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(Music)
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(Everett L Shostrom)Psychotherapy is such
a personal and private process
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that it is a mystery to most people
who have never gone through it
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The following series is a unique effort
that allows us to sit in
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on what is ordinarily
a very private therapeutic experience.
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An actual patient was courageous enough
and considerate enough
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to allow herself to be photographed
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while actually engaged in therapy with
three different therapists.
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Thus we're allowed the privilege
of seeing and feeling
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feeling what really transpires.
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A film series like this,
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in which three therapists distinguished
by their different orientations
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share their therapeutic endeavors
has never been made before.
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We therefore wish to express our gratitude
to Gloria, the patient,
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and to her therapists for allowing us
to share in their therapeutic adventure
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This series will be divided into
three separate films.
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in the first film we see doctor Carl Rogers
founder of client-centered therapy
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interviewing Gloria.
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In film number two, Dr. Frederick Perls,
founder of Gestalt therapy
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is working with her
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and in film number three
Dr. Albert Ellis,
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founder of rational-emotive therapy
is our therapist
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each therapist will first describe
his system of therapy briefly.
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He will then demonstrate
his work with Gloria
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and then he will comment briefly
on his work
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Now here is Dr. Carl Rogers.
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(Carl Rogers) From my own years
of therapeutic experience,
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I have come to feel that
if I can create the proper climate,
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the proper relationship,
the proper conditions,
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a process of therapeutic movement will
almost inevitably occur in my client.
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You may ask: 'What is this climate?
What are these conditions?
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'Will they exist in the interview
with the woman I am about to talk with,
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'and whom I have never seen before?'
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Let me try to describe very briefly
what these conditions are as I see them.
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First of all, one question is,
can I be real in the relationship?
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This has come to have an increasing amount
of importance to me over the years.
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I feel that genuineness
is another way of describing
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the quality I would like to have.
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I like the term 'congruent', by which.
I mean that what I am experiencing inside
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is present in my awareness and comes out
through my communication.
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In a sense, when I have this quality,
I am all in one piece in the relationship.
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There is another word
that describes it for me.
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I feel that in the relationship,
I would like to have a 'transparency.'
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I would be quite willing for my client
to see all the way through me,
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that there would be nothing,
nothing hidden.
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And when lam real in this fashion
that I'm trying to describe,
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then I know that my own feelings will often
bubble up into awareness
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and be expressed,
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but be expressed in ways that won't
impose themselves on my client.
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Then the second question I would have is,
will I find myself prizing this person,
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caring for this person?
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I certainly don't want to pretend
a caring that I don't feel.
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In fact, if I dislike my client
persistently,
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I feel it is better, that I should express it.
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But I know that the process of therapy
is much more likely to occur
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and constructive change
is much more likely
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if I feel a real spontaneous prizing of
this individual with whom I'm working,
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a prizing of this person
as a separate individual.
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You can call that quality acceptance,
you can call it caring,
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you can call it a non-possessive love
if you wish.
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I think any of those terms
tend to describe it.
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I know that the relationship will prove
more constructive if it's present.
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Then the third quality:
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will I be able to understand
the inner world of this individual
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from the inside?
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And then will I be able to see it
through her eyes?
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Will I be able to be sufficiently sensitive
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to move around
inside the world of her feelings
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so that I know what it feels like to be her,
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so that I can sense not only
the surface meanings,
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but some of the meanings that lie
somewhat underneath the surface.
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I know that if I can let myself
sensitively and accurately
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enter into her world of experience,
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then change and therapeutic movement
are much more likely.
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Well, suppose I am fortunate
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and that I do experience
some of these attitudes
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in the relationship, what then?
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Well, then a variety of things
are likely to happen.
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Both from my clinical experience
and from our research investigations
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we find that if attitudes of the sorts
that I have described are present,
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then quite a number of things will happen.
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She'll explore some of her feelings
and attitudes more deeply.
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She is likely to discover
some hidden aspects of herself
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that she wasn't aware of previously.
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Feeling herself prized by me,
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it is quite possible she'll come
to prize herself more.
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Feeling that some of her meanings
are understood by me,
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then she can more readily perhaps
listen to herself,
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listen to what is going on
within her own experience,
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listen to some of the meanings
she hasn't been able to catch before.
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And perhaps if she senses realness in me,
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she'll be able to be a little more real
within herself.
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I suspect there will be a change
in the manner of her expression,
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at least this has been my experience
in other instances.
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From being rather remote
from her experiencing,
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remote from what is going on within her,
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it's possible that she'll move toward
more immediacy of experiencing,
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that she will be able to sense and express
what's going on in her
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in the immediate moment
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From being disapproving of herself,
it is quite possible
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she will move toward a greater degree
of acceptance of herself.
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From somewhat of a fear of relating,
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she may move toward being able
to relate more directly
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and to encounter me more directly.
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From construing life in somewhat rigid
black and white patterns,'
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she may move toward more tentative ways
of construing her experience
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and of seeing the meanings in it.
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From a locus of evaluation
which is outside of herself,
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it is quite possible she will move
toward recognizing
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a greater capacity within herself for
making judgments and drawing conclusions.
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So those are the some of -- those are some
of the changes that we have.
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If I have any success in creating
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the kind of conditions that I described
initially,
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then we may be able to see
some of these changes in this client
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even though I know in advance that our
contact is going to be very brief. /////
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good morning I'm curious you must be
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Barry yes I am I'm service chair no we
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have half an hour together and I really
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don't know what we'll be able to make of
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it but I hope we can make something else
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be glad to know whatever concerns you
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well I'm right now I'm nervous but I
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feel more comfortable the way you're
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talking in a low voice oh I don't feel
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like you'll be so harsh on me but um I
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hear the tremor in your voice ooh a the
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main thing I want to talk to you about
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is stuff I'm just newly divorced and I
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had gone in therapy before and I felt
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comfortable when I left and all of a
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sudden now the biggest change is
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adjusting to my single life and one of
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the things that bother me the most is
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especially manhe's and having men to the
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house and how it affects the children
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and the biggest thing I want the same
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keeps coming to my mind I want to tell
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you about yes I have a daughter 9 who at
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one time I felt I had a lot of emotional
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problems I wish I could stop shaking and
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I real conscious of things affecting her
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I don't want her to get upset I don't
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want to shock her I want so bad for her
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to accept me and will really open with
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each other especially about sex and the
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other day she saw a girl that was saving
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the pregnant and she asked me all about
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teen girls get pregnant if they're
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single and the conversation was fine and
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I wasn't underneath at all with her
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until she asked me if I'd ever made love
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to a man since I've left her daddy and I
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lied to her and ever since that it keeps
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coming up to my mind cuz I feel so
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guilty lying there there cuz I never
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mind
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wanted to trust me and I want I almost
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want an answer from you I want you to
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tell me if it will affect Iran if I told
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her the truth or would and it is
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concerned about her and the fact that
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you really aren't that this open
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relationship that has existed between
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you and I you feel it kind of yes I feel
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like I have to be on guard about that
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because I didn't when I was a little
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girl when I first found out my mother
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father made love it was dirty and
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terrible and I didn't I didn't like her
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anymore
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for a while and I don't want to lie to
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pan me either and I don't know
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sure wish I could give you the answer as
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to what you should tell her all the
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things you're going to say that because
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what you really want is an answer I want
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to especially know if it would affect
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her if I was completely honest and open
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with her or if it would affect her
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because I lied I feel like it's bound to
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make a strain because I lied to her
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because she'll suspect that or she will
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know something's not quite right fine
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she'll distrust me yes and also I
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thought would she what about when she
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gets a little older and she finds
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herself in touchy situation she probably
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wouldn't want to get it to me because
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she thinks I'm so good and so sweet and
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yet I'm afraid she could think I'm
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really a a devil and I want so bad for
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it except me I don't know how much a
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learner can take and we would both
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alternatives concern you but you might
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think you're too good or better than you
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really are
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yes she might think that you're worse
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than you are not worse than I am
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I don't know she can accept me the way I
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I think I paint a picture that I'm all
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sweet and motherly and I'm not ashamed
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of my shady side too
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it really cuts a little deeper if she
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really knew you would she could she
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accept you this is what I don't know yes
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I don't want to turn away from me I
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don't even know how I feel about it
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because there are times when I feel so
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guilty like when I have the wheel over I
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even try to make a special setup so that
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if I were ever along with them the
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children would never catch me and that
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sort of thing because I'm worried about
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it and yet I also know I have these
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desires let's click here it isn't only
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her problem or the relationship with her
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it's in you as well my guilt oh yeah I
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forgive um so what can I accept myself
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as doing yes and you realize that you
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said observed subterfuges so as to make
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sure that that you're not caught or
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something you realize that you are
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acting from guilt is it yes I don't like
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the way I would like to feel comfortable
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with whatever I do if I choose not to
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tell family the truth to feel
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comfortable that she can't handle it and
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they don't I want to be honest and yet I
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feel there are some areas but I don't
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even accept if you can't accept them in
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yourself how could you possibly be
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comfortable and telling them to her
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right and yet did you say you do have
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these desires and you do have your
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feelings but but you don't feel good
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about
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and I thought you're just gonna sit
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there and let me experiment laughs I
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want more I want you to help me get rid
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of my guilt feeling if I can get rid of
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my guilt feeling about lying or going to
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bed with a single man any of that just
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so I can feel more comfortable and I
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guess I'd like to say no I don't want to
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let's just steal in your feelings but on
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the other hand I also feel that this is
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the kind of very private thing that I
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couldn't possibly answer for you that I
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assure is anything we'll try to help you
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work toward your own answer I don't know
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whether that makes any sense to you but
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I mean it well I appreciate you saying
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that you sound like you mean it but I
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don't know where to go
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I don't begin to know where to go I
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thought that I'd pretty well worked over
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most of my guilt and now that this is
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coming up I'm disappointed in myself
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I really am I want I like it when I feel
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that no matter what I do even if it's
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against my own morals or my upbringing
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but I can still feel good about me
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and now I don't like there's a girl at
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work who sort of mothers me and she just
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she I think she thinks I'm all sweet and
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I sure don't want to show my more ornery
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devilish side with her I want to be
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sweet and it's so hard for me to to
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selfie so nil again it's so
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disappointing yeah I get the
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disappointment that here a lot of these
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things you thought you'd work through
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and now the guilts and a feeling that
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only a part of you is acceptable to
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anybody else yeah that keeps coming out
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I guess I could catch the real deep
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puzzlement that you feel as to what the
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hell shall I do yes and you know what I
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can find doctor is that everything I
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start to do that I impulse it seems
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natural to tell Pierre or to go out on a
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day or something
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uncomfortable until I think how I was
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affected as a child and the minute that
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comes up and I'm all haywire like I want
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to be a good mother so bad and I feel
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like I have a good mother but then
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there's those little exceptions like my
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guilts with working I want to work and
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it's so fun having extra money I like to
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work nice the minute I think I'm not
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being real good to the children are
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giving them enough time then I start
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feeling guilty again then that's when I
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get some what do they call it a double
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line that's just what it feels like I
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want to do this and it feels right but
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after all I'm not being a good mother
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and I want to be both
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I'm coming more and more aware of what a
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perfectionist I am that's what it seems
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like I want to be so perfect you know I
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want to become perfect in my standards
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or not have that need anymore or I guess
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I hear it a little differently that what
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you want us to seem perfect but it means
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a great matter of great importance to
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you to be a good mother and you want to
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seem to be a good mother even if some of
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your actual feelings differ from them is
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it okay yeah I feel like I'm saying that
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no that is what I feel really I want to
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approve of me always but my actions
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won't let me I want to prove with me
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I realize you alright let me understand
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it the sound of your actions are kind of
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outside of you you want to approve of
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you but what you do somehow won't let
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you approve of your site like I feel but
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I could approve with myself regarding
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for example my sex life it is the big
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thing if I really fell in love the man
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and I respected him and I adored him I
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don't think I feel so guilty
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going to bed with him I don't think I'd
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have to make up any excuses to the
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children because they could see my
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natural caring form but when they have
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the physical desire and I'll say over
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why not
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and I want to anyway then I feel guilty
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afterwards I hate pleasing the kids I
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don't like looking at myself and I
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really enjoy it and this is what I mean
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if the circumstances would be different
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I don't think it's also guilty because I
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feel right about it yeah I guess I hear
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you saying if if what I was doing when I
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went to bed with a man was really
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genuine and full of love and respect and
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so on I wouldn't feel guilty in relation
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to Pam I wouldn't I really would be
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comfortable about that so I said yes and
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I know that sounds like I want a perfect
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situation but that is how I feel and in
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the meantime I can't stop these desires
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I've tried that also I've tried saying
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okay I don't like myself when I do that
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so I would do it anymore but then I
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resent the children I think why should
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they stop me from doing what I want and
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it's really not that bad
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that I guess I heard just saying - that
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wasn't only the
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that I guess I heard you saying to them
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isn't only the children you don't like
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it as well honey it really isn't I'm
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sure that I know that's it probably even
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more so than I'm aware of that I all
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love it so much when I pick it up in the
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children then I can also moans in myself
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somehow sometimes you kind of feel like
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blaming in for the feelings you have and
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why should they cut you off from a
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normal sex life well a sex life I could
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say not rule because there is something
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about me that says that smell they don't
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think to just go into sex because you
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feel physically attractive or something
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or a physical need so something about it
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tells me that's not quite right anyway
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it's akhil really the times you're
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acting in ways that are not in occurred
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with your own inner standards right
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great but then we're also saying a
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minute ago but to feel you can't help
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that
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yeah I wish I could that's it and I
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can't now I feel like I can't control
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myself as well as I could have before
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for a specific reason now I can't I just
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let go and I have there's too many
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things I do wrong that I have to feel
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guilty for and I sure don't like that
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I want you very much to give me a direct
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answer and I'm going to ask it and I
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don't expect a direct answer but I want
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to know do you feel that to me the most
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important thing is to be open and honest
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and if I can be able to notice with my
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joy do you feel that it could handle
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them if for example I could say to PME I
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was I felt bad lying to the PME and I
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want to tell you the truth now and if I
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tell her the truth and she shocked at me
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which she's upset but that could bother
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her more I want to get rid of my job so
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that will help me but I don't want to
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put him on her okay he thought I could
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hurt her I'm sorry I guess I'm sure this
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will sound evasive to you but it seems
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to me that perhaps the person you're not
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being fully honest glib is you because I
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was very much struck by the fact that
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you were saying if I feel all right
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about what I have done but it's going to
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beg you the man or what if I really feel
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all right about it then I don't have any
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concern about what I would tell him or
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all my relationships with me right all
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right then I hear what you're saying
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then all right then I want to work on I
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want to work on accepting me them I want
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to work on feeling all right about it
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now that makes sense that that will come
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natural and then I will have to worry
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about him but when things don't seem so
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wrong for me and I have an impostor
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driven how can I accept that what you'd
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like to do is to feel more accepting
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toward yourself when you do things that
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you feel are wrong right
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I feel like like I'm saying yeah I feel
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like you're going to say no why do you
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think they're wrong and I have mixed
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feelings there too to therapy I'll say
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no look I know this is natural women
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feel it sure we don't talk about a lot
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socially so all women fill it in it's
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very natural I've had sex for the last
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11 years and of course going to want it
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but I still think it's wrong unless
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you're really truly in love with a man
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and my body doesn't seem to agree that's
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why I don't know how to accept it sounds
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like a triangle to me doesn't it you
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feel that I or therapists in general or
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other people say it's alright it's
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alright natural huh go ahead and I guess
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you feel your body sort of lines up on
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that side of the picture but something
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in you says but I don't like it that way
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not much it's really right
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right
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I have a hopeful sign those are all the
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things I sorted for myself and I feel
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the okay now what if you this is the
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conflict and it's just being soluble and
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therefore its focus and here you look to
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me and I don't seem to give you any help
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than what I am I really really can't
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answer for me I have to figure it out
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myself but I want you to guide me or
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show me where to start or so it won't
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look so hopeless I know I can keep
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living with this conflict and I know
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eventually things would work out but I
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like feeling more comfortable with the
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way I live
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anything I meant is what is it you wish
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I would say to you I wish you would say
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to me
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to be honest and take the risk that Pam
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is going to accept me and I also have a
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feeling if I could really risk it with
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Pammy of all people that I'd be able to
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see here's this little kid that can
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accept me and under they know about that
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if she really knows what a demon I am
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and still loves me and accepts me it
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seems like it would help me to accept me
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more like it's really not that bad I
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want you to say to go ahead and be
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honest but I don't want any sponsor
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berry but it would upset her that's
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right I might be something you know yeah
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you know very well what you'd like to do
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in relationship you would like to be
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yourself and you'd like to have her know
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that you're not perfect and do things
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that maybe even she wouldn't approval to
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disapprove of to some degree yourself
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but that somehow she would love you and
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accept you as an imperfect person
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like I wonder if my mother had been more
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open with world maybe I would have had
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such a narrow attitude about sex if I
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would have thought that she could be you
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know pretty sexy and corny and devilish
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too but I would look at her as being
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such a sweet mother than she could also
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be the other side but she didn't talk
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about that maybe that's where I got my
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picture I don't know but I want Tami to
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see me as a full woman but also accept
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me you know it's not so I'm certain I
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don't do you mean what I mean is you've
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been sitting there telling me just what
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you would like to do in that
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relationship with him I would but I
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don't quite take the risk of doing it
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Leslie already tells me that yes I guess
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one thing that I feel very keenly is
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it's an awfully risky thing to live
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maybe taking a chance on your
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relationship with her taking a chance on
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letting her know who you were really
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even if I don't take a chance if I still
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have an accepted buyer I'm never going
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to sell it about it anyway if your love
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and acceptance of you is based on a
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false picture of you what the hell is
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the good of that but I also feeling a
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lot of responsibility with being a
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mother
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what Idol I don't want to feel like I've
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caused any big traumas and the children
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they don't like all that responsibility
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that's what I don't like feeling it
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could be my fault because that's what I
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meant when I said life is risky to take
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the responsibility for being a person
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you would like to be with her is a
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however responsibility it is a very
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frightening the only way I look at it
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two ways I like to see myself as being
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so honest with the kids and really being
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proud of myself though that no matter
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what I told them or no matter how bad
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they may think I was I was honest and
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down deep it's going to be a much more
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wholesome relationship and yet you know
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I get jealous like when they're with
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their daddy I feel he's more flip he's
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not quite as real he's not quite as
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honest but nevertheless they see a sweet
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picture of their dad
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you know mozell Phyllis tonight and I'm
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envious of that too I want them to see
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was just too sweet if they see him
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I know he's not quite as well with them
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so it seems like I've got to swap the
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one for the other and I know this is
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really what I want the most but I miss
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some of that glory so feel I want them
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to have just as nice a picture of me as
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the head of their dad that is a little
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funny
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then maybe nine I'll have to be - I
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think that's putting a little too strong
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that's close I just bring me I know she
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can have that literature of me if I were
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honest decide that I do go I'm Luna
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honored and dad anyway so I'm like you
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do more things that they disapprove of
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sounds are you really find it quite hard
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to believe what they would really love
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you if they knew that's right you know
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that's exactly it before therapy
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who she cares about need a picture of me
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if I were honest the fact that I do go
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on loan will honor their dad anyway
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unlikely bill more things that said
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disapproval so you really find it quite
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hard to believe but they would really
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love you if they knew you that's right
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you know that's exactly it
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before therapy I would have definitely
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chosen the other area I'm going to get
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respect remain no matter what even if I
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have to lie
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alright now I know that's not true and
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I'm not positive
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they'll truly accept me something tells
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me they will I know diva but I'm not
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positive
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I'll agree sure I keep wanting this in
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kind of a no-man's land of probably
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shifting from one point of view to them
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to another that boy I'd sure like
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somebody to say that's right you go
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ahead and do it yes that's why I get
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encouraged when I read in a book from
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somebody I respect and admire but this
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is the right thing no matter what
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honesty will win out well then that
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keeps giving with compliments by gosh
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and right it it's a damn hard day really
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choose something on their own isn't it
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which makes me feel very immature I
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don't like this I mean I wish I were
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great live enough for mature enough to
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make my decisions we stick by them but I
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need somebody to help me on somebody to
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push me
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so she can approach yourself for that I
-
guess until why if I was anybody if I
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was grown up I'd be mature enough to
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decide things like this price them right
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and take more risk I wish that take more
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risks I wish that I could just go ahead
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and be this with any however the
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children go up I've done with this I
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didn't have to constantly have this
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conflict and I glide Satan used to say
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no matter what you ask me kids at least
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I told you the truth you may not have
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liked it but it's been the truth that's
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all now I can admire I just respect
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people that lie I hate it so you see
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what a good learner I am is I hate
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myself if I'm bad but I also hate myself
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if I lie
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so it's accepting you want to become
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more accepting I guess judging here tone
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of voice you sound as when you hate
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yourself more when you live and do in
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terms of things you disappear really I
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do because this was really bothered me
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this happen with family about a month
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ago and it keeps coming to learn I don't
-
know whether to go back and talk to her
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about it
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oh wait she may have even forgotten what
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she asked me that though everyone does
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you haven't forgotten I have no I like
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at least be able to tell her this I
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remember lying and I'm sorry lied and
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it's been driving me bugs because I did
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I don't know I feel like now that's
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solved and I don't even solve a thing
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but I feel relieved I am I just feel
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like you've been saying to me you're not
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giving me advice but I feel like you're
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saying you really want to know what
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pattern you want to follow Gloria and go
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ahead and follow it that's what I feel
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stacking up for you I guess the way I
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sense it is you've been telling me that
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you know what you want to do and yes I
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do believe in backing up people and what
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they want to do just a little different
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slant from the way it seems to you
-
are you tell me one thing that concerns
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me it's no damn good you're doing
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something that you haven't really chosen
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to do that's why I'm trying to help you
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find out what's your own inner choices
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in and there's also a conflict there
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because I'm not really positive what I
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want to do the lying part yes but I'm
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not positive what I want to do when I go
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against myself like when I bring in the
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end of the house I'm not sure I want to
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do that if I feel guilty afterwards
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unless not really wanted to just to say
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just sure which words you use but you
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don't want it you don't like yourself or
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you don't agree with it when you do
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something against yourself
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you know this is so different now this
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kind of thing that we're talking about
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now
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it isn't just knowing whether you want
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to do something or not if I want to go
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to work in the morning or I don't want
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to go to look that's easy but when I
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find myself doing something I don't feel
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comfortable with I automatically say if
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you're not comfortable glory it's not
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right something's wrong
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all right now what I want to ask you is
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how can I know which is the strongest
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because I do it does that mean that the
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strongest and yet if I disapprove that's
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just part of the thing that's got to go
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on with it see it sounds like you I'm
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picking up a contradiction I'm letting
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you know falling
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some of you feeling a contradiction in
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yourself team oh you what I heard you
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saying in part is the way you like it
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is when you feel really comfortable
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about what you're doing yes and I have
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at times when I've made a decision
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now that seems right that feels
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perfectly right no conflict but then
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there are times I do things that I feel
-
uncomfortable with so that there is the
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conflict there it's not the same at all
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so what I'm saying is how I really know
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when I'm falling my true feelings if I
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have conflicts afterwards or guilt
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afterwards I see because in the moment
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that may seem like your true feelings
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yes like if I'm starting to do it okay
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so it really is tough
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and if you feel comfortable in a moment
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about it but then after it don't feel at
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all comfortable which course of action
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is really the one you should have
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followed the most outstanding thing I
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don't know if you follow me when I say
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about this conflict the one thing I know
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is I boil it for example to leave my
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husband for quite a few years I never
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did it I kept thinking how nice it would
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be or how scary it would be but I never
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did it and all of a sudden when I did it
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felt right I didn't feel mean toward him
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I just knew this is what I had to do
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that's what I know and following myself
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I'm fine my feelings completely had no
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conflict there some of the happy things
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came from it but I still had no conflict
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that to me is will in following my
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feelings and in everyday life the small
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little decisions the small little things
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to do don't come out that clear at all
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so many conflicts coming if it's natural
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although you're saying I expect it is
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but but you're saying TV you know
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perfectly well of feeling within
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yourself that occurs when you're really
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doing something it's right for you I do
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I do and I miss that feeling other times
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it's better way a clue to me you can
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really listen to yourself sometimes
-
realize no no this isn't the vague
-
feeling this isn't this isn't the way I
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would feel if I was doing that I
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we wanted to do but yet many times I'll
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go along and do it anyway
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and say oh well I'm in the situation
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I'll just remember next time I mentioned
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this one a lot in therapy and most
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therapists granite knee or gig or
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something when I say utopia but when I
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do fall or feeling and I feel this good
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feeling inside me that's sort of utopia
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that's what I mean that's the way I like
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to feel whether it's a bad thing or a
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good thing but I feel right about me
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that's what you'll knows utopian moments
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you really feel kind of whole you feel
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all in one piece yeah yeah it gives me a
-
choked up feeling when you say that
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because I don't get that as often as I'd
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like I like that whole feeling that's
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real precious to me xscape none of us
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get it as often as we like but I really
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do understand
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don't touch you didn't and you know
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we're also are just thinking I thought
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he's done saying it
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all of a sudden isn't on here is Betsy
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on right I can talk to you and I want
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you to approve of me and I respect you
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but I miss what my father can talk to me
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like you are way I'd like to say to you
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like you for my father I only know one
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that came to me you look to me like a
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pretty nice gutter
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but you really do miss the fact that you
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couldn't be open with your own game
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you know I couldn't be open below I
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won't blame it on him I think I'm more
-
open than hit alarm II mean II would
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never
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this will be talk like you are and not
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disapprove but not blowing me down it
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yeah I thought of this year the day why
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do I always have to be so perfect I'm
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why he always wanted me to be perfect I
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always had to be better and yeah is that
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it was trying like hell to be the girl
-
he wants you to be you have to same time
-
my darling thank you
-
like I almost started writing in the
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letter the other day and telling him I'm
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a waitress which I expected to
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disapprove of like while at nights and I
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I always quoted hanging back like no how
-
do you like me and yet I really want
-
acceptance and love from him I mean I
-
really never use slapping and say this
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is what I am seeing
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yeah but it amazed me how do you like it
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but you know what I think I want him to
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say and this was you all along for me
-
and I really love you I guess you really
-
feel badly you think there's very little
-
chance you'll say that well maybe it
-
isn't here I went back home in about two
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years ago really really to let him know
-
I loved him although I bit later him but
-
he doesn't hear me he just keeps saying
-
things like honey you know I love you
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you know I've always loved doing shit up
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in here
-
never really known you and loved you and
-
this somehow is what brings the tears in
-
time I don't know what it is you know
-
what it
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never really known you and loved you and
-
this somehow is what brings the tears
-
inside I don't know what it is
-
you know want to talk about it it feels
-
more flip if I just sit still it it
-
feels like a great big hurt down there
-
did I
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mm-hmm much much easier to be a little
-
flip because then you don't feel that
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big lump inside over and again that's a
-
hopeless situation
-
I tried working on it and I feel
-
thinking I have to accept my father just
-
isn't the type of reality like I'd like
-
somebody more understanding and caring
-
he cares but not in the way that we
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cooperate and communicate you'll note
-
that I am permanently cheated hmm that's
-
why I like substitutes like I like
-
talking to you and I like limit I can
-
respect doctors on my I keep sort of
-
maybe underneath feeling like we're real
-
close you know and it's sort of like a
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substitute father
-
I don't feel this became
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well they're not really my father no I
-
meant about the real close business
-
we'll see I think about pretending to
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because I can't expect you to feel very
-
close to me you don't know me that well
-
all I can do is what I am feeling that
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is I feel close to you in this moment
-
in spite of feeling initially
-
artificiality of the situation
-
particularly the hot light I very
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quickly became oblivious to the outside
-
situation and I think the Gloria did too
-
in many ways I'm glad that she kept
-
pushing me for an answer to her Rea
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personal questions about her sex life
-
and her relationship to her daughter I
-
say I'm glad of this because as the
-
relationship developed it became I think
-
completely clear to her as well as to me
-
that she was seeking something a good
-
deal deeper than that incidentally I'd
-
like to pay my tribute to her deep
-
honesty and being willing to talk about
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herself so freely although every
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individual is entirely unique and in
-
this respect I was definitely unprepared
-
for and sometimes surprised by the
-
material she brought up still in another
-
sense this was very typical of my
-
experiences in therapy when I'm able
-
really to let myself enter into a
-
relationship and I feel that this was
-
true in this instance then I find myself
-
not only being increasingly moved by
-
being in touch with the inner world of
-
my client but I find myself bringing out
-
of my own inner experience statements
-
which seem to have no connection with
-
what's going on but which usually proved
-
to be approved to have a very
-
significant relationship to what the
-
client is experiencing I felt there were
-
one or two incidents of this kind
-
in this brief interview I was genuinely
-
moved I probably showed it by the fact
-
that she told me near the end of the
-
contact she saw me as the father she
-
would like to have my reply was also a
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thoroughly spontaneous one that she
-
seemed to me like a pretty nice daughter
-
I guess I feel that we were only playing
-
the real world of relationships when I
-
talk about such an experience in terms
-
of transference and countertransference
-
I feel quite deeply about that I want to
-
say yes we can put this experience and
-
do some such highly intellectualized
-
framework that when we do that it
-
completely misses the point of the very
-
immediate eval quality of the
-
relationship at such moments I felt that
-
Gloria and I really encountered each
-
other and that in some small but I
-
believe lasting way we were each of us
-
enriched by the experience I'm saying
-
these things almost immediately after
-
the conclusion of the interview and as
-
is characteristic of me there are not
-
more than one or two statements or
-
incidents which I recall from the
-
interview I simply know that I was very
-
much present in the relationship that I
-
lived it in the moment of its occurrence
-
and I realized that after a time I may
-
begin to remember it too but at the
-
present time I really have a very
-
nonspecific memory of the whole
-
interview I'll try to look at it though
-
a little bit more from a intellectual
-
rather than a strictly feeling point of
-
view Gloria showed that I've come to
-
feel our characteristic elements of
-
therapeutic movement in the first part
-
of the interview she was talking about
-
her feeling
-
and they were past feelings she was
-
talking about aspects of her behavior
-
and of herself as if she didn't quite
-
own them
-
she was looking outside herself for a
-
center or locus of evaluation some
-
source of authority she saw some of the
-
things she was talking about in fairly
-
black-and-white - fashion by the end of
-
the interview she was experiencing her
-
feelings in the immediate moment not
-
only as evidenced by her tears but by
-
her ability to express very directly and
-
with immediacy her feelings toward me
-
she was also much more aware of her
-
ability to make her own judgments and
-
choices I guess put in terms that have
-
become somewhat commonplace you could
-
say that she moved from the there and
-
then of her life to the here and now of
-
elements that she was discovering in
-
herself and feelings that she was
-
experiencing in the moment in her
-
relationship with me all in all I feel
-
good about the interview I guess I feel
-
good about myself in the interview and
-
like Gloria I feel very real regret that
-
the relationship cannot continue
-
you
-
I am to interview a patient and I'd like
-
to give you some thumbnail sketch of
-
what Gestalt therapy stands for Agatha
-
is working on an equation awareness
-
equal Pleasant time equal reality in
-
contrast to depth psychology we try to
-
get hold of the obvious of the surface
-
of the situation in which we find
-
ourselves and to develop the emerging to
-
start strictly on the eye and thou it
-
now basis any escape into the future or
-
the past is the exam as a likely
-
resistance against the ongoing encounter
-
modern man has edited even up so much of
-
his potential but his ability to cope
-
with his existence becomes very
-
impoverished my aim is this
-
the patient should recover his lost
-
potential he should integrate the
-
conflicting celeritas understand the
-
difference between being playing
-
especially the playing of verbal games
-
on the one hand and of genuine authentic
-
be a confident behavior on the other the
-
civil war of inner conflicts weakens the
-
efficiency in comfort of the patient but
-
every bit of integration strength need
-
now in the same emergency of the
-
therapeutic saturation I repeat in the
-
safe emergency of the therapeutic
-
situation the patient begins to take
-
risks into transforms energies from
-
manipulating the environment for support
-
into developing greater greater self
-
support when its reliance on his own
-
resources this process is called
-
maturation
-
once the patient has learned to stand on
-
its own feet emotionally intellectually
-
and economically his need for therapy
-
will collapse we wake up from the
-
nightmare of his existence
-
the basic technique is this not to
-
explain things to the patient but to
-
provide the patient with opportunities
-
to understand and to discover himself
-
for this purpose I manipulate and fasted
-
the patient in such a way that he's
-
confronting himself in this process he
-
identifies with his lost potential for
-
instance through assimilating his
-
projections by acting out by acting out
-
the alien parts of himself instantly I
-
consider any interpretation to be a
-
therapeutic mistake as this one implies
-
that the therapist understands the
-
patient paper and the patient himself
-
takes away from the patient he chance of
-
discovering himself by himself and
-
prevents him from finding out his own
-
values and style and the other hand I
-
guess I got most of the content of what
-
the patient says and concentrate most on
-
the nonverbal level as this is the only
-
which only one which is less subject to
-
self-deception in his verbal pseudo self
-
expression on the nonverbal level the
-
relevant is start and always emerge and
-
can deadly in the here and now
-
we are going to interview for happened
-
right away I'm scared you see you're
-
scared but you're smiling I don't
-
understand how it can be scared and
-
smile at the same time
-
and I'm also suspicious of you I think
-
you understand very well I think you
-
know that when I get scared I laugh or I
-
kid to cover up but do you have stage 5
-
I don't know I'm mostly aware of you I'm
-
afraid that I'm afraid you're going to
-
have such a direct attack that you're
-
going to get me in the corner and I'm
-
afraid of it I want you to be more on
-
myself I get you in your corner you put
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your hand on your chest this is your
-
call well it's like yeah it's like I'm
-
afraid no way would you like to go can
-
you describe the calling like to go to
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yeah it's back in corner where where I'm
-
completely protected they would be safe
-
of me for me
-
well I know I wouldn't really well in
-
their chosen yeah made you in this color
-
you're perfectly safe now but what you
-
doing the girl I just said mister just
-
see how long would you sit I don't know
-
but this is so funny as you're saying
-
this this reminds me of when I was a
-
little girl
-
every time I was afraid I feel better
-
sitting in a corner okay you hanneke I
-
didn't get you good
-
well no but it's the same feeling are
-
you good this feeling reminds me of it
-
oh you know no not
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oh are you when you're not the little
-
kid yeah okay
-
so your thought your girl who's afraid
-
of a guy like I don't even know yeah I
-
don't know I'll be afraid of you I get
-
real defensive with you know what can I
-
do to you
-
you can't do anything but I can sure
-
feel down and I can feel stupid for not
-
having the right answers now what would
-
it do for you to be feel dumb and stupid
-
I hate it when I'm stupid what would it
-
do for you to be dumb and stupid
-
don't put it so like this what would you
-
do to me if you would play dumb and
-
stupid it makes you all the smarter and
-
all the higher above me then I really
-
have to look up to you because you're so
-
smart
-
yeah but me how practically no I think
-
you can do that all by yourself I think
-
the other way along if you play dumb and
-
stupid you force me to be more explicit
-
that's been said to me before but I
-
don't buy it I don't know what I do with
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your feet now wiggling joke now oh I'm
-
afraid to go knows everything I do she
-
told me I want you to help me become
-
more relaxed yes I don't want to be so
-
defensive with you I don't like to feel
-
so defensive
-
you're acting like you're treating me as
-
if I'm stronger than I am and I want you
-
to protect me more and be nicer to me
-
are you will feel smile don't believe
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about your cords sure bluff your phony
-
do you believe you mean it seriously
-
yeah if you see your faded you laugh and
-
you bigger than you still it's funny put
-
the performance for me oh I I resent
-
that very much explicit yes sir I most
-
certainly I'm not being funny I I will
-
admit this it's hard for me to show my
-
embarrassment and I hate to be
-
embarrassed but boy I resent you calling
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me a phony just because I smile when I'm
-
embarrassed or I'm put in the corner
-
doesn't mean I'm being a phony wonderful
-
fiction he didn't spend for the last
-
minute
-
well I met you I am that's right it
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didn't have to cover up your hangovers
-
your smile
-
no in that moment in that minute you had
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not therefore well at that minute I was
-
mad though I wasn't embarrassed
-
neither to you mention of the phony I
-
still resent that I'm not involved with
-
him nervous again I want to get mad at
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you I you know what I want you on my
-
level so I can pick on you just as much
-
as you're picking on me
-
okay pic of me
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I have to wait till you say something I
-
can pick on better what does this mean
-
can you develop this movement it's I
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can't find words I want to develop this
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but if you went dancing I want to start
-
all over again with him
-
okay that's some fun I don't Collier I'd
-
like to put you on I'd like to ask you a
-
question and because I have a feeling
-
you don't like me right off the bat and
-
I want to know if you do can you not
-
play put spells not like a Gloria what
-
would he say he'd say that she's a phony
-
for one see you our food you're a phony
-
and you're a flip little girl and your
-
show-off what would look absolutely
-
I know what I'd answer I'd say I think
-
you are too
-
you'll say tell this to me he told me
-
what before you got him
-
secret tip for
-
for me I'm not quite the right word but
-
it's more like a a show-off sure I can't
-
know all the answers
-
yeah and I want you to be more human and
-
that doesn't seem very human to me no
-
it's not about you
-
Yeah right away find out how I'm kicking
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my feet and why am i doing like this why
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are you doing like that oh yeah I've got
-
eyes I can see you're kicking your feet
-
I don't need a scientific computer to
-
see that you're kicking your feet let's
-
think about that I don't need to be wise
-
to see the chicken feet I know but it
-
seems like you're trying to find some
-
reason for it I don't
-
this year imagination okay I know what
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I'd like from you can I tell you what
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I'd like Sunita
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I'd like you to be aware that I'm
-
kicking my feet and to be aware that I'm
-
giggling when I'm really nervous and
-
accept it instead of putting me on the
-
defensive having to explain it I don't
-
want to have to explain why I'm doing
-
these things you could scream
-
you said why am i or what am i doing
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well what am i doing he said it's right
-
kicking your feet I didn't ask you to
-
explain the see imagination
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it's not this for it is the foots of
-
your imagination big difference
-
to the circuit again you feel now
-
hello stupid
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I'm not playing stupid I don't know this
-
is plain stupid
-
you get something with you here there
-
it's very chance something my hair with
-
you object to know okay
-
no but I your your hair and your
-
features go along with the feeling I had
-
about you earlier I had a phone I could
-
be afraid of you and you're the type of
-
person that seems like you're Demian so
-
much respect and song Europe these
-
favorites
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I demand so much respect okay that's
-
what you just saw
-
well you know how smart I am I know more
-
about psychology than you do Gloria so
-
anything I say of course is right can
-
you say the same is Gloria something
-
similar is global but the same I guess
-
Chloe
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I demand respect because
-
I don't know
-
no I don't identify it with my father
-
but not me I don't feel like a man
-
respect the man no sure I mean I think
-
I'd like more I'd like you to respect me
-
more well you see so your demand respect
-
alright yeah yeah so am i right if I
-
click demand respect from you I would do
-
who's preventing you except yourself
-
because I feel if I get myself out on
-
the corner here let me just drown you're
-
not going to help me one bit and I know
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that I can't quite come up to standards
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with you what should i do then you're
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the chrome encourage me to come out oh
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we don't have enough courage to come out
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by yourself
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you need something for little limbs in
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the stairs out of it oh yeah so anytime
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you want somebody to pay attention to
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you call into a corner and wait till
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your car service that's exactly what I'd
-
like and this is what I call fun part
-
knee this is for the court for me why is
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it funny I'm admitting to you what I am
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how is that a funny that is a phony
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because it's a trick it's a gimmick the
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quality of Colin wait until somebody
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comes to us I'm admitting it I know what
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I'm doing I'm not being funny I'm not
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pretending I'm so brave I resent that I
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feel like you're saying unless I come
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out openly and stand on my own I'm not a
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phony baloney I'm just just as real
-
sitting in that corner as I am out here
-
all by myself but ends up sitting in New
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Mexico well not now
-
and besides that it's like passing
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judgment when you call me phony I just
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hate that anyway now we are getting
-
something I call anybody phony who put
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some necked and if you like somebody you
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want to meet this person to go to this
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person tell them I would like to meet
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you I would call not for me but if you
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consciously go into the corner and
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waiting to be rescued this I call for me
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here's a copy and I still think you're
-
judgmental you know what I have a
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feeling you've never felt this way in
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your life you feel so secure that you
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don't have to feel anybody that does
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something like this you're gonna pass
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judgment on their being a phony while I
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resent it no play puts passing judgment
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or you're sitting up there in your big
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old chair I'm the type a stretcher
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how's catchman on Mila
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I don't feel close to you at all dr.
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pearls I feel that's Tony I feel like
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you're playing one big game
-
what sure it playing games but in spite
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of the games I think I touch you now and
-
then I think I'm out you in our culture
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food of course you did
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and I think I hit the bull's eye that's
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why you feel hot
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I don't know all I know is when somebody
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when I feel the way I feel with you
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right now
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I it's like you don't have feelings
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right now
-
accentuate this but you just like that's
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it talk to you like I can't I can't I
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want to laugh I want to I'd like you to
-
be younger than me so I could really
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scold you how it must have been my h3
-
good at something now imagine I know
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yours could okay don't be so cocksure
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yourself don't think you're so doggone
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smart
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don't act so proud because you've never
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been in the corner I think you can be
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just as big a phony parading around like
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you're so damn smart you know all the
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answers as much as me sitting in my
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corner
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oh and I like the feeling with you being
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younger I'd like to really I'd like to
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embarrass you
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it does when you every what you wouldn't
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get embarrassed you see my affected
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Bettis me how hard how ugly I am
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you don't look alike when you look
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distinguished
-
that gives us all the more on your side
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if you look so distinguished then see
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that's more on your side too right oh
-
yeah can you see Swanson with quite a
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good fire no I know no that's it
-
I don't think you're fighting with me
-
but I thought you came out quite a bit
-
know how manager wonderful but you seem
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so detached you don't even seem to care
-
that I'm mad at you for not recognizing
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me at all doctor Pearl's not a bit this
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is quite true our contact is much too
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superficial to be involved in cave I
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care for you as far as let's see you all
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right now my client I care for you as
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far as I'd like to like an artist in
-
something hug which is hidden
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this is fire care
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well I'd like you to I'd like to feel
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that there's some it's frustrating if I
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were to leave you right now and not see
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again it would frustrate me to feel like
-
there haven't been more contact I feel
-
completely out of contact with you like
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I'm talking to the baby that doesn't
-
understand me or something like that I
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don't feel like we're a bit in contact
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and that frustrates me that bothers me
-
more than being angry with you I'd
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rather we were angry and fought and to
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have no contact yeah this reminds me of
-
when my husband and I used to fight he
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sits there and he listens to me but he's
-
not even aware of how much I hate him
-
and how mad I am at him I'd rather say
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I'd love it rather affect you you didn't
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really hate me or something and I feel
-
like you're purposely staying out of
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contact with me how should I be
-
give me a fantasy how could I share my
-
concern with here
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I can't say in words I know the feeling
-
I'd seen on you but I can't say it's
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just a feeling like I don't know it's
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like I want you to respect me more as a
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human being that I've got feelings now
-
we come back to the beginning so you
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won't respect yes I do I do
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this is a different kind of respect and
-
I won it the first time but you want to
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eat this yes
-
I respect you so much as you deem that I
-
refuse to accept the phony part of
-
yourself and I trust myself to the
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genuine part right now the last few
-
minutes we were wonderfully generally
-
women playing anymore I could see you
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very good okay
-
well I don't feel I've got it right when
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I felt like somebody or I disagree what
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somebody's doing if if I should respect
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them if they're above me they're
-
superior to me I don't feel I've got a
-
right to really really tell you how mad
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I am it's it's village
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we're not take it to chicken you're
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taking pic to your safe corner that's
-
the way it feels
-
that's what the seed corn feels like to
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me now go back to your safe crop because
-
we have to pop well so you steal
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yourself collar you came out for a
-
moment
-
you nearly met me could get a little bit
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angry with me
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okay for your safety I feel like you're
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telling me the only way you respect me
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as a human being if I'm aggressive and
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forceful in strong yeah I thought you
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couldn't even accept mine I'd be scared
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to death to cry in front of you I feel
-
like you'd laugh at me and call me a
-
phony I feel like you don't accept my
-
weak side only when I'm yelling back at
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you were hollering at you you must
-
define Memphis well I wouldn't even give
-
you the satisfaction see this again no
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see the ticket
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I try not to I try not to cry in front
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of you or show my weak spot for period
-
jump on me again
-
hey that your eyes are most I'm aware
-
that I feel more jokey yes I feel it
-
could you choke me
-
pretend but not for real women for me
-
because I don't hate you that much
-
anyone who took my history with me to
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choke you so you would be crying I'd
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like to I'd like to choke you it would
-
be to make you cry I'd like to see you
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weak I'd like to see you hurt and
-
vulnerable
-
refer to this thing for you
-
make me feel like I'm I have more of a
-
right to be heard you went jump on me so
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quick would you jump on me if I would
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cry
-
no but I would jump on you if you would
-
cry
-
you sure this
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no I'm not sure
-
but what would you like me to do if you
-
were to cry
-
are you smiling you're trying something
-
off
-
well because I got two feelings I was
-
gonna say I want you to I want you to
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love me and hug me but then I thought no
-
I don't want to what's your passion I'd
-
be scared to be too close to you now
-
we're getting somewhere
-
first you want to be close to me now
-
your fate to be too close just what I'm
-
saying
-
that's right now we got the two ports of
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exist look they're two different
-
feelings close I mean emotionally but
-
not physically affected two ports of
-
existence now I have a far away in the
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corner I'll be so close that you can
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melted to run with other person the
-
penalty travel between the two extremes
-
I do you know what I'm thinking when I
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am really hurt and really upset about
-
something and I want someone to love me
-
like my girlfriend will do a lot and
-
she'll come up to hug me I don't I don't
-
want it see what I'm talking about
-
you cannot sustain contact
-
okay this isn't damage but I think if
-
you hit too close to your foe and if you
-
let her hug you
-
the only thing I'm aware of is like when
-
I perspire it embarrasses me that should
-
feel how wet I am and it should hold my
-
body up close and I don't know I'll feel
-
fish it's question yeah yes I am I do
-
this more geeky
-
is it itchy I can just feel what it is I
-
don't like it you see this to me put
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your icky
-
you know
-
that's a difficulty because I feel like
-
if you really believe me that one hurt
-
your feelings oh you must love my
-
feelings wow I thought that was so
-
indifferent sissy before that road
-
nothing could touch me now you suddenly
-
discovered the way to touch me isn't it
-
well you know what I believe I believe
-
you're the type of person sort of like
-
really that you act like it wouldn't
-
hurt your feelings but it really would
-
Black's strong but you you're soft and
-
vulnerable inside there too I think your
-
feelings could be hurt sure but I don't
-
think you'd show it very easy look what
-
I do I would I could see to my feelings
-
I turning it back on me
-
I think now what did you get from that
-
Gloria you turn the whole thing back on
-
me instead of showing another jewel
-
now can you see this to puts out to you
-
what did you get out of this face see
-
this to me would you get out of what but
-
you just see Mississippians
-
sure I know what you'd get out of it if
-
I said what did you get out of this rich
-
kid say nothing it didn't bother me it
-
was you that didn't you still wouldn't
-
let me know you were hurt but I know
-
what it would be if you told your true
-
feelings but you didn't want to show
-
your hurt so you covered it up same way
-
with me in the corner
-
not if I well if I would cry what would
-
you do this
-
you would be you wouldn't be so superior
-
to me you'd be more vulnerable and I
-
could pacify you and make you feel
-
better
-
good hard for me yes and I could be the
-
babe yes yes I'd like that
-
he had feel more on my level I wouldn't
-
have to feel so done with you the other
-
way Paul who would have to be my baby
-
she would cry we would like to pay the
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baby and be comforted in Parkton the
-
poor thing every man to
-
attend something came to mass closure
-
he came to little bit of understatement
-
I think we finish this simple situation
-
well
-
the demonstration was in my opinion
-
quite successful and consistent with my
-
theoretical outlook the avoidance of the
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genuine encounter manifested itself in
-
three ways
-
the patient was first taking control by
-
putting on a smiling sophisticated phony
-
mask of oscillating between the pretense
-
of being frightened and yet at the same
-
time having me figured out that's being
-
or believing to be fully in control of
-
the situation secondly she was
-
withdrawing by fantasizing of hiding in
-
a corner Berkeley she was blocking the
-
real encounter of melting through crying
-
which then would have been the real
-
emotional meaning of this meeting the
-
patient was capable of identifying her
-
surface several fantasies she had
-
projected onto me she was this was
-
especially evident with regard to her
-
initial denial for need to be respected
-
the need for environmental support
-
started to come out beside so need to
-
get respect
-
it was normalized in a wish to be cared
-
for rescued from the corner and so on I
-
broke off the session when the first
-
tears begin to appear she began to play
-
the role of a lonely child and
-
apparently wanted to be hugged and
-
comforted adhere to a simulation of a
-
projection began to work she began to
-
experience holding me like a baby
-
apart from
-
assisting in assimilating and some
-
projections they made therapeutic factor
-
was to show how the inconsistency of a
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verbal and nonverbal behavior for
-
instance saying that she was frightened
-
and smiling at the same time a
-
frightening person does not smile may I
-
fear it was in the direction of
-
embarrassment this embarrassment was
-
protected by the brazenness and anger to
-
get to exist the existential
-
embarrassment we would have to work
-
through and eliminated the phone in this
-
that is the ease with which we can
-
superficially assume any role that is
-
required for a specific situation
-
this suit adaptation is her way of
-
coping with life this is about what I
-
got out of this session
-
you
-
rationale therapy a rational emotive
-
therapy also called
-
RT for short is based on several
-
fundamental propositions or hypotheses
-
the first of these is that the past is
-
not crucial in a person's life
-
the past affects him a good deal but he
-
effects himself much more than the past
-
affects him because no matter what he
-
has learned during his historical
-
development the only reason why these
-
things that have happened to him and
-
have been told to him affect him today
-
is because he is still re indoctrinating
-
himself with the same philosophies of
-
life the same values that he usually
-
imbibed and taught himself to early in
-
his childhood so we stick largely in the
-
present in rational emotive
-
psychotherapy rather than in the past
-
and we believe that today the individual
-
experiences negative emotions
-
self-defeating behavior inefficiencies
-
because he now is indoctrinating himself
-
with what we call simple exclamatory
-
sentences which involve ideas human
-
beings can tell themselves ideas in all
-
kinds of languages and pictures in sign
-
languages and non verbal expression in
-
man for example but they normally speak
-
to themselves in simple English if
-
English is their native tongue and when
-
they talk to themselves in an irrational
-
or an illogical way then they create
-
they literally create their negative
-
feelings or emotions in the behavior
-
that follows their from now just to give
-
an example the individual usually tells
-
himself when he's upset first the same
-
sentence and then an insane that
-
the same sentence is something along the
-
order of I don't like the thing that
-
I've done I dislike my own behavior and
-
that would be fun but unfortunately he
-
follows it with an insane sentence which
-
says to himself and because I don't like
-
my behavior I am a louse I am worthless
-
I am a no-goodnik and this thoroughly
-
insane sentence which is a sentence of
-
faith unfounded on fact which has no
-
empirical reference which is a kind of
-
superstitious or dogmatically religious
-
system creates what we call his anxiety
-
and through his anxieties depression his
-
guilt
-
there's other forms of self defeatism or
-
again the individual tells himself the
-
same sentence I don't like your behavior
-
when let us say somebody's acted badly
-
with him and instead of following that
-
up with that because I don't like your
-
behavior I can still stand it and I'm
-
going to try to change to get you to
-
change your behavior he says I can't
-
stand your behavior or in an absolute
-
istic god-like grandiose manner you
-
shouldn't be the way you are because I
-
think that I don't like the way you are
-
now it's the second B sentences which
-
upset the individual or another way of
-
putting it as epictetus a Roman
-
philosopher said many years ago it's not
-
what happens to us at point-a that it
-
upsets us it's be a view of what happens
-
to us and in rational emotive
-
psychotherapy we go after this
-
individual the patient's view and show
-
him that whatever he thinks is upset him
-
usually some external situation what
-
somebody else has done it's really what
-
he's telling himself about this thing
-
this event which upsets him and although
-
he may never be able to do anything
-
about the external event at a he can
-
change the internal event his sentence
-
is belief to himself at D now in
-
rational emotive psychotherapy we try to
-
show the patient three kinds of insight
-
and counted distinctions to some other
-
therapies which usually emphasize one
-
magic on the first kind we try to show
-
him is that all his behaviors especially
-
his negative self-defeating behavior
-
which we're interested which is
-
upsetting him has clear-cut ideological
-
antecedents he may have learnt these as
-
I said before in the past but right now
-
today he must still believe these same
-
ideologies else he would not get the
-
negative behavior that flows therefrom
-
and insight number two which is most
-
important than which is unfortunately
-
neglected and many other systems of
-
psychotherapy is that he being as Ernst
-
casera once said a symbolizing animal is
-
continually re-induction aiding himself
-
with these ideologies and that's the
-
issue that's why he's now disturbed now
-
in sight number three is that even when
-
he sees clearly what he's telling
-
himself and that he's telling himself
-
nonsense only by work and practice by
-
continually reassessing and revaluing
-
his own philosophical will he ever get
-
better
-
now we also stress the fact that action
-
is necessary to change an individual
-
just talking about things thinking about
-
things is nice but not necessary I
-
should say it's not a necessary
-
condition for psychotherapeutic can
-
change the change what the individual
-
has to do in addition usually is act and
-
we therefore give him concrete homework
-
assignments and get him to act these out
-
and check up and follow to see whether
-
he does these homework assignments and
-
our final goal is to get the individual
-
to learn and learn for the rest of his
-
life to challenge and question his own
-
basic value system his own thinking so
-
that he
-
really thanks for himself he must do
-
this particularly when he feels
-
miserable he feels anxiety or depression
-
or guilt or too much frustration or
-
anything else that is negative or when
-
he behaves very inefficiently and
-
finally he was able through this kind of
-
you thinking rethinking his own
-
assumptions to apply what we call the
-
scientific method to the facets of human
-
living and to be truly scientific in his
-
behavior to question and challenge his
-
own assumptions as we do in science and
-
thereby to minimize or never entirely to
-
eliminate the terrible anxiety and the
-
atrocious hostility which unfortunately
-
affects most of us in this existence
-
well Gloria I'm not relevant yeah after
-
we hit it
-
well would you like to tell me what's
-
bothering you most yeah I think the
-
things that I'd like to talk to you the
-
most about are adjusting to my single
-
life mostly men I guess America diet I
-
don't know if I'm doing the wrong thing
-
but I'm going to refer to your book
-
anyway because this is what I'm
-
impressed with this book about the
-
intelligent Woman's Guide to man 9 yeah
-
tried to follow it and I believe in it
-
this is why it's so fun reading your
-
book because I'm not much of a reader
-
but I sort of believe the same way you
-
do
-
but then I've got a problem is there
-
healthy men that I do I'm attracted to
-
or the type of man I'd like to become
-
closely as always I can't seem to meet
-
or I get to shower with or something
-
that I don't
-
it just doesn't click the men I seem to
-
be dating nowadays are the ones that I
-
don't respect much the ones I don't
-
enjoy much the same blip and
-
uninteresting and I don't know if it's
-
something about me or what because I
-
really do want to meet this kind of man
-
well let's talk a little about your
-
shyness let's suppose you meet somebody
-
who you consider eligible but you might
-
walk now let's see if we can get at the
-
source of your shyness just what you're
-
telling yourself to create this you meet
-
this man and you feel shy and Bharath
-
yes but I don't usually show that I
-
usually act slip right back yeah I act
-
like the other man act to me of America
-
kayak flip
-
I don't seem near as intelligent I act
-
like a typical dumb blonde I'm just I'm
-
just not myself with him I'm more on a
-
tease yes well as you probably know from
-
x-man hunting I believe that people only
-
get
-
emotions such as negative emotions of
-
shyness embarrassment shame because they
-
tell themselves something in simple
-
explanatory sentences now let's try to
-
find out what you're telling yourself
-
you're meeting this individual now what
-
do you think your sink is up before you
-
get I didn't know what it is that I'm
-
not I don't stand up to his expectations
-
I'm not quite enough for him he's
-
superior to me although I want this type
-
of man I'm afraid
-
I won't have enough to attract him well
-
that's the first part of the sentence
-
that might be a true one because maybe
-
he could be spirit to you in some ways
-
maybe he wouldn't be attracted to you
-
but that would never upset you if you
-
were only saying that I think he may be
-
superior to me now you're adding a
-
second sentence to that which is if this
-
is so that would be awful
-
well not quite so extreme as that
-
because I thought about that too it
-
usually I've missed my chance again
-
because when I want to become I want to
-
show the very best of myself because I
-
think I have self-confidence and I have
-
enough to offer when I get afraid like
-
that then I show all the bad qualities i
-
ĂŹm flip on then I'm so much on the
-
defensive that I can't show my good
-
qualities and it's like I miss my chance
-
again there was a good opportunity to be
-
close to this man and I Loused it up
-
again all right but even let's suppose
-
you're saying that and I think you're
-
really off but you must be saying
-
something else too because if you were
-
just saying hell I missed my chance
-
again you'd say all right next time I'll
-
take advantage of what I learned this
-
time and do it a little better now you
-
still must be saying if you feel shame
-
embarrassment shine there's something
-
pretty bad about your error in missing
-
your chance again I don't know if this
-
follows in contact what you're saying
-
but the thing I do feel is that I get
-
suspicious then am I the type of woman
-
that will only appeal to the ones that
-
are
-
not my type of guy anyway is there
-
something wrong with me am I never going
-
to find the kind of man I enjoy I always
-
seem to get the other one all right now
-
you're getting closer to what I'm
-
talking about because you're really
-
saying if I am this type of woman that
-
none of these good eligible males are
-
going to appeal to then that would be
-
awful I never get what I want and that
-
would really be something frightful
-
I don't like thinking of myself that way
-
I want to put myself on a higher
-
standard I don't like to think that I
-
may be just an average Jane Doe so let's
-
just suppose for the second argument at
-
the moment that that were sir that you
-
were an average Jane Doe now would that
-
be so terrible would be inconvenient it
-
would be unpleasant you wouldn't want it
-
but would you get an emotion like
-
shyness embarrassment shame out of just
-
believing that maybe I'm going to end up
-
like Jane Doe I don't know I don't think
-
it could because you still would have to
-
be saying on some level as I think
-
you've just said and it would be very
-
bad it would be terrible I would be a
-
no-goodnik if I would just watch it I
-
don't never get what I want if I were
-
just a Jane Doe and I thought I have to
-
accept it I'd never get what I want and
-
I don't want to live the rest of my life
-
with just kicking in well why not
-
necessarily so you've never you really
-
mean your chances would be reduced
-
because we know some icky girls who get
-
some splendid men don't yeah if they say
-
you're generalizing there you're saying
-
it probably would be that I'd have a
-
more difficult time but then you're
-
jumping to therefore I'd never get at
-
all you ain't a catastrophizing there
-
that you jump to yes but it feels that
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way to me at the time it seems like
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forever that's right but isn't that a
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vote of non-confidence in you an
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essential vote of non-confidence and the
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non-confidence is because you're saying
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one I don't want to miss out on I think
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I would like to get the kind of a man I
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want and be a in your word superior kind
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of girl who gets a superior kind of man
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yes but if I don't then I'm practically
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on the other side of the chain
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completely a no-goodnik somebody will
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never
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anything that I want which is quite an
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extreme away isn't it yes and that's
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what I call catastrophizing taking a
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true statement and there is a good deal
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truth what you're saying if you didn't
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get the kind of a man you watch it that
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it would be inconvenient annoying
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frustrating which it really would be and
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then saying I'd never possibly get what
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I want and even beyond that you're
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really saying and then I couldn't be a
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happy human being aren't you really
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saying that but let's just look at that
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let's just assume the worst the
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spiritual Russell once said years ago
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assume the worst that you never got at
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all for whatever the reasons may be the
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kind of a man you want look at all the
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other things you could do in life to be
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happy well I don't like the whole
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process I don't even like if I'm going
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through it I don't all right even if it
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wasn't a catastrophe yeah even if I
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didn't look at it as a catastrophe I
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don't like the way I'm living right now
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for example when I meet somebody that
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I'm interested in that could have some
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potential by the way I find I'm not near
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as relaxed with him I worry more should
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I be friendly should I kiss him
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goodnight should I do this if it's just
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a Joe doe and I don't give it on I can
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be anything I want to be I turn out to
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be more of a person when I'm not as
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concerned I don't like the way I'm up
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well I would you're not you're not
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really concerned you're over concerned
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you're anxious because you were just
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concerned you do your best you'd be
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saying yourself
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if I succeed great if I don't succeed
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top right now I won't get what I want
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but you're over consider actions you're
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really saying again that's what you said
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a moment ago if I don't get what I want
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right now I'll never get it and that
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would be so awful that I've got to get
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it right now that causes the anxiety
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doesn't it yes or else work toward it
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yes but if I don't get it right now
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that's alright but I want to feel like
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I'm working toward it yes that you want
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a guarantee I hear my trained ears hear
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you saying I would like a guarantee of
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working towards there are none sir well
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no dr. house
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I don't know why I'm coming out that way
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what I really mean is I want a step
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toward working toward it
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well I bother you I don't know I thought
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well what I was hoping is whatever this
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isn't me why I don't seem to be
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attracting these coming and why seem on
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the defensive why I seem more afraid you
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could help me when it is I'm afraid of
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so I won't do it so much well my
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hypothesis is so far that what you're
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afraid of is not just family with this
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individual man which is really the only
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thing at issue when you go out with a
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new and we're talking about eligible
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males I will rule out the ineligible one
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you're not just afraid that you'll miss
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this one
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you're afraid that you'll miss this one
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and therefore you miss every other and
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therefore you prove that you are really
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not up to getting what you want and
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wouldn't that be awful you're bringing
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in these catastrophe you sound more
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strong in it but that's similar I feel
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like this is Cecilia if I keep this up
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because I think I'm doing there's
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something I'm doing that to be as real a
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person with these men that I'm
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interested as write your defeating your
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own ends but I've done it again if I
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weren't so doggone anxious about trying
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to hook this guy I could be more real
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he's going to enjoy me more if I'm real
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anyway so I'm only giving him the stinky
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part of me right how can anybody I
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respect respect it's a church and that's
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what I am when I don't really come
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through but look how you just devalued
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yourself let's just suppose in sake of
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argument you kept giving the stinky part
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of you a human being another person
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who's trying to get interest in you
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might not like these attributes these
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characteristics of you but I don't think
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he's going to despise you as a person
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who's you are really doing I don't I'm
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writer on myself and I think that's
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exactly of course like me there's not
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enough to me right and I say before if
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people just didn't like you when you
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went through enough of lemon it would be
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hard to go through enough that it would
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be possible you'd eventually find one
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who did like you and whom you like but
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as long as you devalue yourself
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personally in your own eyes you
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complicate the problem enormous ly and
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you're not focusing on how can I be
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myself
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change the traits if you for example
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Hedy let us just say a mangled arm and
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you wouldn't accept your whole person
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being because of this mangled arm then
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you would focus so much on that mangled
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arm that you wouldn't be able to do
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things that you wouldn't otherwise be
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able to do it's almost what I did yes
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yes you say that's exactly so you taking
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a part of you an arm and focusing almost
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completely on that in just to bring it
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down to our own conversation taking a
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part of you your shyness you're not
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being yourself with males and focusing
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so much on that part that you're almost
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making not at the whole of you and you
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get an awful picture of your total self
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because of this defective part and we're
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assuming you and I didn't is effective
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we're not glossing opens they know
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you're doing alright you're not doing
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that well right now you can accept
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yourself for the time being with this
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defective part with these attributes and
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not beat yourself over the head as I see
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of you definitely in doing then it
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becomes a relatively simple problem to
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work and practice to work and practice
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against this negative attribute in other
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words let's get back to that now how to
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be yourself let's just suppose for the
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moment that you really were fully
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accepting yourself with your failings
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alright you know you're going to go how
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you know you're gonna screw up with the
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next man man after that an old
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probability but you're saying alright I
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have to go through a learning process
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that's too bad I won't be very good
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during this while but I'll do it just as
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I would add ice skating where I have to
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fall on my neck for a few times before I
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learned to ice skate okay now let's
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suppose that man if that was so you were
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really accepting you you go out take the
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risks of being you because after all if
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you do in one of these then you have to
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be yourself you're not winning them for
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a day you're not winning them for a fair
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I assume you want to marry one of these
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individuals eventually and be
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relationship I don't think so yeah he
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reaches along alright a long
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relationship in the course of which you
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couldn't ask so we don't want to give
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you something I think well that he'll
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later find that was a role playing good
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thing so you have to eventually be
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yourself now if you really weren't so
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disturbed about these present current
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failings views you could go out and be
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this self of yours ask yourself what do
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I really want to do with
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man to help and join him and have him
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help and join me because that's the
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basic function of life enjoyment which
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we can't lose and you force yourself to
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take the risk of being back because if
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you succeeded great
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if you fail too bad either you not for
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him or he may even not be for you
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because don't forget you said before
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when these men are projecting you assume
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right away it must be my doing a my
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fault you know they may not be your cup
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of tea and you may not be their cup of
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tea and it's nobody's fault it's just
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true incompatible with it yes you say
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yes so if you would really accept
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yourself as you are and then force
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yourself as if you were one of my
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regular patients I would give you this
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homework assignments and then check up
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on you to see whether you can force
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yourself to open your big mouth and be
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you for a while even though it hurt with
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these nails you would find the a you
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would start being yourself and gradually
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laughing off these inefficiencies which
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incidentally are the result of not being
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you but watching yourself from the
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outside while you trying to be you which
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is almost impossible because you can't
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spy on yourself and still be yourself
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very well at the same time no but it
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would become like a habit after a while
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if you took the risks and force yourself
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to as I said open your big mouth and
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even though you thought maybe it'll come
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out badly maybe he won't like me maybe
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I'll lose him complete me and so on and
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so forth then you start swinging in the
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groove and being what you want to be and
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I would almost guarantee that you'd
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become more practice than less
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inefficient especially in terms of the
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shyness because you wouldn't be focusing
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on oh my god isn't this awful how bad I
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am you would be focusing on what a place
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individual this is and how can I enjoy
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him which is the oh the focus well you
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see my relationship
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other way how can I be more attractive
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to him and how can he be pleased by me
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because underneath if I am NOT then I
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cannot enjoy myself I refuse to accept
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myself unless I attract and win this
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good individual isn't that what you
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basically yes and I even go further dr.
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must win when there is one of these men
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I come in contact with and I find that I
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want it called a bit more of a
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relationship well if he accepts me I'm
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going along pretty great I find myself
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constantly on the defensive honestly
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watching the way I see it not drinking
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too much the whole time instead of just
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relaxing a single eater like Mary
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doesn't supposed in psychotherapy you're
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giving a very good illustration of why
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other directors this is business other
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directors it doesn't pay because if you
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really are defining yourself in terms of
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others estimation of you then even when
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you're ahead of the game and you're
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winning them you have to be saved
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yourself will I win them today will I
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win them tomorrow will I keep winning
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them and you're always focused on am i
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doing the thing to please him and you
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never are yourself you never have itself
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while if you're saying what do I want to
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do in life there must be some human
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beings who would like me the way I am
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let's see if this is one of those human
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beings then that's the only way isn't it
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that you can be you see you know we
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haven't got too much car now so let's
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try to get it off on a constructive
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notice more concretely what you can do
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you asked before where you can go how
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you can meet new people I'd say that I
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don't know this particular area but it's
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almost any place if you could do what we
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are talking about really take risks and
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focus on what you want out of life and
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on the fact that it's going to take time
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which unfortunately it does and then
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it's not awful and you are not awful
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while it's taking that time then you can
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leave yourself open unsure lead to all
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kinds of new and counselors and these
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encounters can take place on buses while
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waiting for a streetcar
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they have streetcars in this area at
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cocktail parties anywhere you can talk
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to people who look eligible you can ask
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your friends to get you eligible but
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males
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but the main thing is that you have to
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pay like yourself while you're not doing
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badly and be not be intolerance against
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conditions which are bad and I'm
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agreeing with you that they are now as I
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said I would give you if your aphasia
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mind the homework assignment of
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deliberately very deliberately going out
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and getting yourself into trouble in
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other words taking the most eligible
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males you can find at the moment and
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forcing yourself risking yourself to be
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you are you saying even if it were like
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if I went into a doctor's office to
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start a conversation with him because he
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was attractive to me or he appealed to
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me right if I go so far as to starting
-
out a conversation with him personally
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and why not it is an eligible individual
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any kind of an eligible individual I
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know you accept that but that seems
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awfully brazen I symbol X suppose it is
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brazen what have you got to lose the
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worst he can do is reject you and you
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don't have to reject you if you were
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thinking along the lines that we've been
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25 minutes a second so yeah now can you
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try to do that I think I think so in
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order to give me a spurt to go out and
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see you're right that's all I can do is
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be rejected right and that needs you
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intact it just leaves you unfortunately
-
not for the moment getting what you want
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so you try to go anywhere in red and
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I'll be very interested in finding out
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what happened oh I'm excited and father
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well it was certainly very nice meeting
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you for thank you doctor
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I enjoyed talking with this interesting
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and I think highly courageous patient
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and thought that it gave a the session
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gave a pretty good illustration of a
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fairly typical session of rational
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emotive psychotherapy how was it typical
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in several ways in the first place I was
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able rather rapidly and quickly to get
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to some of what I think are the
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philosophic cores of the patient's
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disturbances to show her that the reason
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she is feeling shy and the shame frayed
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in this instance is because even though
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partially unwittingly she is defining
-
herself in a very negative way or
-
devaluing herself by blaming herself too
-
much for imperfect behavior because
-
perfectionism is the root of most human
-
evils and she was showing some fairly
-
typical perfectionistic notions so very
-
quickly as is usually done in rational
-
emotive psychotherapy we skip some of
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the asides we skip going back into the
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history of some of the psycho analysts
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do and we skip some of the transference
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relations between us and the patient and
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we skip some of the nonverbal expression
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not that we think these things are quite
-
unimportant that we think there are
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relatively little relevance to the basic
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core of the patient's disturbance which
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is her philosophy of life typically
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again this patient showed both anxiety
-
and low frustration tolerance which most
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patients showed and these were
-
intertwined and again very usually she
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was then beating herself over the head
-
blaming herself condemning herself for
-
feeling these kinds of feelings now she
-
did not see very clearly at least I
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thought so at the beginning of the
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session exactly what the claritin
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sentences and exclamatory sentences she
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was telling herself to create these
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feelings and I endeavoured to show her
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some of these sentences and what could
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be done about it
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among other things I also though briefly
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because this is just one brief session
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tried to give her a homework assignment
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that you could go and get her teeth into
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and actively try to do 2d propagandize
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herself by going out and taking risks
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which normally up to now she hadn't been
-
taking that much of it's interesting to
-
note that again quite typically in this
-
session although I was attacking fairly
-
vigorously the patient's attitudes or
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philosophies she did not feel an attack
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on her she felt that I was supporting
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her anything and she ended up I thought
-
rather optimistically feeling that I had
-
given her several ideas of what she
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could do in the future again rather
-
typically in this session I kept
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persuading the patients and attacking
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her ideas and showing her that her
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philosophy of life not only was such and
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such but that if she stuck to this kind
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of philosophy she had to get negative
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and self-defeating results from it and
-
then I kept persistently going on even
-
though a time she became defensive and
-
wasn't quite accepting by any means what
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I was saying
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I didn't let this bother me but kept
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going on against her basic core system
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her value system because this is again
-
what bothers patients that they give up
-
very easily on attacking their own
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negative evaluations of themselves and
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therefore they persist forever now the
-
world limitations of course especially
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in terms of time through the session and
-
these limitations did have some effect
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for example it wasn't a not enough time
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for repetition in several sessions I
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would have gone over much of the same
-
material until I was sure that hadn't
-
sunk in then I would have had time to
-
get feedback from the patient to see
-
whether she really understood in action
-
in particular what I was talking about
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and whether she was following it up or
-
leading herself up some other diverting
-
pathway which people can do there was no
-
time to emphasize that she would have to
-
continually reassess her evaluations of
-
herself and her general philosophies and
-
do rethinking for the rest of the life
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time to show the patient very much that
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even during this session in relation to
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me and what she was saying about herself
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that she was displaying her bad
-
attitudes toward herself and finally
-
there was no occasion because this was
-
an individual session to see how she
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related specifically to other non
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therapists so she would in group therapy
-
and in the midst of this group situation
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to show her exactly what was going on
-
and what she could do about it but I do
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feel hope hopeful about the session and
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think that perhaps I was able to at
-
least to give the patient a few ideas
-
which he could then go out and work on
-
on her own because unless patients do
-
work themselves with the material that
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we therapists give them in psychotherapy
-
nothing eventually happens it isn't any
-
magic that we have for them but we can
-
give them certain catalytic ideas and
-
influences which then if they work and
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practice at work and practice that will
-
do them good for the rest of their lives