0:00:00.917,0:00:06.393
Ninataka kuzungumza namna kusoma [br]kunavyoweza kubadilisha maisha yetu

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na kuhusu mipaka ya mabadiliko hayo

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Ninataka kuzungumza na wewe namna kusoma[br]kunavyoweza kutupa ulimwengu wa ushirika

0:00:14.042,0:00:16.750
wa muunganiko wenye nguvu wa kibinadamu

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pia namna ambavyo muunganiko huo [br]ni sehemu tu mara zote

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Kusoma mwisho wa siku ni kitendo cha [br]upweke na kisicho cha kawaida.

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Muandishi aliyebadilisha maisha yangu

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Ni mmarekani mweusi na mwandishi[br]wa riwaya James Baldwin

0:00:34.958,0:00:38.226
Wakati ninakuwa katika eneo la[br]Magharibi mwa Michigan miaka ya 1980,

0:00:38.250,0:00:42.167
hakukuwa na wamarekani wenye asili ya asia[br]wengi wanaoandika kuhusu mabadiliko ya kijamii

0:00:43.292,0:00:46.518
Na ndio maana nilimgeukia James Baldwin

0:00:46.542,0:00:50.583
kama namna ya kuliziba hili ombwe,[br]kama namna ya kuwamakini na rangi

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lakini haswa kwa sababu nilifahamu[br]mimi sikuwa mmarekani mweusi,

0:00:55.958,0:01:00.476
Pia nilisikia kupata changamoto na[br]kuthibitishwa na maneno yake.

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Hasusani maneno haya:

0:01:03.458,0:01:07.059
"Ni watu huria walio na mitazamo sahihi,

0:01:07.083,0:01:09.042
lakini hawana misimamo halisi.

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pale ambapo vipande vipo chini[br]na unawategemea kuleta matokeo,

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na huenda hawako hapo kwa namna fulani".

0:01:16.542,0:01:19.351
Hawako hapo kwa namna fulani.

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Nikayachukua hayo maneno nikitafakari.

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Nijiweke wapi?

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Nilikwenda kwenye delta ya Mississippi,

0:01:26.542,0:01:29.684
mojawapo ya maeneo masikini sana ya[br]Marekani.

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Hii ni sehemu ambayo imejengwa[br]na historia yenye nguvu.

0:01:32.625,0:01:37.768
Katika mwaka wa 1960, Wamarekani weusi[br]walijitoa maisha yao kupigania Elimu,

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kupigania haki ya kupiga kura.

0:01:40.625,0:01:43.059
Nilitaka kuwa sehemu ya badiliko hilo,

0:01:43.083,0:01:46.792
kuwasaidia vijana wadogo wamalize shule[br]na kujiunga na vyuo.

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Nilipoenda kwenye Delta ya Mississipi,

0:01:51.000,0:01:53.434
Palikuwa ni mahali duni bado,

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bado pametengwa,

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Bado panahitaji mabadiliko ya kasi.

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Shule yangu, pale nilipokuwa nasoma,

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haikuwa na maktaba, hakuna mshauri,

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lakini ilikuwa na afisa wa polisi.

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Nusu ya walimu walikuwa ni mbadala

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na wanafunzi walipoingia kwenye ugomvi,

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Shule iliwapeleka kwenye jela ya [br]mahali hapo.

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Hii ndiyo shule nilipokutana na Patrick.

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Alikuwa na miaka 15 na alikamatwa mara[br]mbili, alikuwa darasa la nane.

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Alikuwa ni mkimya na mndani,

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ni kama kila wakati alikuwa mwenye mawazo.

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Na alichukia kuona wengine wakipigana.

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Nilimuona mara moja akiruka kati ya [br]mabinti wawili walipokuwa wakipigana

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Na akajikuta akidondoka na kuanguka chini.

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Patrick alikuwa na tatizo moja.

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Hakuwa akifika shuleni.

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Alisema kuwa shule wakati mwingine humfanya kuwa na msongo

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Sababu wanafunzi hupigana mara zote na[br]walimu wanaondoka.

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Lakini pia, mama yake anafanya kazi mbili[br]na huwa anachoka kuweza kumfanya aje shule.

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Hivyo nikafanya iwe kazi yangu[br]kumfanya awe anakuja shule.

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Na sababu nilikuwa na wazimu na miaka 22[br]na mwenye bidii ya matumaini

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Njia yangu ilikuwa ni[br]kwenda nyumbani kwao

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na kusema "Eti, kwanini hauji[br]shuleni?"

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Na njia hii ilifanya kazi,

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akaanza kuja shuleni kila siku.

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Na akaanza kufanikiwa katika darasa langu.

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Aliandika mashairi,[br]alisoma vitabu.

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Alikuja shuleni kila siku.

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takriban muda ule ule

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Nilipogundua namna ya kushirikiana[br]na Patrick,

0:03:35.250,0:03:37.458
Nilikwenda shule ya sheria Harvard.

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Nilikutana tena na swali hili,[br]nijiweke wapi,

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niuweke wapi mwili wangu?

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Na nikawaza mwenyewe

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Kuwa Mississipi Delta[br]ni mahali ambapo watu wenye fedha,

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watu wenye fursa,

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watu hao huondoka.

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Na watu wanaobakia

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ni watu ambao hawana fursa ya kuondoka.

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Sikutaka kuwa mtu anayeondoka.

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Nilitaka kuwa mtu anayebakia.

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Kwa upande mwingine, nilikuwa mpweke [br]na mchovu.

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Na hivyo nilijishawishi mwenyewe[br]kuwa ninaweza kufanya mabadiliko

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Kwa kiasi kikubwa kama ningekuwa[br]na shahada yenye heshima ya sheria.

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Hivyo nikaondoka.

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Miaka mitatu baadaye,

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Nilipokaribia kuhitimu[br]shule ya sheria,

0:04:26.792,0:04:28.518
rafiki yangu alinipigia simu

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na kuniambia kuwa Patrick [br]amepigana na kuua mtu.

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Nilitaharuki.

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Sehemu ya mimi haikuamini,

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na sehemu ya mimi pia iliamini kuwa [br]ni kweli.

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Nilisafiri kwenda kumuona Patrick.

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Nilimtembelea gerezani.

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Na aliniambia kuwa ilikuwa kweli.

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Ya kwamba ameua mtu.

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Na asingependa kuzungumzia suala hilo.

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Nilimuuliza nini kiliendelea kuhusu shule

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na akasema aliacha shule mwaka mooja[br]baada ya mimi kuondoka.

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Na alitaka kuniambia kuhusu kitu kingine

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Alitazama chini akasema[br]ya kwamba amepata mtoto wa kike

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ambaye ndiye kwanza amezaliwa.

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Na anahisi kuwa amemuangusha binti yake.

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Hivyo ndivyo ilivyokuwa, mazungumzo yetu[br]yalikuwa ya haraka na mabaya.

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Nilipotoka nje ya gereza,[br]sauti ndani yangu iliniambia,

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"Rudi.

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Usiporudi sasa, hutarudi kamwe".

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Hivyo nikahitimu shule ya sheria na[br]nikarudi.

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Nikarudi kumuona Patrick,

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Nikarudi kuona kama ninaweza kumsaidia[br]na kesi yake ya sheria.

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Muda huu,[br]nilipomuona kwa mara ya pili,

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Nilidhani nina hili wazo zuri, [br]nikamwambia,

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"Hey, Patrick, kwanini usiandike barua[br]kwa binti yako,

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ili uweze kumuweka katika[br]fikra zako?"

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Nikampatia kalamu na[br]kipande cha karatasi,

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na akaanza kuandika.

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Lakini nilipoiona karatasi aliyonipatia,

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Nilipigwa na butwaa.

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Sikuutambua mwandiko wake,

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alikuwa amefanya makosa[br]machache ya matamshi.

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na nikawaza mwenyewe kama mwalimu,

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Ninafahamu ya kuwa mwanafunzi[br]anaweza kufanya vizuri kwa kasi

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Kwa muda mfupi sana,

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lakini sikuwahi kuwaza kuwa mwanafunzi[br]anaweza kurudi nyuma kwa kasi.

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kilichoniumiza zaidi,

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ni kuona kile alichokiandika[br]kwa binti yake.

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aliandika,

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"Ninasikitika kwa makosa yangu,[br]ninasikitika kutokuwa pamoja nawe."

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Na hiki ndicho alichojisikia[br]anataka kusema naye.

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Nikajiuliza ni namna gani ninaweza[br]kumshawishi kuwa anaweza kumwambia zaidi,

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ile sehemu yake ambayo[br]hahitaji kuomba radhi kwayo.

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Nilitaka yeye ajisikie

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kuwa anakitu cha thamani[br]kumshirikisha binti yake.

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Kwa kila siku kwa miezi saba iliyofuatia,

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Nilimtembelea na kumpelekea vitabu.

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Mkoba wangu uligeuka kuwa maktaba ndogo.

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Nilimpelekea James Baldwin,

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Nilipeleka Walt Whitman, C.S.Lewis.

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Nilileta vitabu vya mwongozo wa miti, [br]wa ndege,

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na kitabu alichotokea kukipenda zaidi, [br]kamusi.

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Kwa baadhi ya siku,

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tulikaa kimya kwa masaa,[br]wote wawili tukisoma.

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Na siku nyingine,

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tulisoma pamoja,[br]tulisoma mashairi.

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tulianza kwa kusoma haikus,[br]mamia ya haikus,

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ni kito rahisi na danganyifu.

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Na ningemuuliza,[br]"Nishirikishe haiku zako unazozipenda".

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Na baadhi yake ni za kufurahisha sana.

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Kuna hii ya Issa:

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"Usijali, buibui,[br]ninaweka nyumba kikawaida."

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Na hii: "Nimelala nusu ya siku,[br]na hakuna aliyeniadhibu!"

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Na hii nyingine ya kuvutia, inayohusu[br]siku ya kwanza barafu ilipodondoka,

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"Kulungu wakilamba baridi ya kwanza[br]kutoka kwenye koti la kila mmoja wao."

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Kuna kitu cha ajabu na cha kuvutia

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kuhusu namna shairi linavyoonekana.

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Nafasi ya shairi ni muhimu[br]kama maneno yenyewe.

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Tunasoma shairi hili lililoandikwa na[br]W.S.Merwin,

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ambalo aliliandika baada ya kumuona[br]mkewe akifanya kazi kwenye bustani

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na akakumbuka kuwa wataishi maisha[br]yao yote yaliyobaki wakiwa pamoja.

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"Wacha nifikiri kuwa tutakuja tena

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tutakapotaka na itakuwa wakati wa masika

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hatutakuwa na umri mkubwa[br]kuliko tulivyowahi kuwa

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na majonzi yatakuwa mepesi kama[br]mawingu ya mapema

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ambayo kwayo asubuhi[br]huja yenyewe taratibu"

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Nikamuuliza Patrick mstari alioupenda [br]zaidi ni upi, na akasema

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"Hatutakuwa na umri mkubwa [br]kuliko tulivyokuwa."

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Alisema inamkumbusha[br]mahali ambapo muda husimama,

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pale ambapo muda haumaanishi[br]kitu chochote.

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Na nikamuuliza kama amewahi kuwa[br]na mahali pa jinsi hiyo.

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pale ambapo muda hudumu milele.

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Na akasema, "Mama yangu".

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Na pale unaposoma shairi [br]pamoja na mtu mwingine,

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shairi hubadilika katika maana.

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Kwa sababu huwa la kibinafsi kwa mtu huyo,[br]huwa la kibinafsi kwako.

0:09:37.500,0:09:40.184
Halafu tulisoma vitabu,[br]tulisoma vitabu vingi sana,

0:09:40.208,0:09:43.351
tulisoma kumbukumbu za Frederick Douglass,

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Mtumwa wa Marekani aliyejifunza mwenyewe[br]kusoma na kuandika

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na aliyetoroka na kuwa huru[br]sababu ya kuelimika kwake.

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Nimekua nikimfikiria Frederick Douglass [br]kama shujaa

0:09:54.542,0:09:57.750
na niliiona hii simulizi kama[br]iliyojaa matumaini na yenye kuinua

0:09:58.917,0:10:01.750
Lakini kitabu hiki kilimuweka Patrick[br]katika hofu.

0:10:02.875,0:10:07.934
Alibakia katika simulizi aliyoielezea [br]Douglass jinsi ambavyo, katika Christmas,

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Mabwana waliwapa watumwa jini(pombe kali)

0:10:11.083,0:10:14.559
kama namna ya kuwaaminisha kuwa[br]hawawezi kuumudu uhuru.

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Kwa sababu watumwa waliweweseka[br]katika mashamba.

0:10:19.500,0:10:21.500
Patrick alisema anajifananisha na hili.

0:10:22.333,0:10:25.809
Alisema kuwa kuna watu gerezani ambao,[br]kama watumwa,

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hawataki kuwaza juu ya hali zao,

0:10:28.083,0:10:29.893
kwa sababu inawaumiza sana.

0:10:29.917,0:10:32.101
Inaumiza sana kuwaza mambo ya nyuma,

0:10:32.125,0:10:35.458
inaumiza sana kuwaza[br]kuhusu umbali gani tunapaswa kwenda.

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Mstari alioupenda sana ulikuwa huu:

0:10:39.875,0:10:43.476
"Chochote kile, bila kujali chochote,[br]kujiondoa katika kuwaza!

0:10:43.500,0:10:48.542
Ilikuwa ni huku kuwaza kusiko koma kuhusu[br]hali yangu ndiko kunako kipa mateso."

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Patrick alisema Douglass alikuwa jasiri [br]kuandika, ili aendelee kuwaza.

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Lakini Patrick hakufahamu kuwa alionekana [br]kufanana sana na Douglass kwangu.

0:11:00.667,0:11:04.417
Namna alivyoendelea kusoma,[br]ijapokuwa ilimuweka katika hofu.

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Alimaliza kitabu kabla yangu,

0:11:08.333,0:11:12.042
akisoma katika ngazi za [br]zege zisizo na taa.

0:11:13.583,0:11:16.309
Halafu tukaendelea kusoma mojawapo[br]ya vitabu ninavyovipenda,

0:11:16.333,0:11:18.518
Cha Marilynne Robinson's "Gilead,"

0:11:18.542,0:11:22.684
ambayo ni barua endelevu kutoka[br]kwa baba kwenda kwa mwanae.

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Alipenda mstari huu:

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"Ninaandika hii kwa sehemu kukuambia

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ya kwamba kama umewahi kujiuliza[br]kile umekifanya katika maisha yako...

0:11:30.625,0:11:32.643
umekuwa neema ya Mungu kwangu,

0:11:32.667,0:11:35.833
muujiza, kitu ambacho ni zaidi [br]ya muujiza."

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Kitu kimoja kuhusu hii lugha,[br]upendo wake, subira yake, sauti yake,

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iliamsha shauku ya Patrick katika kuandika.

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Na alijaza daftari kwa daftari

0:11:49.417,0:11:52.726
na barua kwenda kwa binti yake.

0:11:52.750,0:11:55.684
katika barua hizi nzuri na imara,

0:11:55.708,0:12:01.684
alijiwazia yeye na binti yake[br]wakipanda mtumbwi katika mto Mississipi

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Alijiwazia yeye na binti yake[br]wakipata vijito vya milimani

0:12:04.542,0:12:06.708
vikiwa na maji masafi bila kasoro.

0:12:08.042,0:12:10.083
Nilipomtazama Patrick akiandika,

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Nilijiwazia mwenyewe,

0:12:13.417,0:12:15.476
na sasa ninawaulizeni nyote,

0:12:15.500,0:12:20.792
ni wangapi wenu mmewahi kuandika barua[br]kwa mtu unayehisi umemwangusha?

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Ni rahisi sana[br]kuwaweka hao watu nje ya fikra zako.

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Lakini Patrick alijitokeza kila siku,[br]akimkabili binti yake,

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akijiwajibisha kwake,

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neno kwa neno kwa umakini wa hali ya juu.

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Ningependa katika maisha yangu binafsi

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kujiweka katika hatari kwa namna hiyo.

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Kwa sababu hatari hiyo inadhihirisha[br]nguvu za moyo wa mtu.

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Ngoja nirudi hatua moja nyuma na niulize[br]swali ambalo linaleta wasiwasi.

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Mimi ni nani kusimulia simulizi hii,[br]hii simulizi ya Patrick?

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Patrick ndiye aliyeishi kwenye [br]maumivu haya

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na mimi sijawahi kukaa na njaa hata [br]kwa siku moja kwenye maisha yangu

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Ninawaza sana kuhusu swali hili,

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lakini ninachotaka kusema ni kuwa hii [br]simulizi sio tu kuhusu Patrick.

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Inatuhusu sisi,

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ni kuhusu tofauti kati yetu.

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Ulimwengu wa vingi

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ambao Patrick na wazazi wake [br]na mababu zake

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hawajawahi kuuona.

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Katika simulizi hii, mimi ninawakilisha[br]huo ulimwengu wa vingi.

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Na katika kueleza simulizi hii[br]sikutaka kujificha mwenyewe.

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Kuficha nguvu ambazo ninazo.

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Katika kueleza simulizi hii,[br]ninataka kuifichua nguvu hiyo

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halafu kuuliza,

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tunawezaje kuipunguza[br]umbali kati yetu?

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Kusoma ni njia mojawapo ya kuipunguza[br]hiyo nafasi.

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Kunatuma ulimwengu wa ukimya[br]ambao tunaweza kuushiriki pamoja,

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ambao tunaweza kuushiriki kwa usawa.

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Inawezekana unajiuliza sasa kuwa[br]ni nini kilitokea kwa Patrick.

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Je kusoma kuliokoa maisha yake?

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Kuliyaokoa na hakukuyaokoa.

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Patrick alipotoka gerezani,

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safari yake ilikuwa ya maumivu.

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Waajiri hawakumkubali kwa sababu[br]ya historia yake,

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rafiki yake mpenzi, mama yake,[br]alifariki katika umri wa miaka 43

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kwa ugonjwa wa moyo na kisukari.

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Alikuwa hana pa kuishi,[br]amekuwa hana chakula.

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Kwa hiyo watu wanasema mengi kuhusu kusoma[br]ambayo kwangu ninahisi wanazidisha chumvi.

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Uwezo wa kusoma haukumzuia yeye[br]asitengwe na jamii.

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Hakukumzuia mama yake asifariki.

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Kwa hiyo kusoma kunaweza kufanya nini?

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Nina majibu machache ninapomalizia leo.

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Kusoma kulibadili utu wake wa ndani

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kwa mambo yaliyofichika na uwezo wa[br]kuwaza kwa picha.

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kwa uzuri.

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Kusoma kulimpa taswira zilizompa furaha:

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milima, bahari, kulungu, theluji.

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Maneno yenye ladha ya ulimwengu huru[br]na halisi.

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Kusoma kulimpa lugha kwa yale aliyopoteza.

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Ni jinsi gani yalivyo mazuri haya maneno [br]kutoka kwa mshairi Derek Walcott?

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Patrick alilikariri hili shairi.

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"Siku ambazo nilizishikilia,

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siku ambazo nilizipoteza,

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siku ambazo zinakuwa kupitiliza,[br]kama mabinti,

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mikono yangu inayoshikilia."

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Kusoma kulimfundisha ujasiri wake[br]mwenyewe.

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Kumbuka kwamba aliendelea kusoma[br]Frederick Douglass,

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ijapokuwa ilikuwa ya kuumiza.

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Aliendelea kuwa makini,[br]ijapokuwa kuwa makini kunauma.

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Kusoma ni aina ya kutafakari,

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ndio maana ni vigumu sana kusoma[br]kwa sababu tunataka kutafakari.

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Na Patrick alichagua kutafakari,[br]badala ya kutokutafakari.

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Na mwishoni, kusoma kulimpa lugha[br]ya kuongea na binti yake.

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Kusoma kulimpa shauku ya kutaka kuandika.

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Muunganiko kati ya kusoma na[br]kuandika ni wenye nguvu sana.

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Tunapoanza kusoma,

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tunaanza kupata maneno.

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Na alipata maneno ya kutafakari[br]wao wawili wakiwa pamoja.

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Alipata maneno

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ya kumwelezea ni namna gani anampenda.

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Kusoma pia kulibadilisha[br]mahusiano baina yetu.

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Kunatupa nyakati za kuwa karibu,

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kuweza kuona zaidi ya mitazamo yetu.

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Na kusoma kulichukua mahusiano ya[br]kutokuwa sawa

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na kulitupa usawa wa muda mfupi.

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Ukikutana na mtu kama msomaji,

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unakutana naye kwa mara ya kwanza,

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kwa upya kabisa.

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Hakuna namna unaweza kufahamu mstari [br]anaoupenda sana ni upi.

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Ni kumbukumbu zipi na huzuni zipi za [br]siri alizonazo.

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Na unakutana na sitara ya hali ya juu[br]ya utu wake wa ndani.

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Na halafu unaanza kushangaa,[br]"Eti,utu wangu wa ndani umejengwa na nini?

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Ni kitu gani nilichonacho cha thamani[br]cha kumshirikisha mwingine?"

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Ninataka kufunga

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kwa mistari yangu ninayoipenda[br]kutoka kwa barua za Patrick kwa bintiye.

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"Mto una kivuli kwenye baadhi ya maeneo

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lakini mwanga unaangaza[br]kupitia mianya ya miti...

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Kwenye baadhi ya matawi[br]muliberi nyingi zimening'inia.

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Unanyoosha mkono wako[br]ili uweze kuyachukua baadhi".

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Na barua hii ya upendo, anapoandika,

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"Fumba macho yako na usikilize[br]sauti ya maneno.

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Ninafahamu shairi hili kwa moyo

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na ningependa pia wewe ulifahamu."

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Ninawashukuruni nyote.

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(Makofi)