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[MUSIC: "Breathe" by Télépopmusik
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I brought you something close to me
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Left for something you see though you're here
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You haunt my dreams
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There's nothing to do but believe
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Just believe
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Just breathe...]
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The way people view fat today is, I wanna right away say disgusting.
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We are told that we can't even love each other in public, because it's so revolting.
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I just feel like it's a love-hate.
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I think people are scared to show their appreciation for some big women.
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and some people don't care after a while. More than anything
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I feel, like it's an indifference.
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While I have all the confidence in the world, I am being told every day that my body is revolting
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I look at it like this, you know there is so many beautiful, natural wonders in this world, and all these
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natural wonders theyr'e huge right. You know? The Taj Mahal, umm, the Grand Canyon
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all these things are big, and people come from all around to see it.
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So it is as we know, with me being a larger woman, i'm like an attraction
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you know? Like, you can't miss me and I am a good thing to look at as well.
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When they see a fat body it's very challenging to their politics.
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It's very challenging to this, what they view as their, um, their moral code is challenged by a fat body.
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Especially a confident fat body.
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I think I've always felt, moderately at peace with my body. I think my issues always been everyone else.
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I first realized I was fat when my mom stopped introducing me as her daughter and started introducing
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me as her fat daughter, her fluffy daughter, my chubby Jessica.
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I stopped being a human, I started being a body.
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For me, I'm at my heaviest. And, ironically, or maybe not ironically
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but at my heaviest, I am the happiest.
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I first realized I was fat, (laughs) probably at a young age. I was an 11 pound baby, so
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I never had a skinny phase.
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And my family, they accepted me.
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Dieting for me started, really young. It started off as restricting
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and by 10 I was in Jenny Craig, and then Weight Watchers, and pills and special physicians.
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When I look at the word diet, I see the word die. Die-et.
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I have never dieted. Um, the only time I kinda could think of dieting was when I was young.
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Probably like 7. When the doctor said, oh you should cut back on X,Y and Z.
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And I did it. But afterwards I was like, psh, this ain't for me.
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You know what I mean?
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Around high school I got a personal trainer. Got my calories down to what almost killed me.
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Um, and still, couldn't lose any weight. When I moved out of my mother's house
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um, I gave up dieting for good.
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[MUSIC: "Dimestore Diamond" by The Gossip
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"Everybody knows the things she does to please"
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Low cut sweaters with her skirt above her knees
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She's a dimestore diamond
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Everybody knows just where she gets her clothes
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A water coloured painting in a Renoir pose
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She's a dimestore diamond
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Everybody knows but no one can tell..." ]
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Um, fat acceptance is just, uh the radical idea that every body is a good body
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and that regardless of your shape or your size, that you deserve just as much respect as the next person.
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Fat acceptance is just accepting where it's at. You know, whether you're
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bigger or you're smaller, just accepting what it is.
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Your arms, your double chin, your thighs, you know,
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and just not worrying about how people may view you.
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[MUSIC: "Be" by Common]
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(inaudible + laughter)
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Growing up, I compared myself to images I'd see on t.v.
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As a young black girl, it wasn't really so much for the size, it was the skin color.
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You know, watching t.v. you don't see really a lot of young black girls on t.v.
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And it wasn't until probably in my later teens that I felt more conscious about my body
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because that's when I saw the music videos.
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My 'aha' moment, um, was through the fat community.
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You know, the fat acceptance group.
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And that really started when I was in high school
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when I saw that as, you know, a celebration of plus size women.
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And that's been going on for I'd say like, 10 years now, since the early 2000's.
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So uh, from there the lightbulb went off, I love myself more
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Uh, I didn't want to wear the baggy clothes to hide myself.
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You know my mothers told me to cover my arms, I didn't wanna cover it
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You know? I felt more comfortable in my body because I saw other women who looked like me
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doing the same things, so I was, like why can't I?
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I think high school, um, is a struggle to feel visible for anybody.
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As a fat person, I think I took on the role as the class clown,
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because I wasn't allowed to be um, an object of desire by my classmates.
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I think once I started um, finding that people were attracted to me
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and, that um men and women found me desirable as I was
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I felt that was an invitation and permission to start loving myself as well
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and as much as they did.
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(inaudible hotties)
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Recently, I was walking home, and I live in my own world,
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I know that a lot of negativity happens around me
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so I just try to phase it out, but I was walking home and a woman called me a 'fat piggy bitch'.
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For no reason, she just yelled it.
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And, in my head I heard "Miss Piggy Bitch!!"
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And so I looked at her and said thank you and I kept walking and I was feeling great about myself
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and a man said, "Did you hear what she said to you? She called you a fat piggy bitch".
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Which just seemed like, ludicrous to me, because I didn't even irritate her in any way,
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but by purely existing, she felt is was necessary to take me down.
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I hate to say it, as ironic as this may sound, I still feel invisible today.
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Like uh, I would say probably like most of my life
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as big, as colorful as I am I still feel invisible in a sense.
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The way I make myself present and visible, um, is I've really allowed myself to
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give in to everything I've ever wanted to wear.
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And a lot of the times that means looking a lot like a cartoon character.
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I get called babydoll a lot, people always ask me if I am working birthday parties.
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But in, um allowing myself to dress the way I've always wanted to
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and never allowed myself when I was hating my body, um,
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I make myself very present for other people.
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Recently, I met a woman online, maybe 2 years ago,
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that was involved in an online community called fatshionista
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which is a fat fashionista, on live journal, which just brought me into this myraid
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of blogs and books and people that were involved in this movment that gave me
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sort of a more substantial argument when people initially would say fat is bad,
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and I could only say no its not
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Um, I was the introduced to this community that gave me substantial reasons why fat was okay,
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and why my body was beautiful and why i deserved more than
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society was ready to give me.
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I discovered fatshionista, I was just always inspired by the outfit posts
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so that's how I got inspired or posted my own,
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then from there it was just a wealth of information.
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With the fat-o-sphere, there is a lot of fat fashion blogging.
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There is always what fat girls wear, what fat girls wear.
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There's a lot on - not a lot on what fat girls think, um, in relation to what they wear.
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Fat touches everything I do.
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K: See with this one, it's kind of thick.
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J: That's cute!
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K: Yeah
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J: Yeah I like that. Are you trying it on? I really like this though. Did you make it?
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K: Thank you
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Again I really don't see a lot of art out there that reflects me.
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I'm a plus size woman, you know, I love afrocentric themes.
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So I'm like, you know, lemme try and play around with it.
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I don't feel like I'm the best artist, but it's my work, you know?
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And I've always wanted to see, the few black artists that are out there to do,
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you know, show images of bigger women.
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When it comes to crocheting, um, the challenge is sometimes,
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that there aren't many patterns in plus sizes.
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but, the beauty is, is just, you know just winging it, just adding more stitches.
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Same thing with constructing clothes.
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Clothes are nothing but shapes.
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Like, I made a skirt in 45 minutes. I was just draping the fabric on me, you know,
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2 squares, put it together - bam you got a skirt.
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Fat style is um, one of the biggest ways I believe you can be politcal as a fat body.
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Um, because it's very subversive given that we as fat people we are given limited choices.
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When you're thin, you have the entire mall at your beck and call.
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When you're fat, you have one store that has matronly, shaming clothes.
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J: It fits fine.
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(laughter)
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J: Keena, does this fit good?
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When you look good, you feel good. And people feel good around you as well.
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People don't expect for larger women to wear bright colors, or god forbid a mini-skirt
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or even, got forbid, stripes.
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So, it feels good to stop outside the box and wear things that's not the norm
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as a larger woman. And get compliments for it because you rock it a certain way.
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Recently, I went to um an indie fashion event at a plus size
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thrift store called re-dress and it was just really inspiring to see
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all these fat bodies, all these loving, fat bodies in one space being really positive.
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A lot of, most, not all of the people present were um, part of my online community.
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My fat acceptance activists, and my fashionistas, and it was just really inspiring
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to see people doing what they love and promoting this self-accepting, positive, environment.
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We've noticed that it's really powerful to see um,
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more than one fat body enjoying each others company in public.
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And, um, I think initally people are too intimidated to say anything
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but occasionally you'll get people who will make comments
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Uh, I just think it's really intimidating for people to see fat bodies together,
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it's really powerful.
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(laughing)
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I think because I make such a point in making myself
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visible on my own terms,there's very little places where I feel invisible.
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I feel hyper-visible when I am in restaraunts eating.
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I feel like the spotlight's always on me.
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When i'm at the doctor's it's a weird mix of hypervisibility and invisibility.
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I feel so detached from my body, and not a human,
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but I also feel really under the microscope and sort of
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like a mutant as well. So it's really... going to the doctor's is challenging.
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A couple months ago I, back in June I bought an airplane ticket
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through Southwest Airlines to Las Vegas for my aunts wedding.
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Got to the airport early and I just thought, hmm, maybe I should ask
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about my return boarding pass, if it got printed.
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That day I wore a mini skirt and a sleeveless top. Didn't think nothin' of it.
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Didn't think people were watching me or scrutinizing me.
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Went to the counter, asked the lady about it, and she was like, you know
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I think that you could use another seat. I'm like, so what are you implying?
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And she's like, well me and a few other people we have been observing you and we
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feel that you could use another seat so that will be $179 dollars.
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I was like, excuse me? How are you just going to assume that
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I need to take another seat? And she was like well, you know, the seat you're sitting in over there is
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smaller than an airline seat. So, long story short, you know, it just took me by surprise
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that one that people were watching me. And just , visualizing if I could fit in the seat or not.
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And maybe that's a time where I kinda felt kinda hypervisible.
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Like, unbeknownst to me there was someone watching me
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and just juding by my body frame that I need to pay another $200
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for a lousy seat on an already crowded aircraft.
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You know, we worked it out, I talked to the supervisor
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And, another thing, I really wanted to lash out, but I couldn't because it was one of those things
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where you don't want to be the "angry black woman" let alone at a airport, you know?
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So I was looking around, just watching to see people like, observing me, see what's going on,
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but it didn't seem like it. Uh, talked to the supervisor, went on the plane
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while they were boarding the handicapped so the aircraft was empty.
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Sat in the seat, put down the armrest, and the supervisor said,
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"well, you're borderline on safety, we will let you pass this time"
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And so - i'm about to cry just thinking about it, so it's just like,
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I just never thought I would be picked out like that, you know?
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And it's just, before I got on the plane, I was just thinking,
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that was a time where I thought, maybe I should change my body
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to appease others. You know? Like maybe if I weren't so big,
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I wouldn't be a hazard to someone.
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But, it went well, but it just left a bad taste in my mouth because
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I want to travel more, and with the whole airlines charging more
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for luggage, it's just that Southwest is the only place that has inexpensive airline tickets.
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But, I just feel like when I travel, or when I go out. I have to be conscious of the space I take.
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You know, no I can't fit in every chair, but I still like being a plus size woman.
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Like I don't want to change myself to make others feel comfortable.
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[MUSIC: "Be" by Common]
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I just sort of, uh go day to day and talk to people when they approach me.
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I am confronted a lot about my body, on the street, by strangers.
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It gives me a chance to open up a dialogue about fat acceptance and maybe get other
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fat people I meet involved in this community.
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The Adipositivity Project is a project that a woman made to photograph
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plus size women and their bodies, just in the nude.
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So I contacted her earlier this year when I had a trip to New York
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and I just had to be a part of it. It was a very very liberating experience
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and I would love to do it again and I would encourage other women,
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especially women of color, to do it.
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I make myself present online, I have, um, I'm just fully exploiting every outlet for myself.
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I have a tumblr, which has really helped promote my blog,
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Um, I'm on twitter, and I try to read other blogs, comment, create a community with other FA bloggers
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and just really inundate everyone with my image, and my thoughts.
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On my tumblr, I just mostly post pictures and words of things that inspire me.
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Um, what made me create an account, because I wanted to show a person who was
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fat, and black, afrocentric, and who is unashamed of who she is, you know, post there.
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Right now I have over 500 followers, I would never thunk it.
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I hope that my activism and my blogging and the work I do online
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helps give people of all shapes a safe place to feel good about their bodies
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and to talk honestly about what they are feeling and why they are feeling it.
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And just, in hopes of , you know, this um, that someday we will just all feel very neutral and loving
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about our bodies and there won't... fat people won't feel so isolated.
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My message to young girls who are plus size in this day and age is just to live life,
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enjoy yourself, and don't let nothing stop you. If you want to take a plus size, or
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you know, take pole dancing, take it. I've done it.
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If you wanna be a dancer, do it.
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If you wanna go to the beach in a bikini, do it, I've done it, you know?
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Just don't let nothing stop you, don't let the naysayers, you know, get to your head.
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Just live life, because at the end of the day you will want to die knowing that you've done everything
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that you you want to do.
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Even my experience with Southwest Airlines,
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I know at the end of the day it's not going to stop me from travelling.
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I just have to do it in other ways.
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You know? Um, I just want to die knowing that I did everything
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um, that I loved and wanted to do.
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So I hope that other women, young or old,
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big or small, black or white, inbetween, they do that as well.
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If I could say one thing to um, young fat people dealing with bullying
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and their body image, I don't really think there is anything you can say
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to young teens because we all struggle with how we feel about ourselves. But, it's not about you
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it's about the bully. It's about their own issues, it's about what people are telling them
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they should feel, and you just... don't let anyone police your body.
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[MUSIC: "Breathe" by Télépopmusik...
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"I'm used to it by now...
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another day...
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just believe...
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just breathe...
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just believe...
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just breathe...