rangi

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lakini haswa kwa sababu nilifahamu
mimi sikuwa mmarekani mweusi,

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Pia nilisikia kupata changamoto na
kuthibitishwa na maneno yake.

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Hasusani maneno haya:

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"Ni watu huria walio na mitazamo sahihi,

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lakini hawana misimamo halisi.

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pale ambapo vipande vipo chini
na unawategemea kuleta matokeo,

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na huenda hawako hapo kwa namna fulani".

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Hawako hapo kwa namna fulani.

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Nikayachukua hayo maneno nikitafakari.

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Nijiweke wapi?

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Nilikwenda kwenye delta ya Mississippi,

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mojawapo ya maeneo masikini sana ya
Marekani.

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Hii ni sehemu ambayo imejengwa
na historia yenye nguvu.

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Katika mwaka wa 1960, Wamarekani weusi
walijitoa maisha yao kupigania Elimu,

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kupigania haki ya kupiga kura.

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Nilitaka kuwa sehemu ya badiliko hilo,

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kuwasaidia vijana wadogo wamalize shule
na kujiunga na vyuo.

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Nilipoenda kwenye Delta ya Mississipi,

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Palikuwa ni mahali duni bado,

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bado pametengwa,

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Bado panahitaji mabadiliko ya kasi.

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Shule yangu, pale nilipokuwa nasoma,

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haikuwa na maktaba, hakuna mshauri,

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lakini ilikuwa na afisa wa polisi.

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Nusu ya walimu walikuwa ni mbadala

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na wanafunzi walipoingia kwenye ugomvi,

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Shule iliwapeleka kwenye jela ya 
mahali hapo.

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Hii ndiyo shule nilipokutana na Patrick.

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Alikuwa na miaka 15 na alikamatwa mara
mbili, alikuwa darasa la nane.

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Alikuwa ni mkimya na mndani,

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ni kama kila wakati alikuwa mwenye mawazo.

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Na alichukia kuona wengine wakipigana.

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Nilimuona mara moja akiruka kati ya 
mabinti wawili walipokuwa wakipigana

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Na akajikuta akidondoka na kuanguka chini.

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Patrick alikuwa na tatizo moja.

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Hakuwa akifika shuleni.

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Alisema kuwa shule wakati mwingine humfanya kuwa na msongo

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Sababu wanafunzi hupigana mara zote na
walimu wanaondoka.

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Lakini pia, mama yake anafanya kazi mbili
na huwa anachoka kuweza kumfanya aje shule.

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Hivyo nikafanya iwe kazi yangu
kumfanya awe anakuja shule.

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Na sababu nilikuwa na wazimu na miaka 22
na mwenye bidii ya matumaini

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Njia yangu ilikuwa ni
kwenda nyumbani kwao

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na kusema "Eti, kwanini hauji
shuleni?"

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Na njia hii ilifanya kazi,

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akaanza kuja shuleni kila siku.

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Na akaanza kufanikiwa katika darasa langu.

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Aliandika mashairi,
alisoma vitabu.

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Alikuja shuleni kila siku.

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takriban muda ule ule

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Nilipogundua namna ya kushirikiana
na Patrick,

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Nilikwenda shule ya sheria Harvard.

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Nilikutana tena na swali hili,
nijiweke wapi,

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niuweke wapi mwili wangu?

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Na nikawaza mwenyewe

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Kuwa Mississipi Delta
ni mahali ambapo watu wenye fedha,

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watu wenye fursa,

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watu hao huondoka.

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Na watu wanaobakia

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ni watu ambao hawana fursa ya kuondoka.

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Sikutaka kuwa mtu anayeondoka.

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Nilitaka kuwa mtu anayebakia.

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Kwa upande mwingine, nilikuwa mpweke 
na mchovu.

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Na hivyo nilijishawishi mwenyewe
kuwa ninaweza kufanya mabadiliko

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Kwa kiasi kikubwa kama ningekuwa
na shahada yenye heshima ya sheria.

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Hivyo nikaondoka.

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Miaka mitatu baadaye,

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Nilipokaribia kuhitimu
shule ya sheria,

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rafiki yangu alinipigia simu

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na kuniambia kuwa Patrick 
amepigana na kuua mtu.

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Nilitaharuki.

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Sehemu ya mimi haikuamini,

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na sehemu ya mimi pia iliamini kuwa 
ni kweli.

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Nilisafiri kwenda kumuona Patrick.

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Nilimtembelea gerezani.

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Na aliniambia kuwa ilikuwa kweli.

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Ya kwamba ameua mtu.

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Na asingependa kuzungumzia suala hilo.

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Nilimuuliza nini kiliendelea kuhusu shule

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na akasema aliacha shule mwaka mooja
baada ya mimi kuondoka.

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Na alitaka kuniambia kuhusu kitu kingine

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Alitazama chini akasema
ya kwamba amepata mtoto wa kike

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ambaye ndiye kwanza amezaliwa.

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Na anahisi kuwa amemuangusha binti yake.

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Hivyo ndivyo ilivyokuwa, mazungumzo yetu
yalikuwa ya haraka na mabaya.

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Nilipotoka nje ya gereza,
sauti ndani yangu iliniambia,

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"Rudi.

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Usiporudi sasa, hutarudi kamwe".

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Hivyo nikahitimu shule ya sheria na
nikarudi.

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Nikarudi kumuona Patrick,

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Nikarudi kuona kama ninaweza kumsaidia
na kesi yake ya sheria.

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Muda huu,
nilipomuona kwa mara ya pili,

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Nilidhani nina hili wazo zuri, 
nikamwambia,

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"Hey, Patrick, kwanini usiandike barua
kwa binti yako,

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ili uweze kumuweka katika
fikra zako?"

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Nikampatia kalamu na
kipande cha karatasi,

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na akaanza kuandika.

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Lakini nilipoiona karatasi aliyonipatia,

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Nilipigwa na butwaa.

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Sikuutambua mwandiko wake,

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alikuwa amefanya makosa
machache ya matamshi.

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na nikawaza mwenyewe kama mwalimu,

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Ninafahamu ya kuwa mwanafunzi
anaweza kufanya vizuri kwa kasi

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Kwa muda mfupi sana,

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lakini sikuwahi kuwaza kuwa mwanafunzi
anaweza kurudi nyuma kwa kasi.

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kilichoniumiza zaidi,

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ni kuona kile alichokiandika
kwa binti yake.

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aliandika,

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"Ninasikitika kwa makosa yangu,
ninasikitika kutokuwa pamoja nawe."

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Na hiki ndicho alichojisikia
anataka kusema naye.

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Nikajiuliza ni namna gani ninaweza
kumshawishi kuwa anaweza kumwambia zaidi,

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ile sehemu yake ambayo
hahitaji kuomba radhi kwayo.

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Nilitaka yeye ajisikie

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kuwa anakitu cha thamani
kumshirikisha binti yake.

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Kwa kila siku kwa miezi saba iliyofuatia,

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Nilimtembelea na kumpelekea vitabu.

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Mkoba wangu uligeuka kuwa maktaba ndogo.

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Nilimpelekea James Baldwin,

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Nilipeleka Walt Whitman, C.S.Lewis.

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Nilileta vitabu vya mwongozo wa miti, 
wa ndege,

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na kitabu alichotokea kukipenda zaidi, 
kamusi.

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Kwa baadhi ya siku,

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tulikaa kimya kwa masaa,
wote wawili tukisoma.

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Na siku nyingine,

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tulisoma pamoja,
tulisoma mashairi.

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tulianza kwa kusoma haikus,
mamia ya haikus,

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ni kito rahisi na danganyifu.

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Na ningemuuliza,
"Nishirikishe haiku zako unazozipenda".

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Na baadhi yake ni za kufurahisha sana.

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Kuna hii ya Issa:

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"Usijali, buibui,
ninaweka nyumba kikawaida."

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Na hii: "Nimelala nusu ya siku,
na hakuna aliyeniadhibu!"

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Na hii nyingine ya kuvutia, inayohusu
siku ya kwanza barafu ilipodondoka,

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"Kulungu wakilamba baridi ya kwanza
kutoka kwenye koti la kila mmoja wao."

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Kuna kitu cha ajabu na cha kuvutia

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kuhusu namna shairi linavyoonekana.

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Nafasi ya shairi ni muhimu
kama maneno yenyewe.

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Tunasoma shairi hili lililoandikwa na
W.S.Merwin,

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ambalo aliliandika baada ya kumuona
mkewe akifanya kazi kwenye bustani

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na akakumbuka kuwa wataishi maisha
yao yote yaliyobaki wakiwa pamoja.

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"Wacha nifikiri kuwa tutakuja tena

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tutakapotaka na itakuwa wakati wa masika

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hatutakuwa na umri mkubwa
kuliko tulivyowahi kuwa

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na majonzi yatakuwa mepesi kama
mawingu ya mapema

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ambayo kwayo asubuhi
huja yenyewe taratibu"

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Nikamuuliza Patrick mstari alioupenda 
zaidi ni upi, na akasema

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"Hatutakuwa na umri mkubwa 
kuliko tulivyokuwa."

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Alisema inamkumbusha
mahali ambapo muda husimama,

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pale ambapo muda haumaanishi
kitu chochote.

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Na nikamuuliza kama amewahi kuwa
na mahali pa jinsi hiyo.

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pale ambapo muda hudumu milele.

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Na akasema, "Mama yangu".

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Na pale unaposoma shairi 
pamoja na mtu mwingine,

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shairi hubadilika katika maana.

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Kwa sababu huwa la kibinafsi kwa mtu huyo,
huwa la kibinafsi kwako.

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Halafu tulisoma vitabu,
tulisoma vitabu vingi sana,

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tulisoma kumbukumbu za Frederick Douglass,

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Mtumwa wa Marekani aliyejifunza mwenyewe
kusoma na kuandika

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na aliyetoroka na kuwa huru
sababu ya kuelimika kwake.

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Nimekua nikimfikiria Frederick Douglass 
kama shujaa

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na niliiona hii simulizi kama
iliyojaa matumaini na yenye kuinua

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Lakini kitabu hiki kilimuweka Patrick
katika hofu.

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Alibakia katika simulizi aliyoielezea 
Douglass jinsi ambavyo, katika Christmas,

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Mabwana waliwapa watumwa jini(pombe kali)

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kama namna ya kuwaaminisha kuwa
hawawezi kuumudu uhuru.

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Kwa sababu watumwa waliweweseka
katika mashamba.

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Patrick alisema anajifananisha na hili.

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Alisema kuwa kuna watu gerezani ambao,
kama watumwa,

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hawataki kuwaza juu ya hali zao,

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kwa sababu inawaumiza sana.

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Inaumiza sana kuwaza mambo ya nyuma,

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inaumiza sana kuwaza
kuhusu umbali gani tunapaswa kwenda.

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Mstari alioupenda sana ulikuwa huu:

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"Chochote kile, bila kujali chochote,
kujiondoa katika kuwaza!

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Ilikuwa ni huku kuwaza kusiko koma kuhusu
hali yangu ndiko kunako kipa mateso."

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Patrick alisema Douglass alikuwa jasiri 
kuandika, ili aendelee kuwaza.

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Lakini Patrick hakufahamu kuwa alionekana 
kufanana sana na Douglass kwangu.

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Namna alivyoendelea kusoma,
ijapokuwa ilimuweka katika hofu.

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Alimaliza kitabu kabla yangu,

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akisoma katika ngazi za 
zege zisizo na taa.

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Halafu tukaendelea kusoma mojawapo
ya vitabu ninavyovipenda,

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Cha Marilynne Robinson's "Gilead,"

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ambayo ni barua endelevu kutoka
kwa baba kwenda kwa mwanae.

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Alipenda mstari huu:

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"Ninaandika hii kwa sehemu kukuambia

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ya kwamba kama umewahi kujiuliza
kile umekifanya katika maisha yako...

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umekuwa neema ya Mungu kwangu,

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muujiza, kitu ambacho ni zaidi 
ya muujiza."

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Kitu kimoja kuhusu hii lugha,
upendo wake, subira yake, sauti yake,

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iliamsha shauku ya Patrick katika kuandika.

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Na alijaza daftari kwa daftari

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na barua kwenda kwa binti yake.

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katika barua hizi nzuri na imara,

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alijiwazia yeye na binti yake
wakipanda mtumbwi katika mto Mississipi

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Alijiwazia yeye na binti yake
wakipata vijito vya milimani

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vikiwa na maji masafi bila kasoro.

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Nilipomtazama Patrick akiandika,

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Nilijiwazia mwenyewe,

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na sasa ninawaulizeni nyote,

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ni wangapi wenu mmewahi kuandika barua
kwa mtu unayehisi umemwangusha?

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Ni rahisi sana
kuwaweka hao watu nje ya fikra zako.

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Lakini Patrick alijitokeza kila siku,
akimkabili binti yake,

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akijiwajibisha kwake,

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neno kwa neno kwa umakini wa hali ya juu.

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Ningependa katika maisha yangu binafsi

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kujiweka katika hatari kwa namna hiyo.

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Kwa sababu hatari hiyo inadhihirisha
nguvu za moyo wa mtu.

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Ngoja nirudi hatua moja nyuma na niulize
swali ambalo linaleta wasiwasi.

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Mimi ni nani kusimulia simulizi hii,
hii simulizi ya Patrick?

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Patrick ndiye aliyeishi kwenye 
maumivu haya

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na mimi sijawahi kukaa na njaa hata 
kwa siku moja kwenye maisha yangu

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Ninawaza sana kuhusu swali hili,

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lakini ninachotaka kusema ni kuwa hii 
simulizi sio tu kuhusu Patrick.

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Inatuhusu sisi,

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ni kuhusu tofauti kati yetu.

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Ulimwengu wa vingi

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ambao Patrick na wazazi wake 
na mababu zake

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hawajawahi kuuona.

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Katika simulizi hii, mimi ninawakilisha
huo ulimwengu wa vingi.

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Na katika kueleza simulizi hii
sikutaka kujificha mwenyewe.

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Kuficha nguvu ambazo ninazo.

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Katika kueleza simulizi hii,
ninataka kuifichua nguvu hiyo

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halafu kuuliza,

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tunawezaje kuipunguza
umbali kati yetu?

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Kusoma ni njia mojawapo ya kuipunguza
hiyo nafasi.

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Kunatuma ulimwengu wa ukimya
ambao tunaweza kuushiriki pamoja,

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ambao tunaweza kuushiriki kwa usawa.

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Inawezekana unajiuliza sasa kuwa
ni nini kilitokea kwa Patrick.

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Je kusoma kuliokoa maisha yake?

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Kuliyaokoa na hakukuyaokoa.

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Patrick alipotoka gerezani,

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safari yake ilikuwa ya maumivu.

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Waajiri hawakumkubali kwa sababu
ya historia yake,

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rafiki yake mpenzi, mama yake,
alifariki katika umri wa miaka 43

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kwa ugonjwa wa moyo na kisukari.

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Alikuwa hana pa kuishi,
amekuwa hana chakula.

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Kwa hiyo watu wanasema mengi kuhusu kusoma
ambayo kwangu ninahisi wanazidisha chumvi.

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Uwezo wa kusoma haukumzuia yeye
asitengwe na jamii.

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Hakukumzuia mama yake asifariki.

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Kwa hiyo kusoma kunaweza kufanya nini?

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Nina majibu machache ninapomalizia leo.

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Kusoma kulibadili utu wake wa ndani

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kwa mambo yaliyofichika na uwezo wa
kuwaza kwa picha.

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kwa uzuri.

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Kusoma kulimpa taswira zilizompa furaha:

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milima, bahari, kulungu, theluji.

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Maneno yenye ladha ya ulimwengu huru
na halisi.

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Kusoma kulimpa lugha kwa yale aliyopoteza.

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Ni jinsi gani yalivyo mazuri haya maneno 
kutoka kwa mshairi Derek Walcott?

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Patrick alilikariri hili shairi.

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"Siku ambazo nilizishikilia,

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siku ambazo nilizipoteza,

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siku ambazo zinakuwa kupitiliza,
kama mabinti,

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mikono yangu inayoshikilia."

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Kusoma kulimfundisha ujasiri wake
mwenyewe.

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Kumbuka kwamba aliendelea kusoma
Frederick Douglass,

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ijapokuwa ilikuwa ya kuumiza.

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Aliendelea kuwa makini,
ijapokuwa kuwa makini kunauma.

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Kusoma ni aina ya kutafakari,

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ndio maana ni vigumu sana kusoma
kwa sababu tunataka kutafakari.

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Na Patrick alichagua kutafakari,
badala ya kutokutafakari.

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Na mwishoni, kusoma kulimpa lugha
ya kuongea na binti yake.

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Kusoma kulimpa shauku ya kutaka kuandika.

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Muunganiko kati ya kusoma na
kuandika ni wenye nguvu sana.

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Tunapoanza kusoma,

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tunaanza kupata maneno.

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Na alipata maneno ya kutafakari
wao wawili wakiwa pamoja.

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Alipata maneno

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ya kumwelezea ni namna gani anampenda.

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Kusoma pia kulibadilisha
mahusiano baina yetu.

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Kunatupa nyakati za kuwa karibu,

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kuweza kuona zaidi ya mitazamo yetu.

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Na kusoma kulichukua mahusiano ya
kutokuwa sawa

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na kulitupa usawa wa muda mfupi.

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Ukikutana na mtu kama msomaji,

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unakutana naye kwa mara ya kwanza,

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kwa upya kabisa.

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Hakuna namna unaweza kufahamu mstari 
anaoupenda sana ni upi.

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Ni kumbukumbu zipi na huzuni zipi za 
siri alizonazo.

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Na unakutana na sitara ya hali ya juu
ya utu wake wa ndani.

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Na halafu unaanza kushangaa,
"Eti,utu wangu wa ndani umejengwa na nini?

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Ni kitu gani nilichonacho cha thamani
cha kumshirikisha mwingine?"

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Ninataka kufunga

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kwa mistari yangu ninayoipenda
kutoka kwa barua za Patrick kwa bintiye.

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"Mto una kivuli kwenye baadhi ya maeneo

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lakini mwanga unaangaza
kupitia mianya ya miti...

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Kwenye baadhi ya matawi
muliberi nyingi zimening'inia.

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Unanyoosha mkono wako
ili uweze kuyachukua baadhi".

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Na barua hii ya upendo, anapoandika,

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"Fumba macho yako na usikilize
sauti ya maneno.

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Ninafahamu shairi hili kwa moyo

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na ningependa pia wewe ulifahamu."

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Ninawashukuruni nyote.

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(Makofi)